- May 28, 2016
- 16
- Tinnitus Since
- 05/2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Music, manufacturing and genetics I guess.
I really do believe that the volume and pitch of tinnitus is not (only? Necessarily?) the detrimental factor of habituation? I think it is more so to do with acceptance of one's condition? From what I have read here, those who are struggling to habituate are the ones who are generally anxious, angry or depressed about their T? I am yet to see a somewhat more humerous complaint towards T or the inability to habituate, ie making it just background noise. I know it's not possible to compare individuals' physicality of T without a state of the art laboratory and an audiologist, however, from what I can infer from the hundreds of posts I have read, my T appears to be on the more piercing side of the spectrum? Ie, it's a high pitched frequency that isn't masked by my daily routines, such as frying an egg etc. It's only hidden when listening to my iPod with dre beats just after quarter going on to middle volume (completely track dependent). T, or rather more precisely my situation, just doesn't bother me now.I hear it all the time over things, but it's just there, complete background noise now. I generally only focus on it when there is complete silence and my mind is not active. If I was to pick up the iPad, or a book, I lose track of it and only notice it if I actively think of my T. People here seem angry that they have T. I was at first, as my situation was that I acquired it through doing a medically recognised technique to clear a blocked Eustachian tube, but I am now at peace with the situation. The way I see it, most people do not get T from doing the valsalva, so I probably had genetic vulnerability to T anyway in some shape (possibly fuelled by years of iPod use, playing the guitar and working in manufacturing). Again, I tell myself, I cannot be angry with my past actions, I cannot reflect on what I could have done differently because chances are, I was always going to be that 1 in 10 that acquired T. Limiting my past actions may of simply delayed the onset at best. For me, rightly or wrongly, those who seem predisposed to anxiety/depression find it harder to habituate, irrespective of the nature of their T? I think looking at the demographics, the majority of T sufferers do indeed suffer intrusive T, whereby it is difficult to mask out during everyday tasks, however, only 10% of T sufferers describe theirs as having an impact on their quality of life. More so, I believe that the only T sufferers who actively speak about their T are the ones who are struggling to habituate, making the perception of T possibly worse than it is given for the entirety of the suffering population. This website, possibly only attracts T sufferers who again are struggling to cope mentally, again skewing the perception of T to those who are new to it or do not have it. It's fascinating that most of the posts are written by members who joined within the last year or two. Either T gradually gets better physically, or people adapt mentally to where it's not even an issue to post about anymore. I have only been on this site for week or so, though my T hasn't got any better, I am thinking of leaving soon, as I am now at peace with my T. Last Sunday, believe it or not, I was crying in my bed full of regret and anger due to possibly medical malpractice? Now I'm dancing around in my living room to music (like I used to, but less than half volume now of course) and I am feeling, well nothing, just a void feeling of acceptance. Does this explain why some feel misunderstood, possibly even mistreated by a diverse group of qualified professionals, such as GP's, as they deal with the entire population and not just a possibly biased sample? Just a thought? But anwyay, I am off to go back to my normal way of life after this whole T thing . . .
