Tinnitus Spike After Club, Lost Hope

[Katy123]

Update: hyperacusis is basically gone, but tinnitus is still there and still extremely loud. Some days it has been better and some days when i am tired for example, it is so loud that i just wanna rip my ears off. I don't know what to do anymore, im pretty sure it will stay that way and i cannot live like this for the rest of my life.

 

[coffee_girl]

I promise you that everything will be ok ...about a year ago a tire popped right by me and it sound was so loud it made my ears shriek. I was just like you, and thought the world was ending. It took my weeks and months of anguish but the sound does totally fade and now I am back to normal. Please dont lose hope, eventually it will all calm down. Pretend that this is just another phase of your T...it usually takes a year to go back to normal so give it a little time. And in the mean time...don't surround yourself with too much thought about it, time flies when you just focus on life and before you know it the sound will simmer down.

 

[TomPearson]

Hey Katy,

I think that you're getting worked up over this a bit too much, which is probably making your tinnitus louder.

You see, the fact you went there without ear protection probably did cause you hypercausis and the blocked ear feeling which in turn amplified your T due to less background noise getting through.

Now the H has gone your still focusing on the T because your worrying about it.

Try to relax and find something to distract you, and I am very confident it will settle down to it's baseline.

Just out of curiosity, when you first got tinnitus, was it loud and intrusive like it is now?

 

[Bill Bauer]

I don't know what to do anymore, im pretty sure it will stay that way and i cannot live like this for the rest of my life

It has only been about a month since the beginning of your spike. You need to wait for a lot longer before you can worry about it being permanent. If it doesn't improve in another two months, it will be a bad sign, but even in that case recovery would still be possible.

 

[dpdx]

It has only been about a month since the beginning of your spike. You need to wait for a lot longer before you can worry about it being permanent. If it doesn't improve in another two months, it will be a bad sign, but even in that case recovery would still be possible.

Sadly you only get 1 try before you mess it up. Remember how I did the ear test VEMP (100-110db) for 2 minutes. I got 25db hearing loss and a permanent increase in T from 2/10 to 8/10 with hyperacusis. Also developed dark (Black) eye floaters and Mild Visual Snow. This is a lesson to not screw around, you only get so many chances.

 

[Katy123]

My tinnitus is just getting worse everyday, its unbearable, altho i wear ear protection almost all the time. I have to go to work and live my life, unfortunately i cannot stay at home everyday and protect my ears from sounds. Idk what to do, im going crazy. Nothing can mask this, not even the masking sounds i used until now since the spike happened.

 

[Contrast]

Hey guys. My tinnitus was so much better today when i woke up. It had gone down so much and even the hyperacusis was barely there. I was so happy. Then i went to work and immediately put on my ear plugs and used them the whole workday (8 hours). I didnt get the full protection (32db) cause i cut them in half so they wouldnt be so visible, but at least 10 db was cut down in noise. We also use blender there, because of some coctails. And everytime the blendwr was used (it is loud), i had my ear plugs in and i adjusted them at this second so they would help more. Still i sometimes took my ear plugs out, because my ears started to hurt after awhile. What i noticed that after taking plugs out, my hearing is extremely sharp. I hear every little thing. Also i havent noticed any hearing loss. I hear better than most of my coworkers actually, even with my ear plugs in. Now i got home and my ears are ringing again so loud and the hyperacusis is back. I dont know what to do, i am actually changing my workplace because of that loud environment and going to a more quiet job, but that wont be until one month from now. So idk how i will survive that one month in that place, i wont ever get over that spike like this. i feel like crashing my car somewhere or doing something to myself so then i would atleast die or be in a hospital bed for some time to finally get some quiet environment.

Tinnitus and hyperacusis especially from acoustic trauma at a 100+db club guarantee some degree of hearing loss.

your hearing is damaged and you need to stay smart and protect it.

you have a sincere disability with bad T&H so I don't think you'd have trouble getting out of work.

 

[Contrast]

Get a predisone steroid it may not be to late, hurry!

 

[Katy123]

Get a predisone steroid it may not be to late, hurry!

My doctor wont prescribe it for me.

 

[Contrast]

My doctor wont prescribe it for me.

why not?

 

[dpdx]

You have another acoustic trauma and this more hearing loss. Same thing happened with me I was exposed to the VEMP test for 2 minutes (110db), it caused my T to shoot up from 2 to a 8. This happened in January!

 

[Katy123]

My tinnitus has gone only worse since the spike started. Since it is so loud, i can hear it even over loud sounds and i do not want to live anymore. In the time, i was not here, i tried to commit suicide twice, but both times woke up a day later and didnt tell anyone. I can't live with this severe tinnitus anymore, it is impossible to mask. I am going to kill myself, cause i hate myself too much for going to that fucking club without protection. How can anyone be that stupid? And now i have to live with this torture 247. This is not life, this is pure hell and i wouldnt want this to anyone. I can't do this anymore

 

[Katy123]

I was just thinking that is that karma? Have i really been such a bad person that i deserve all of this? I don't think anyone deserves this kind of hell, what could i have done that bad i have no other options than to die.

