- Dec 7, 2016
- 177
- Tinnitus Since
- 03/2011, got worse 09/2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Acoustic trauma
Hi
So... I've been on the path of habituation for a while. And it's been going to the right direction, overall. After a year from my trigger, acoustic trauma, I was finally starting to dream that I'd be able to travel and live relatively normal life. I'd still have ringing in my both ears, but I would be able to habituate to it slowly.
I have anxiety disorder and it can get really bad. On last Friday I found out my apartment is infested with clothes moths. I freaked out and having a bug phobia didn't help. For five days I'd just clean, clean and clean obsessively, being in this crazy state of mind. It just blew out of its proportions completely and I'd get severe anxiety attacks.
Now I am scared I may have hurt my ears, bad. I'd be vacuuming obsessively - every inch of the house and closets, clothes etc. And as we all know, vacuum cleaners are loud. Most of the time I'd at least have my Bose QC35 noise-cancelling headphones on, but are those enough? Even worse, I'd be so frantic that at times I'd forget switching them on.
By Tuesday I realized my T was very loud. Much louder than usual, but thought it was due to stress. Now during the last few days I have noticed this horrible new uninvited guest in my head. There is this overbearing metallic booming noise in my head. It doesn't seem to come from the ears, rather it's centralized, which horrifies me... And it has this rhythmic/pulsatile volume to it, going up and down and changing tones. It's so scary, I don't understand what's happening to me.
Could it be from stress and go away when I get my mental state in balance again? Has any of you encountered something like this? And can vacuuming be so loud that noise-cancelling headphones aren't enough (or not having them switched on for some moments)?
I'm so afraid, guys. This is just too much!
Just crying and not able to take this at all.
So... I've been on the path of habituation for a while. And it's been going to the right direction, overall. After a year from my trigger, acoustic trauma, I was finally starting to dream that I'd be able to travel and live relatively normal life. I'd still have ringing in my both ears, but I would be able to habituate to it slowly.
I have anxiety disorder and it can get really bad. On last Friday I found out my apartment is infested with clothes moths. I freaked out and having a bug phobia didn't help. For five days I'd just clean, clean and clean obsessively, being in this crazy state of mind. It just blew out of its proportions completely and I'd get severe anxiety attacks.
Now I am scared I may have hurt my ears, bad. I'd be vacuuming obsessively - every inch of the house and closets, clothes etc. And as we all know, vacuum cleaners are loud. Most of the time I'd at least have my Bose QC35 noise-cancelling headphones on, but are those enough? Even worse, I'd be so frantic that at times I'd forget switching them on.
By Tuesday I realized my T was very loud. Much louder than usual, but thought it was due to stress. Now during the last few days I have noticed this horrible new uninvited guest in my head. There is this overbearing metallic booming noise in my head. It doesn't seem to come from the ears, rather it's centralized, which horrifies me... And it has this rhythmic/pulsatile volume to it, going up and down and changing tones. It's so scary, I don't understand what's happening to me.
Could it be from stress and go away when I get my mental state in balance again? Has any of you encountered something like this? And can vacuuming be so loud that noise-cancelling headphones aren't enough (or not having them switched on for some moments)?
I'm so afraid, guys. This is just too much!
Just crying and not able to take this at all.