Tinnitus Poems & Writings

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I looked around for poems and writings about tinnitus and came across David King's and Gerald B. Frank's writings:


Voices

Some. like myself, have echo chambers in the brain.
We hear a sound, the sound gets trapped, runs round again.
All sound is in the brain, of course, does not exist
outside. Outside are fluctuations in the air,
its pressures on the inner ear equipped to turn
them into signals to the brain, where we live through
them in the form of sound. For some years now I've had
just such a chamber in my head. One ear has lost
its usefulness; the nerve, unstimulated and,
like all of nature in its hatred of the smallest
of near-vacuums, has learnt self-stimulation,
composing its own music and defying me
to tell the difference. It lays a single note
from somewhere in the body, runs it round a few
times, adding overtones and undertones and half
tones to the score. It's chamber music with a penny
difference, the sound-equivalent of being stood
between two mirrors, seeing endless images
extending into space. Sometimes the music sounds
like speech, like voices murmuring from far away;
sometimes the notes are dragged through water, lose their shape.
At times, I feel for those distinguished or deluded
souls who think they hear God's voice - or angels - telling
them what they should think and do. And then I think of
all the sounds the world creates, suggestive of our
human speech: the deep voice of the ocean, for
a start, and I can understand their guilessness.

(c) David King - Voices


Tinnitus

Tinnitus: hiss
of the viper, viperish
hiss, kiss of death,
death of silence, its bliss.

Shhhh, sound for no sound,
for hush, word for silence,
word meant to brush
sound under the carpet,
escaping and breaking
in wave upon wave, crashing
through the sound barrier.

We call it white noise
that is muddy, distorted,
then booms its confusion
embracing all sound
(as white is all colours)
from sizzle to whistle,
from gong to bird song.

Heard or unheard, it's
the sound of the gas
creeping into the chamber,
din from within
the heart of creation.

Sea-heart and surf-roar,
wave-break and shell-speak,
babble of voices rise to
crescendo, siren
and word-like, though wordless
and barren 'til peak swell,
the stopper, kills all
but the viper,
kills all but its hiss,
death to silence, its bliss.

(c) David King - Tinnitus


Tinnitus O

By Gerald B. Frank

The bells are ringing in my ears
As they've been ringing all these years,
And as I listen to their peel,
I wonder if they're really real?
The bells are ringing in my ears -
Unreally real for all these years!


Tinnitus C

By Gerald B. Frank

This morning I can hear the roar
Of whistles deep inside my craw,
The hiss of steam is most insistent,
I hope today I'll prove resistant
To its constant noisome noise
Lest it dampen this day's joys.
If I live a wholesome day,
Will the ringing go away?
Ha! As I rise to write this poem,
The hissing stops - leaves me alone!
I'll live this day as best I can,
Until the hissing starts again.


Tinnitus A

By Gerald B. Frank

The hissing in my ear goes on
Like an operatic song,
One by Verdi, not Bellini,
Led by Solti, not, Guilini,
Sung and played in monotone
On my ear-drum gramophone!


Tinnitus X

By Gerald B. Frank

As I lie here on the floor
To exercise my back once more,
I just relax - sometimes I dose
(As he who's done it surely knows!) -
The quiet and the silence reign
Except I hear that hiss again,
The constant hiss of Tinnitus;
Now, tell me why he makes a fuss -
He comes with me where e'er I go,
Summer, winter, sun or snow;
I keep him warm inside my head,
He reads with me each book I've read,
He shares my meals, my kids, my walks,
My jokes, my triumphs and my talks!
So why, I wonder, does he mess
With my quiet happiness?


Tinnitus Z

By Gerald B. Frank

The constant hiss of Tinnitus
is growing more and more,
Its getting louder worries me -
I wonder what's in store?
I wake and hear my Tinnitus,
the hissing in my ears,
I walk and hear that Tinnitus
exacerbating fears!
Please, tell me what is Tinnitus,
and tell me, please, why me?
And tell me what I have to do
to be of Tinnitus free?


Tinnitus ZC

By Gerald B. Frank

Hissing, hissing in my ears
Makes me feel so very queer,
Makes me wonder will I be
Losing soon my sanity,
Makes me wonder what comes next -
Who implanted this mean hex?
Yet, when I think of other things
My Tinnitus in silence sings!


