I've had tinnitus for about 4 months & it's been really hard. A week ago though it stopped & I had peace. I was in quiet places & it was fine, I read 2 books & listened to an audio book. I'd been sleeping better & my anxiety was better.A friend of mine who's helped me immensely collapsed & had a fit, I spent 6 hours in hospital with her & was anxious about her yesterday but my ear was quiet despite the stress.
Then this morning it was back & in the last hour has got really bad again. I'm in despair, was in tears on the tinnitus helpline. I was beginning to think it had gone & now it's back. I have very few friends & the lady who had a fit was coming to see me most days but now she can't drive. I can't drive myself, don't work due to long term health conditions & spend a lot of time on my own.
I've gone from almost bliss & hope to despair & suicidal thoughts in a matter of hours. I want to cry but my friend is going to call soon & I have to be strong for her as not being able to drive is hard for her & the stress she's under is massive.
I've read plenty & watched plenty of YouTube videos so I have a fair idea how to cope it's just that right now I wish I almost wish I were dead. A line from a song "minutes seem like hours & hours seem like days" is in my head.
Then this morning it was back & in the last hour has got really bad again. I'm in despair, was in tears on the tinnitus helpline. I was beginning to think it had gone & now it's back. I have very few friends & the lady who had a fit was coming to see me most days but now she can't drive. I can't drive myself, don't work due to long term health conditions & spend a lot of time on my own.
I've gone from almost bliss & hope to despair & suicidal thoughts in a matter of hours. I want to cry but my friend is going to call soon & I have to be strong for her as not being able to drive is hard for her & the stress she's under is massive.
I've read plenty & watched plenty of YouTube videos so I have a fair idea how to cope it's just that right now I wish I almost wish I were dead. A line from a song "minutes seem like hours & hours seem like days" is in my head.