- Feb 14, 2021
- 17
- 28
- Tinnitus Since
- 1999
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Ear infections + stress + drugs
Hi there,
I'm so glad I found this forum. The community seems very supportive.
I've had tinnitus since I can remember - ever since I was 4 I told my parents about it.
Long story short: my parents tried everything available back then, nothing helped. Eventually I guess I habituated. In the next couple of years I hardly ever thought about it. Sometimes I had short spikes, whenever I came back from a restaurant for example. Sleeping wasn't a problem anymore. I now realize how extremely lucky I was. I lived a happy life.
Since January 22nd, the tinnitus is back and it's worse than it's ever been. High pitched, like ten of those old TV's together in one room. I think it was caused by snorting 3-MMC, a type of 'designer drug'. As I'm typing this out, I cannot believe how stupid I was. I always said 'no' to drugs, hardly ever went to parties, was cautious. Until that one evening where I decided to make the biggest mistake of my life so far.
The next week, I went through hell. I couldn't help but blame myself over and over, mourning my life how it was before. Telling myself I threw all my progress out of the window. I couldn't sleep, had pains in my stomach and chest and even vomited - because of how anxious I was.
I went to see my GP and the ENT tested my ears: no hearing loss. Even though I suspect some hearing loss in my right ear. My ENT also said the 3-MMC is the cause of a spike and it's likely not permanent. I have problems with pressure behind my eardrums and Eustachian tube. My eardrums are basically all scar tissue, a result of many ear infections ever since I was a kid (probable cause back then).
I got Oxazepam to help with the extreme stress. It only made me more anxious and it resulted in a 'new sound' in my right ear, so I quit. I even talked about euthanasia, to my GP and my parents. That was so hard to do, but I really hit rock bottom and saw no way out.
The past week was a bit better. I switched to Melatonin (3mg) at night, during the day I do not take any meds. I get a few hours of sleep, so that's a huge improvement!
As for now the high pitch tinnitus hasn't improved. The 'new sound' in my right ear is a bit quieter it seems.
I am waiting on some psychological help, especially to help with the feelings of self-blame. Besides that, I am seeing a more specialized ENT in Belgium, next Friday. They can also help me with TRT, I hope that will help.
I'm sorry if my story is a bit all over the place - so are my thoughts the past few weeks. I hope I can find some support. And maybe someone knows something about the 3-MMC? Is it a spike? And maybe I prolonged it by extreme feelings of self-blame/stress?
P.S. My dentist told me that I needed to have my wisdom tooth (bottom left) removed, as it had no place to 'come out'. Could that also be a cause? I researched it but got mixed signals about it.
I'm so glad I found this forum. The community seems very supportive.
I've had tinnitus since I can remember - ever since I was 4 I told my parents about it.
Long story short: my parents tried everything available back then, nothing helped. Eventually I guess I habituated. In the next couple of years I hardly ever thought about it. Sometimes I had short spikes, whenever I came back from a restaurant for example. Sleeping wasn't a problem anymore. I now realize how extremely lucky I was. I lived a happy life.
Since January 22nd, the tinnitus is back and it's worse than it's ever been. High pitched, like ten of those old TV's together in one room. I think it was caused by snorting 3-MMC, a type of 'designer drug'. As I'm typing this out, I cannot believe how stupid I was. I always said 'no' to drugs, hardly ever went to parties, was cautious. Until that one evening where I decided to make the biggest mistake of my life so far.
The next week, I went through hell. I couldn't help but blame myself over and over, mourning my life how it was before. Telling myself I threw all my progress out of the window. I couldn't sleep, had pains in my stomach and chest and even vomited - because of how anxious I was.
I went to see my GP and the ENT tested my ears: no hearing loss. Even though I suspect some hearing loss in my right ear. My ENT also said the 3-MMC is the cause of a spike and it's likely not permanent. I have problems with pressure behind my eardrums and Eustachian tube. My eardrums are basically all scar tissue, a result of many ear infections ever since I was a kid (probable cause back then).
I got Oxazepam to help with the extreme stress. It only made me more anxious and it resulted in a 'new sound' in my right ear, so I quit. I even talked about euthanasia, to my GP and my parents. That was so hard to do, but I really hit rock bottom and saw no way out.
The past week was a bit better. I switched to Melatonin (3mg) at night, during the day I do not take any meds. I get a few hours of sleep, so that's a huge improvement!
As for now the high pitch tinnitus hasn't improved. The 'new sound' in my right ear is a bit quieter it seems.
I am waiting on some psychological help, especially to help with the feelings of self-blame. Besides that, I am seeing a more specialized ENT in Belgium, next Friday. They can also help me with TRT, I hope that will help.
I'm sorry if my story is a bit all over the place - so are my thoughts the past few weeks. I hope I can find some support. And maybe someone knows something about the 3-MMC? Is it a spike? And maybe I prolonged it by extreme feelings of self-blame/stress?
P.S. My dentist told me that I needed to have my wisdom tooth (bottom left) removed, as it had no place to 'come out'. Could that also be a cause? I researched it but got mixed signals about it.