Tinnitus ZF

By Gerald B. Frank

Tinnitus, Tinnitus in my ear -
I hope you'll soon, yes, disappear,
You've got my brain so nicely curled
I've got to get you from my world!
 
"Tinnitus" by ATA member Lisa Halpern:

Panic. A sound that lodges in my ear.
A stranger in my house who won't go away.
Some transient guest? Not so, I fear.
This irritating boarder is here to stay.
Shall I compare thee to a manic violin?
A constant noise pollutant? Raspy hissing?
Where deep inside, a thief has broken in
and taken the quiet, blessed solitude is missing.
The whistling phantom doesn't seem to know
how to end this cruel, embedded joke.
I can't stop listening but finally just let go
of tragedy's mask. It drifts away, like smoke.​
 

Sleepless Night - A Pulsatile Tinnitus Poem (reprinted from whooshers.com)

It's time for bed ~ but the swoosh is in my head.
With every beat my heart does take ~ a swooshing noise my ear does make.
I toss and turn and try to sleep ~ but in my head the thoughts do creep.
Is this real, this pain I feel? Just wtf is the deal?
Test after test, I try my best, but doctors I sure do detest.
They guess and guess and get nuthin but a hot mess.
They scan for this and scan for that, marking all the scans as stat.
How did I get here? Stuck in this hell?
Great mental stability was never my best ability ~ but sweet jesus what will it take? How many more appts will I make?
I'll never forget the day it started ~ the day my old life departed.
It's so sad looking back ~ this shit I feel is so wack :(
I miss playing cards with my friends ~ heckling was one of the hottest trends.
We would smoke, and we would laugh, good times we Always did have ;)
But those times have gone away since the swoosh is here to stay.
I wonder how I can go on, doing what needs to be done and never having any fun.
I miss those days and my crazy ass ways!
The swoosh is so hard to explain, it doesn't cause me physical pain.
It sucks the life away from you and there's nothing you can do.
Nothing is quite the same cuz now my life has become so fucking lame.
I can't sleep ~ I let the thoughts creep in too deep ;(
The thoughts and the swoosh, make it so hard to turn off my mind and leave this bs behind ~ now it's almost one and this poem is done ~ goodnight :)

-Dorine Pidrak Steele
 
Tinnitus, a frightening word for some,
wake up - and go crying to mum,
in the dark of night, buzz, buzz, ring, ring,
that's what tinnitus likes to sing.

But in the busy day,
Tinnitus seems to stay away,
talk, talk,
walk, walk.

In the moments when your alone,
Tinnitus comes off pospone,
and he comes to you,
your worried mind thinks what to do?

Tinnitus comes and goes,
comes and goes,
but - Tinnitus is never gone,
not for sure and not for long.

Tinnitus is now a friend of mine,
me and him like to pass the time,
his monotonic ring,
is his favorite song to sing.

So listen out for him,
he's always looking for a new victim!

By Angus Smith
 
Here is a poem about pulsatile tinnitus, called "Heart Sounds", which I found on Whooshers.com. It expresses my mood today:


It arrived uninvited
I poked and prodded
Anticipating an early exit
None came
The heart-like sound persisted.

Others intervened
Curious at first
Pressing, scoping, testing
No answers
Interest wanes, Hope follows
The heart-like sound persisted.

Late night awakenings
No fear or sadness, just resignation
Utter silence no more
My Albatross
The heart-like sound persisted.
 


I beat my machine it's a part of me it's inside of me
I'm stuck in this dream it's changing me i am becoming
The me that you know had some second thoughts
He's covered with scabs and he is broken and sore
The me that you know doesn't come around much
That part of me isn't here anymore
All pain disappears it's the nature of my circuitry
Drowns out all i hear there's no escape from this my new consciousness
That me that you know used to have feelings
But the blood has stopped pumping and he's left to decay
The me that you know is now made up of wires
And even when i'm right with you i'm so far away
I can try to get away but i've strapped myself in
I can try to scratch away the sound in my ears
I can see it killing away all my bad parts
I don't want to listen but it's all too clear
Hiding backwards inside of me i feel so unafraid
Annie, hold a little tighter i might just slip away
It won't give up it wants me dead
Goddamn this noise inside my head

I've always been a big fan of Nine Inch Nails, and Trent Reznor is an outspoken sufferer of T.



