Update — Where I Am Now on My Tinnitus Road!

[gary]

Today I need to heed my own words T is at a 10+

 

[Sherri786]

Today I need to heed my own words T is at a 10+

Sorry to hear that, hope it subsides soon.

 

[gary]

Thanks Sherri, I'll know in the morning. That's when it is there or not. T never stops if I wake up with it, it is there all day. Helps just to know though that it will have it's low period...

 

[Sherri786]

Thanks Sherri, I'll know in the morning. That's when it is there or not. T never stops if I wake up with it, it is there all day. Helps just to know though that it will have it's low period...

Hi Gary, mine never shuts up arghhh ! How long have you've had it for ? And very lucky that some days you don't have it !
Best wishes, take care.

 

[Cher69]

I'm having a blip after some really good weeks and great sleep for some reason think issue and work knocked confidence and iv started with an anxiety again and the sleepless night are back struggling to find a way through at the moment spent last night having panic attacks at 2am when I had no sleep and swallowed 2 sleeping pills to no avail gonna try to get hold of myself and head to doc for a review see if its time to change citalopram ? Any ideas is it normal to have a set back on anti Ds ? The T hasn't changed but at night when shattered but just can't sleep it gets soooo loud Fingers crossed I sleep tonight work tomorrow and I've been struggling at work I can't remember stuff but I think that's cos I'm tired.

Totally fed up of T wish it would sod off and leave me alone so I can have my mind back

Cher x

 

[gary]

Hi Gary, mine never shuts up arghhh ! How long have you've had it for ? And very lucky that some days you don't have it !
Best wishes, take care.

Sherri, my T never goes away completely. Just some days it goes down to a 5-7 instead of a 10+ on a 1 to 10 scale. I not not had a moment of total silence for over a year now. got T on -7-29-12 joined this group the next day. this group is really safe haven. I am not looking for total silence at this point, a string of four or five days of T at 5-7 would be most welcome.

May your T settle down for a few days to give you a break....

 

[gary]

I have no experience at all with anti D's, but have a lot with panic attacks. I do know a panic attack they will not kill you, and yes there will be time when that panic will creep up on you, seemingly out of no where. I know one of the biggest things a panic attack can cause is the fear of having another one.

Your anxiety combined with the T you have is a horrible situation to be in, but remember neither will kill you!
Yes, you will feel like you are going crazy, but it is only a feeling, it's not something real like cancer or a heart attack, both of which I have had. Your Dr. should be able to give you something stronger to calm you down when the anxiety & T hit you at the same time.

Hang Tough Cher.

 

[LadyDi]

Hey @LadyDi hoping your coming appointments give you positive ideas to help and build confidence that you can and will cope and find your way through. I always feel better after talking to a professional who listens and cares and Ive found support from everyone. Im wobbly at the moment my anxiety is rocky and my sleep rubbish Ive decided if by next week Im not feeling better and sleeping better Im going back to review the Anti D's as I feel they are not helping as much. Bit confused at the moment for the first time in ages I cried feeling a bit sorry for myself !!

I dont have time for that got life to live just need to sleep at the moment and not sure which way to jump at the moment
Oh well hope for a good week or at least a few days soon - keep us posted on your appointments and how you get on
cher x

Oh Cher, I am so sorry, have been wanting to post after you wrote last week. I saw, further down on the thread, that you still are struggling with the AntiDs. I remembered when we started on this road together, our T came at almost the same time... I still am there with you, as is everyone else. It's OK to cry sometimes for a while. I know I have (although it makes my T louder, dammit).

The problem with these meds (benzos are the same way) is that they require constant tinkering. We can't just take a pill and the pain goes away, even if just for awhile. I, too, have had a wobby couple weeks. Two weeks ago, I really felt like I was back to at least something of my old self, feeling in control and able to back down these little flutters of anxiety I would get. Then: Suddenly was on a verge of a panic attack at work. All the diaphragmatic breathing and self-statements in the world weren't making it go away. I just fought through it (would not allow myself to leave my desk), told myself that I felt miserable but it wasn't dangerous and if I would give it 10-15 minutes, it would pass. Which it did. But I haven't been quite the same since. I am going back to my psychiatrist in three weeks and we also are going to review my meds. I always knew alprazolam wasn't a long-term solution, and its time for other options.

I think I expect linear progress -- like when bone breaks but then slowly knits back together, getting a little stronger every day. But it doesn't work that way with anxiety, I guess. We just need to remember that even if we have setbacks, and they are so disappointing, we ARE getting better and stronger.

I read an interesting piece on a web site (http://www.anxietynomore.co.uk/anxiety_setbacks.html) talking about what to learn from setbacks, and how we can't let them send us back to where we were. I know, its so hard. But we can do it, I know. We don't let our setbacks have power of us. Just remember that soon you will be back to those days when you are rested and stronger, walking in the sunlight with Dylan and your girls. It will happen, I know.

My U of Miami Tinnitus Clinic trip went well and I probably will post more it later under another thread. In a nutshell, looks like I am heading to Neuromonics. But they won't take me yet, because it hasn't been six months from onset -- and they said there still is a possibility (although unlikely) that it would resolve. I wish.


Thinking of you and sending hugggggsssss.

 

[Cher69]

Ty @LadyDi your a lovely friend to have I've had a night sleep after 2 tablets but they only a short term fix so I can't wait to see doc tomo and take his advise see what he thinks. I really liked that link about set backs that was exactly like reading my past 2 weeks and its expected and normal !! I feel more positive already but need my doc review to reaffirm this all to me.

Thank you for your positive words and support your an angel to me

@gary thanks for your reply I gets massive boosts from all you guys knowing we r all in this together!
Aren't people wonderful when you need a hand complete strangers offer you a massive 'leg up' of moral support makes the world a better place! Cher x