- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
Guys and gals, It's Fish and I wanted to write a post to inspire the members that are going through a hard time because of the affliction of tinnitus. I have been at this for 31 years and the tinnitus is super intrusive and just brutal. It's loud, it's crazy and I still have my "WTH" is this noise coming out my head moment.
I walk your paths every second I live. Having loud tinnitus and having poor hearing is not an easy life at all. I will say this though, I have been trying, adjusting, adapting to the tinnitus for a long time. When I got afflicted with the first static noise, low hum... I asked WTH is this? Where is this noise coming from? I would ask my mom and say "mom, can you hear this?". From the very beginning I took a PROACTIVE stance on what was going on. I took my tinnitus for granted in the early years, I had a low level static noise but I did have hyperacusis to join it's scene.
Through out the years I kept close contact with my audiologist and my counselor to talk things out and just clear my head about what was going and what my issues were. I went through numerous clinics and found no help at all. My only help was ME and how I DEALT with what was going on in my head.
I used to get VERY frustrated and angry and would say WHY has this happened to me? What have I done to deserve this? I did for a long time and I burned my emotions and the candles even more. It would take control of me and just grip me.
I remember when my tinnitus had progressed from mild to semi intermediate level of ringing and at that time my relationship with my ex was on a downward spiral. I shed tears because the tinnitus was affecting my relationship with her.
I have been PROACTIVE through out my tinnitus journey. It's been a long ride and LOTS of trials, Errors along the way. Not many understood the inner demons that lived inside the head because of the ringing and ear pains. Many ignored it and just lived their lives, while I was dealing with this ordeal.
People would still play their LOUD music, when they were told that my ears are damaged. I have always shown respect to people. The key was this, these people were never going to change. Humans can be selfish creatures and change can be a DIFFICULT thing. Many will not care about what WE go through.
It got to a point that I finally STOOD MY GROUND. I finally put me FIRST and my ears FIRST.
If someone did not respect my situation, they were gone from my life. They were no longer given the open arms anymore. I will not damage my ears further because of people that are ignorant and careless.
I made it known that my ears were messed up. There was no pride, ego about it. It was my REALITY and what I was afflicted with. All of us need to STAND OUR GROUND.
We need to educate people on what we are dealing with. If they accept us, great. If not, we surround ourselves with people that will accept and love us.
We have GRIT, we have the WILLPOWER to be, and do what we want. I use that GRIT daily in my life. I use that GRIT when I need to read a book, to learn something new to complete a new project.
I use that GRIT when my ears are screaming like hell and I have no energy to go to the ENT to possibly get some new answers.
I use that GRIT when I try to talk to a beautiful gal even though I can barely hear her and conversate like a normal person.
This post is all about YOU and your GRIT. Tinnitus is going to afflict us. It wants to slow us down and make us feel like chit. I feel like it all the time, I still shake my head at the HELL the screams out my head 24-7.
I have accepted my challenge and I will handle it.
Life is going to go forward, the clock is going forward, the days and years are moving forward.
Take that GRIT/WILLPOWER and move forward. It will be very hard, it will be challenging but you deserve the best, we deserve the best. All of us have that courage, declare your stance on tinnitus and go after it.
IT'S NEVER EASY, it's not for me. It's very hard. It may bring tears... but YOU CAN DO IT!
No one else is going to pick us up or change things for me or you, NO ONE! Only we can do it and I AM DOING IT.
Do look for treatments and advancements in possibly curing the tinnitus, but at the same time use that GRIT, declare your path to success and PUSH FOR IT!
I care for all you people, I am in your shoes and I just try to give some motivational nuggets to this site... bless all!
PS-This has been a long post but I wanted to deliver value and love to this site as usual
I walk your paths every second I live. Having loud tinnitus and having poor hearing is not an easy life at all. I will say this though, I have been trying, adjusting, adapting to the tinnitus for a long time. When I got afflicted with the first static noise, low hum... I asked WTH is this? Where is this noise coming from? I would ask my mom and say "mom, can you hear this?". From the very beginning I took a PROACTIVE stance on what was going on. I took my tinnitus for granted in the early years, I had a low level static noise but I did have hyperacusis to join it's scene.
Through out the years I kept close contact with my audiologist and my counselor to talk things out and just clear my head about what was going and what my issues were. I went through numerous clinics and found no help at all. My only help was ME and how I DEALT with what was going on in my head.
I used to get VERY frustrated and angry and would say WHY has this happened to me? What have I done to deserve this? I did for a long time and I burned my emotions and the candles even more. It would take control of me and just grip me.
I remember when my tinnitus had progressed from mild to semi intermediate level of ringing and at that time my relationship with my ex was on a downward spiral. I shed tears because the tinnitus was affecting my relationship with her.
I have been PROACTIVE through out my tinnitus journey. It's been a long ride and LOTS of trials, Errors along the way. Not many understood the inner demons that lived inside the head because of the ringing and ear pains. Many ignored it and just lived their lives, while I was dealing with this ordeal.
People would still play their LOUD music, when they were told that my ears are damaged. I have always shown respect to people. The key was this, these people were never going to change. Humans can be selfish creatures and change can be a DIFFICULT thing. Many will not care about what WE go through.
It got to a point that I finally STOOD MY GROUND. I finally put me FIRST and my ears FIRST.
If someone did not respect my situation, they were gone from my life. They were no longer given the open arms anymore. I will not damage my ears further because of people that are ignorant and careless.
I made it known that my ears were messed up. There was no pride, ego about it. It was my REALITY and what I was afflicted with. All of us need to STAND OUR GROUND.
We need to educate people on what we are dealing with. If they accept us, great. If not, we surround ourselves with people that will accept and love us.
We have GRIT, we have the WILLPOWER to be, and do what we want. I use that GRIT daily in my life. I use that GRIT when I need to read a book, to learn something new to complete a new project.
I use that GRIT when my ears are screaming like hell and I have no energy to go to the ENT to possibly get some new answers.
I use that GRIT when I try to talk to a beautiful gal even though I can barely hear her and conversate like a normal person.
This post is all about YOU and your GRIT. Tinnitus is going to afflict us. It wants to slow us down and make us feel like chit. I feel like it all the time, I still shake my head at the HELL the screams out my head 24-7.
I have accepted my challenge and I will handle it.
Life is going to go forward, the clock is going forward, the days and years are moving forward.
Take that GRIT/WILLPOWER and move forward. It will be very hard, it will be challenging but you deserve the best, we deserve the best. All of us have that courage, declare your stance on tinnitus and go after it.
IT'S NEVER EASY, it's not for me. It's very hard. It may bring tears... but YOU CAN DO IT!
No one else is going to pick us up or change things for me or you, NO ONE! Only we can do it and I AM DOING IT.
Do look for treatments and advancements in possibly curing the tinnitus, but at the same time use that GRIT, declare your path to success and PUSH FOR IT!
I care for all you people, I am in your shoes and I just try to give some motivational nuggets to this site... bless all!
PS-This has been a long post but I wanted to deliver value and love to this site as usual
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