This is another video where Trent references his Tinnitus:

"I still recall the taste of your tears, echoing your voice, just like the ringing in my ears."

I love it. Although I wouldn't recommend listening to some of this stuff very often if you're dealing with Tinnitus, it can be completely depressing.
 
Thanks for sharing, Hudson. It looks like you're in about the same frame of mind I'm in today. I'm sure things will look better tomorrow!
 
I grabbed some drumsticks way back when
I turned the headphones up to ten
I knew I would be famous soon
Beating all the parts to every tune

When I was twelve, like other boys
I bought some amps and ditched my toys
We played at dances to impress the girls
And here my story now unfurls

To hear the organ, guitar, and bass
I aimed two speakers at my face
One on the right, one on the left
Our parents said we'd all go deaf

And not to mention marching band
Shiny trombone in my hand
I couldn't hear over the drums so well
Beating like the hammers of hell

And all the concerts I'd go to see
Five dollars, it was almost free
Aerosmith and Rush and Kiss
Supersonic volume bliss

The seventies, now winding down
A new sound had appeared in town
We beat the poly disco crowd
Our Marshall amps were twice as loud

And as my rockin' years rolled by
A sound appeared just like a fly
My only early warning sign
Of things to come (that doesn't ryhme)

Electric blues would take a toll
On my old poor cochlear soul
At 39 I was all washed up
With a pink carnation and a pickup truck
(ya I stole that line)

Looking back now it appears
Had I stuffed cotton in my ears
Or turned it down like the old folks said
Today I'd have a silent head

But here I am, it ain't so fun
I keep my laptop down on one
With every sound my eardrums jump
And squeal and hiss and screech and thump

My doctor told me years ago
You did this to yourself, you know
From now on just be on your guard
And let's see that insurance card

So here I sit, all broken hearted
My silent days have all departed
I want to mask or habituate
But we play tonight, I can't be late.

- I Who Love Music
 
Very well written, WOW!!! you do love music ... i like music, but i've never been to a concert or played an instrument just the usual discos and nightclubs in my younger days and i have ended up with t, and a very miserable life ... i'm glad you still are able to enjoy your passion of music albeit at a quieter level.
 
Love your creativity, IWLM! And I'm glad you still love music, and are able to play, although toned down now. Too bad we can't go back to those days of the "pink carnation and the pickup truck" and do things differently. Ah, the folly of youth!

Smiles,
Karen
 
I'm going to comment on this again, because I'd like everyone to read your poem!

Everyone --- Please read this great poem about tinnitus. It says it all!!
 
This is a poem by Murial I think you will like to read off the BTA forum.

HAVE NO TIME FOR TINNITUS

I have no time for Tinnitus, for I'm as busy as a bee

living life to the full, like a bird that's been set free.

You came into my life and left me in such a mess

until I realised that paying you attention was heightening my stress.

So I will suppress you, compress you and ignore you, until you set me free

for there is one thing you can be sure of, you will not feast on me.



I have no time for Tinnitus. I refuse to let you intervene

and strongly refute that you'll prevent me from being the person I've always been.

Though we'll always be together - I fully understand,

but be sure of one thing - that I will not allow you to take the upper hand!

There is life after Tinnitus, while as yet no cure has been found -

if we manage our condition and remain positive, we can turn our lives around.

Like the soldier back from battle, the war has left him lame.

He picks up the pieces and goes forward, so we must do the same.



I have no time for Tinnitus, so I'll ignore you all I can.

You are very prevalent and the blight of many a man.

We must always remember that life is for living.

Tho' events can beset us which are quite unforgiving.

So we must stay with the moment and never look back,

keep the present in mind so that we remain on track.

The future is for tomorrow - the past already gone.

So Tinnitus sufferers everywhere let us each and every one -

state, that we have no time for Tinnitus, with one united voice

for if we grasp the help that's out there, then we do have a choice.

