- Jan 10, 2018
- 181
- Tinnitus Since
- 2008
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Originally loud Music and was worsened by Micro-suction
Hi, I would just like to share my experience as well as ask for some advice in regards to my experience.
Today I went to an appointment with a job agency who help people with disabilities get work, I have been a few times in the past but today I ran into a major problem. This problem arose from me getting a job through this agency in the past that I had to quit as it permanently exacerbated my condition. The job was too loud as it involved changing car batteries which always ended in me having to drop the car bonnet to close it after I was finished, which even with plugs in still worsened my tinnitus. So I quit the job and came to my appointment today, my "case officer" I guess was understandably mad, which I am very understanding of as by quitting that job so soon I have effectively ruined the relationship between the Job agency and that employer.
But I explained to her that for some reason my tinnitus just keeps worsening with even moderate noise exposure so I can't work in noisy roles and yet she kept recommending me jobs as like a factory worker and a trolley boy which I can't think of being worse as they are both very loud jobs. Eventually, it came to a boiling point where she basically said "you can't spend your whole life indoors" and I nearly exploded at her as I obviously don't want to spend my life indoors as I am an incredibly extroverted person, but a lot of the time when I do, I run the risk of worsening my already horrendous tinnitus. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place I want to have meaning to my life so badly but it comes with a huge cost to my mental health everytime I do try and "be normal" but also being a hermit makes me so incredibly depressed. I tried my hardest to explain this to her and she just didn't get it or understand how severe tinnitus can be. I felt really helpless(which is something I haven't felt in ages) as I am trying everything fucking thing I can to get better and she is basically saying tinnitus is something I need to get over.
So I guess my question is like how do I explain to someone how bad tinnitus can be? Are there any good articles or resources which could help a non-tinnitus sufferer understand our struggle?
Because articles from the ATA and BTA make tinnitus look like a cakewalk.
Today I went to an appointment with a job agency who help people with disabilities get work, I have been a few times in the past but today I ran into a major problem. This problem arose from me getting a job through this agency in the past that I had to quit as it permanently exacerbated my condition. The job was too loud as it involved changing car batteries which always ended in me having to drop the car bonnet to close it after I was finished, which even with plugs in still worsened my tinnitus. So I quit the job and came to my appointment today, my "case officer" I guess was understandably mad, which I am very understanding of as by quitting that job so soon I have effectively ruined the relationship between the Job agency and that employer.
But I explained to her that for some reason my tinnitus just keeps worsening with even moderate noise exposure so I can't work in noisy roles and yet she kept recommending me jobs as like a factory worker and a trolley boy which I can't think of being worse as they are both very loud jobs. Eventually, it came to a boiling point where she basically said "you can't spend your whole life indoors" and I nearly exploded at her as I obviously don't want to spend my life indoors as I am an incredibly extroverted person, but a lot of the time when I do, I run the risk of worsening my already horrendous tinnitus. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place I want to have meaning to my life so badly but it comes with a huge cost to my mental health everytime I do try and "be normal" but also being a hermit makes me so incredibly depressed. I tried my hardest to explain this to her and she just didn't get it or understand how severe tinnitus can be. I felt really helpless(which is something I haven't felt in ages) as I am trying everything fucking thing I can to get better and she is basically saying tinnitus is something I need to get over.
So I guess my question is like how do I explain to someone how bad tinnitus can be? Are there any good articles or resources which could help a non-tinnitus sufferer understand our struggle?
Because articles from the ATA and BTA make tinnitus look like a cakewalk.