 

[Deamon22]

@Katy123 You need help, fast. Can you reach out to someone? Friends, family? Can you go to the ER? Please seek help, your T probably wont stay like this and in time it will calm down.

Did you have any other acoustic traumas since the beginning of your spike?

 

[Katy123]

@Katy123 You need help, fast. Can you reach out to someone? Friends, family? Can you go to the ER? Please seek help, your T probably wont stay like this and in time it will calm down.

Did you have any other acoustic traumas since the beginning of your spike?

I flew, but i used the ear plugs the whole time. Maybe it made it worse i couldn't cancel this too, i had to fly. I had a trip that i didnt pay for and i couldnt cancel this. When i was at the vacation, i couldnt even enjoy anything cause the tinnitus was so loud and i used earplugs almost all the time. Also some people were honking their horns when i was walking in the city one day, but as soon as i heard it, i plugged my ears. Unfortunately, i didnt have my earplugs in. Also, i have been wearing earplugs at work after this. So im not sure, maybe i have. Everyone around me are so loud all the time and wearing earplugs 247 makes me even more mad cause i can hear the tinnitus even more clearly and they make my ear canals hurt after a long time

 

[Deamon22]

I flew, but i used the ear plugs the whole time. Maybe it made it worse i couldn't cancel this too, i had to fly. Also some people were honking their horns when i was walking in the city one day, but as soon as i heard it, i plugged my ears. Also, i have been wearing earplugs at work after this.

I also had a spike after flying, it'll take time but it will go down.
Do you insert the foam ear plugs correctly? So that they don't stick out of your ears?

Was your T just getting worse after noise? Or did you noticed it also getting better if you weren't around loud noise?

 

[Katy123]

It doesnt matter anymore, i should have killed myself 2 months ago already..

 

[Deamon22]

It doesnt matter anymore, i should have killed myself 2 months ago already..

Can you reach out to family or friends for help?

 

[john paul]

You're not to blame for your Tinnitus, you dont deserve to have this condition, no one does. It does seem unfair and it does feel like life is not worth living when your being punished with this hell, but its not a personal attack against you. I think you should stop using earplugs in everyday life, all the places you never used to wear them that is. In my small amount of experience it really, really just does not help to over protect. My Tinnitus also got worse before it got better and it took many many months to start improving.

Im fine most of the time now but id bet good money on my condition deteriorating rapidly if i started wearing earplugs all day long.

 

[Rinz]

Katy… I am very sorry that you are feeling this way right now.. but most of us have experience that over time the T will get less even its very bad now.. If you have suicidal thoughts, please seek help as soon as possible for them and let your friends and family know how you are feeling. Life is worth living (even with T). This forum is filled with many people facing the same problem as you are now and we do understand you. What most of us are saying is that it will calm down and/or you will get used to it over time (even new spikes). Please do not blame yourself, you don't deserve this, nobody does, but we have to deal with it. I know this feeling very well, I went to a club in 2013 (even though I wore plugs) and my T also spiked a lot.. I blamed myself for that too.. but you know what.. after a relatively long time.. the T settled, and I could go on.. its super rough for you now, believe me I know the despair and frustration and anxiety.. but it will get better… wish you all the strength and best… Rinz

 

[Smartone202]

I promise you that everything will be ok ...about a year ago a tire popped right by me and it sound was so loud it made my ears shriek. I was just like you, and thought the world was ending. It took my weeks and months of anguish but the sound does totally fade and now I am back to normal. Please dont lose hope, eventually it will all calm down. Pretend that this is just another phase of your T...it usually takes a year to go back to normal so give it a little time.

No offense whatsoever here, but even though Tinnitus can absolutely fade back down even after many months, do you really think its fair to be saying "the sound does totally fade" and "Eventually it will all calm down"?

As far as the OP goes, you have my sympathy. Very similar story. I had my T fade to a point of where it was an afterthought for over TEN YEARS. Had to listen for it specifically. Not a worry anymore. Few spikes here and there but was never a struggle. Then on July 15th at a wedding I stayed on a CRAZY loud dance floor for about an hour straight and ever since then I have had the worst and longest spike ever which brought me to these forums. Hoping and praying it will eventually subside but the thought of it not is starting to depress me.

But if I were you, I'd seek help. Family and friends. Asap.

 

[Rinz]

I'm a bit worried >< hope Katy is fine.. she didn't log in since Sunday..

 

[Wolfears]

I'm a bit worried >< hope Katy is fine.. she didn't log in since Sunday..

Considering she already admitted to 2 failed attempts, it does not look good.

Most suicides cannot be confirmed since the poster just stops posting... unfortunately.

 

[Far]

Katy I am really worried. If you are there please reply.

 

[PeteJ]

This is a sad thread. I understand her. It is horrible when tinnitus worsens and it gets loud. Her hyperacusis improved and went away? I hope she contacts someone here.