Finally, our message to Tinnitus - to leave you in no doubt

that our aim will always be - to try and stamp you out!

Muriel
 
Having lain awake for half the night last night this popped into my head. Just wondered if others might have put their T troubles into rhymes. Though I'm useless at rhymes, I think writing them can help think things through. Anyhow, hope others will add theirs to this thread.

Like three furies in the night
They take in turns without respite
To shout in my ears
And rattle my head
And fill me with fear
When its time for bed.
 
Hi, Barnacle. Check out this thread on crowdsourcing a book of poems about tinnitus. I haven't got the procedure down yet as far as creating the book, but when the time comes, I'll give a shout out to everyone who wants to contribute. It will probably be another month before I can start on it.

I like your poem, so find an image to go along with it. I'm going to recommend that everyone find their image on canstockphoto.com, in a horizontal format. I have an account with them and can purchase a subscription so members of TT can simply tell me which image and I'll buy it. There are plenty of images online, but it's best to keep things simple, and this way the image will be royalty free and less expensive.
 
Hi, Barnacle. Check out this thread on crowdsourcing a book of poems about tinnitus. I haven't got the procedure down yet as far as creating the book, but when the time comes, I'll give a shout out to everyone who wants to contribute. It will probably be another month before I can start on it.

I like your poem, so find an image to go along with it. I'm going to recommend that everyone find their image on canstockphoto.com, in a horizontal format. I have an account with them and can purchase a subscription so members of TT can simply tell me which image and I'll buy it. There are plenty of images online, but it's best to keep things simple, and this way the image will be royalty free and less expensive.
Hi Cheza
That sounds like a great idea. Will help out if I can. I use to work in campaigning and so know a little bit about getting media publicity and that kind of thing. Though havent done that sort of work for a year or two now.
But maybe I can at some stage have a bash at writing a proper poem for your book, as the one above was just off the top of me head and I suspect that people who know about these things will say that it doesnt even scan! Would also be nice to do a more nuanced one, trying to capture the heartache and fear but also the hoping and coping.
Best wishes
Barnacle
 
I use to work in campaigning and so know a little bit about getting media publicity and that kind of thing.
That would be a big help. I'll be selling it as an ebook on Amazon, and also in print using their CreateSpace option. It isn't difficult to do, it's a matter of understanding how to place everything on the book(s). Kindle uses a different format than CreateSpace.

Right now I'm working on my own book about tinnitus, and have anywhere from 50 to 60 pages to go. Then I'll have to format it for Kindle and CreateSpace. Lots of research, and I'm editing as I write, so I'm lucky to get 4 pages done a day.
 
That would be a big help. I'll be selling it as an ebook on Amazon, and also in print using their CreateSpace option. It isn't difficult to do, it's a matter of understanding how to place everything on the book(s). Kindle uses a different format than CreateSpace.

Right now I'm working on my own book about tinnitus, and have anywhere from 50 to 60 pages to go. Then I'll have to format it for Kindle and CreateSpace. Lots of research, and I'm editing as I write, so I'm lucky to get 4 pages done a day.
Hi Sorry for delay getting back. Have developed new sound and can now hear T outdoors while walking in woods. So am not feeling 100%. Anyhows, your book sounds great. I look forward to reading it. And 4 pages a day is fine I think. Means about a chapter a week.
B
 
Oh Blessed Silence,
How I yearn for thee,
To return and cast away,
This eternal cacophany,

Once quiet rest,
Long buried in memory.
Unwelcome guest
From whom
the mind can never flee

Beat against the wall
As you may,
But this tenant will continue to stay
Forgotten though once it may be,
it will return triumphantly
What committed sin,
Sentenced us to this decree?

The night brings respite,
Nightmare but relief,
The day you will suffer,
Try as you might.

For the morning brings the tone,
KEEEHEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! in your head,
The devil's mocking laugh,
Time to get out of bed!

A cure there is not,
"Fucked" is your lot,
A prayer won't bring dissapation,
A smile your only emancipation.
So live life full and jolly,
'Lest you be drawn into the folly,
Of tears and pain and hate,
For never is it too late-

To realize your aspirations,
To rapture in all sensations,
To mend all others in harm,
And fill your heart in a woman's arms.
To quell the ringing in your skull,
And bring it to an irkless lull,
With raging vengeance stand and fight!
And seek the joys saught in the light!

