I went out to a carnival 2 days ago with friends who are usually supportive & understanding, but they led us down a small side road where sound systems were blasting. I had earplugs in but I got separated from them and ended up there for about fifteen minutes as there was no exit from that street.
I'm so angry because I went out on the condition we would stay away from the loudest speakers, they ignored it, and now I'm having one of the worst spikes I've had in forever. I've taken one & a half Nytol Max Strength sleeping pills and still can't sleep. I don't even want to see my friends right now but I live with them.
I feel really alone right now & I don't know if this is going to be permanent or not. I already felt like my life was falling apart having ETD and now there's this. I really need this Neuromod thing to work because I can't deal with this being my life. It fucking sucks.
I'm so angry because I went out on the condition we would stay away from the loudest speakers, they ignored it, and now I'm having one of the worst spikes I've had in forever. I've taken one & a half Nytol Max Strength sleeping pills and still can't sleep. I don't even want to see my friends right now but I live with them.
I feel really alone right now & I don't know if this is going to be permanent or not. I already felt like my life was falling apart having ETD and now there's this. I really need this Neuromod thing to work because I can't deal with this being my life. It fucking sucks.