Ive had tinnitus for 6 weeks. At this point I consider it permanent and I'm trying my best to get used to it. This is how my tinnitus has changed from week 1 to right now.
Week 1: Very mild tinnitus. Ringing in ears that could only be heard at night. Wasn't bothersome and I still slept well.
Week 2: My tinnitus became reactive. So when I hear running water or air conditioner my tinnitus would louder. Bothered me in the day but I was just annoyed and not sad at all. But I was scared of the future. I was still able to sleep well.
Week 3: Same as week 2.
Week 4: Tinnitus from week 1 gets really loud one afternoon after lunch. My reactive T was either gone or I wasn't paying attention it. But I did have a loud buzzing throughout the day. This is when it become intrusive. I stopped playing video games and watching new TV series and just stayed in bed all day with a sitcom "How I Met Your Mother" playing in my Xbox all day so I would be in silence. I became extremely sad and didn't go a day without cry and had lots anxiety. Became even more concerned with my future. And I was lucky if I had 4-5 hours as sleep because at this point tinnitus kept popping up on my dreams and waking me up. This happened 5 times a night and it the tinnitus was loud for a while whenever I would wake up but would subside after 20-30 minutes.
Week 4.5: Somehow days after the tinnitus got intrusive I got a new tinnitus. It was reactive and it instead of a ringing sound, it was the sound of an amber alert. This lasted a couple of days and it is either gone or really faded. I'm scared to check if it is there. At this point, I make my Tinnitus Talk account because I need advice and I'm was really scared.
Week 5-6: I kept repeating to myself "I hear my tinnitus but I don't care". Which was a lie obviously, but eventually this led to me paying less attention to my tinnitus and I have notice it's less loud. Is it because I lied to myself? Maybe, or maybe not. Anyways. These last 2 days have been easier on me. I'm kind of back to week 2 where my reactive tinnitus is back and it's a ringing instead of an amber alert. The loud buzzing I got on week 4 that was the start of the sadness and all is a bit quieter. I've gone a while without noticing my T or reacting to it. Past 2 nights have been easier as well. I only woke up because of my tinnitus once and I even almost got a full nights sleep last night but a storm (not tinnitus) woke me up. I've woken up in the middle of night and I can swear my tinnitus is either really faded or gone. My tinnitus has also been weird too. In the mornings I can swear I can hear crickets instead of a ringing in my reactive T. But then it becomes a ringing again.
Anyways. That's me right now. My reaction to new sounds or a change is has gone from "Oh no a change I'm scared" too " wow a change how annoying". I'm doing better now. Sometimes I do realize that's I'm going to live with this forever and it leads me to a moment of sadness but I usually forget about it and keep on with my day. I can't say I'm used to it cause I'm not. But I'm hoping I get better. I'm back to playing videos games and watching Tv shows and haven't cried in a week. I'm a better than I was a week or 2 ago, that's for sure.
Sorry for the long post
Week 1: Very mild tinnitus. Ringing in ears that could only be heard at night. Wasn't bothersome and I still slept well.
Week 2: My tinnitus became reactive. So when I hear running water or air conditioner my tinnitus would louder. Bothered me in the day but I was just annoyed and not sad at all. But I was scared of the future. I was still able to sleep well.
Week 3: Same as week 2.
Week 4: Tinnitus from week 1 gets really loud one afternoon after lunch. My reactive T was either gone or I wasn't paying attention it. But I did have a loud buzzing throughout the day. This is when it become intrusive. I stopped playing video games and watching new TV series and just stayed in bed all day with a sitcom "How I Met Your Mother" playing in my Xbox all day so I would be in silence. I became extremely sad and didn't go a day without cry and had lots anxiety. Became even more concerned with my future. And I was lucky if I had 4-5 hours as sleep because at this point tinnitus kept popping up on my dreams and waking me up. This happened 5 times a night and it the tinnitus was loud for a while whenever I would wake up but would subside after 20-30 minutes.
Week 4.5: Somehow days after the tinnitus got intrusive I got a new tinnitus. It was reactive and it instead of a ringing sound, it was the sound of an amber alert. This lasted a couple of days and it is either gone or really faded. I'm scared to check if it is there. At this point, I make my Tinnitus Talk account because I need advice and I'm was really scared.
Week 5-6: I kept repeating to myself "I hear my tinnitus but I don't care". Which was a lie obviously, but eventually this led to me paying less attention to my tinnitus and I have notice it's less loud. Is it because I lied to myself? Maybe, or maybe not. Anyways. These last 2 days have been easier on me. I'm kind of back to week 2 where my reactive tinnitus is back and it's a ringing instead of an amber alert. The loud buzzing I got on week 4 that was the start of the sadness and all is a bit quieter. I've gone a while without noticing my T or reacting to it. Past 2 nights have been easier as well. I only woke up because of my tinnitus once and I even almost got a full nights sleep last night but a storm (not tinnitus) woke me up. I've woken up in the middle of night and I can swear my tinnitus is either really faded or gone. My tinnitus has also been weird too. In the mornings I can swear I can hear crickets instead of a ringing in my reactive T. But then it becomes a ringing again.
Anyways. That's me right now. My reaction to new sounds or a change is has gone from "Oh no a change I'm scared" too " wow a change how annoying". I'm doing better now. Sometimes I do realize that's I'm going to live with this forever and it leads me to a moment of sadness but I usually forget about it and keep on with my day. I can't say I'm used to it cause I'm not. But I'm hoping I get better. I'm back to playing videos games and watching Tv shows and haven't cried in a week. I'm a better than I was a week or 2 ago, that's for sure.
Sorry for the long post
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