Fail not and let the hissing win,
Your life once more you must begin.
 
Sing "Hale Hale" to the times we dream
When T is not around
To spoil everything
Sing "Hale Hale" to pushing tinnitus aside
Forget that it's a pest!
And laugh until we cry

Cheers, TinA#oct
 
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Thank you Emmalee, This is the chorus to "T takes the rap". I just learned about the " writing and poem" section today. Their are some great writers here. Take care and have a wonderful day. TinA#7oct
 
Tinnitus my salient foe
You bring me sadness and woes
Sometimes there's a quiver of fear
When you mask what I need to here

Music demands silence you see
There's no room for you here my T
Always wanting to tag along
When I'm trying to write a song

So since you will not disappear
I guess I'll have to keep you here
Include you now in songs I write
And hope the tune will be alright

And surely enough there you are
Singing as if you were a star
My salient T note of A
For once you were useful today

@TinA#7oct
 
Tinnitus For Life

I awoke one night to a strange sound,
So I got up and looked around
But realised as I went back to bed
The noise was coming from inside my head.


Couldn't get back to sleep that night,
Went to work not feeling quite right.
Kept hearing this horrible pitch in my ear
But hoped it would soon disappear.


Days went by and I started to fear
This noise would soon be all I could hear.
Tired, anxious and feeling distressed
I took time off work to try and rest.


I wanted a cure, so searched on the web,
I tried potions, pills and everything I'd read.
The doctors tried to do some good
And I carried on as best I could.


But often as I would wrestle in my bed,
Dark thoughts would enter my tormented head.
I knew they would leave me by the morn
But still I would wake feeling broken and torn.


This noise, though harmless, was ruining my health.
I'd gaze out my window wishing I were someone else.
But somehow I had to get through all this pain,
Life is still precious and there must be some gain.


Things got a bit easier as time passed
But of painful days I had not seen the last.
Ups and downs would now be the norm,
Yet there is always a way through every storm.


Years went by and still no cure
But somehow I'd learnt a way to endure.
God is still good and this noise made me stronger,
For it to go, I prayed no longer.


Like most other folk in my neighbourhood
I now carry on and life is good.
But wait "I think it's gone" I cry,
Yes, finally it has and so have I!

A poem by Tweaker
 
@TinA#7oct & @Tweaker

You are two very talented individuals, please keep writing and posting. I wish I had the ability to write the way you both do, it is not something that comes so natural to me. I am a lover of poems and quotes, any kind of written words that come from the soul, actually.
 
Emmalee, thank you again! Becuause you write from your soul, the words you speak, don't have to rhyme. Words from the heart are always poetic, and your gift of words make you shine.
It's my pulsating tinnitus that brings out the poet in me. Some one once said "When when loose your talents from injury or disease, you may discover new talents you never thought were possible". I have learned, the difference between possible and impossible, is the measure of ones will, and willpower comes from faith, hope, love and "The Positivity Thread". So bless you for helping people here to stay positive. Thank You again TinA#7oct
 
Emmalee , I rewrote the poem

Tinnitus my salient foe
You brought to me sadness and woe
Sometime a rare quiver of fear
For you dull everything I hear

Music demands silence you see
There's no room for ringing of T
Always wanting to tag along
When I'm trying to write a song

So since you will not disappear
I guess I'll have to keep you here
Include you in melody
A risky possibility

And surely enough there you are
Singing as if you were a star
My salient T note of A
You are my foe but not today
TinA#7oct

Emmalee, I hope this is better
Thanks again, TinA#7oct
 
@TinA#7oct & @Tweaker

You are two very talented individuals, please keep writing and posting. I wish I had the ability to write the way you both do, it is not something that comes so natural to me. I am a lover of poems and quotes, any kind of written words that come from the soul, actually.
I love to write children's poems and stories. Finding a publisher is my dream. So far I have read out my childrens poems in a local school assembly as the headmaster really liked them. The children acted out one of them. So I guess there is hope. Always good to have a dream to hold onto, especially with this horrible condition.
 

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