Hey guys!
I have had T in my head for six years and had become largely habituated to it. It is like a high pitched ringing/whistling noise that can't be masked, but I have been able to tune out of it and thus it has normally been in the background while newer T and other ear issues came to worry me.
Not so. Yesterday morning I woke up and it was noticably louder and more jarring than I'd had it in a long, long time. I could practically FEEL it. I hadn't knowingly done anything the day before to make it happen, no loud noises (which is how I got it six years ago), nothing like that. Just came by itself. So I spent much of the day being worried and depressed about it, though if I allowed myself to be distracted, I would barely notice it just like before. I went to bed and it was still so loud and sounded more scary than usual and had a bad night of restless sleep no thanks to my anxiety.
This morning I woke up and the noise had mercifully returned back to it's usual baseline. However, no thanks to me giving it so much attention yesterday, my mind is still focused on the ringing noise and I am worried about it spiking up again. You'd think after six years of T I would have become hardened to this sort of thing! Did I get a spike? Or has it got another name? I was worried it was going to be louder permenantely, like I usually do whenever something pops up. If I knew the increase in loudness was temporary I wouldn't worry so much. But of course T is highly unpredictable and has a mind of it's own.
I know a lot of it is indeed mind over matter. I am aware that I should measure my responses rather than the volume of my T, but in the end I too am only human and it's human nature to panic. Just wanted to share my experience from the other day and wondered if anyone else has had a similar one and could offer me some words of wisdom? Cheers
I have had T in my head for six years and had become largely habituated to it. It is like a high pitched ringing/whistling noise that can't be masked, but I have been able to tune out of it and thus it has normally been in the background while newer T and other ear issues came to worry me.
Not so. Yesterday morning I woke up and it was noticably louder and more jarring than I'd had it in a long, long time. I could practically FEEL it. I hadn't knowingly done anything the day before to make it happen, no loud noises (which is how I got it six years ago), nothing like that. Just came by itself. So I spent much of the day being worried and depressed about it, though if I allowed myself to be distracted, I would barely notice it just like before. I went to bed and it was still so loud and sounded more scary than usual and had a bad night of restless sleep no thanks to my anxiety.
This morning I woke up and the noise had mercifully returned back to it's usual baseline. However, no thanks to me giving it so much attention yesterday, my mind is still focused on the ringing noise and I am worried about it spiking up again. You'd think after six years of T I would have become hardened to this sort of thing! Did I get a spike? Or has it got another name? I was worried it was going to be louder permenantely, like I usually do whenever something pops up. If I knew the increase in loudness was temporary I wouldn't worry so much. But of course T is highly unpredictable and has a mind of it's own.
I know a lot of it is indeed mind over matter. I am aware that I should measure my responses rather than the volume of my T, but in the end I too am only human and it's human nature to panic. Just wanted to share my experience from the other day and wondered if anyone else has had a similar one and could offer me some words of wisdom? Cheers