- Jun 26, 2014
- 2,264
- Tinnitus Since
- 11/2013
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Drugs barotrauma
I've had really bad tinnitus for almost 5 years now, recently I was exposed to extreme noise and the tinnitus worsened, this time around the tinnitus is excruciating pain. The old tinnitus hurt as well, but mostly when I would put my head on the pillow. This is totally different, I honestly did not think it could get to this, I can't put it into words.
I didn't ever think I would be back here at Tinnitus Talk again, but now it's like everything is completely new, and a lot worse than the first time.
I feel as though the noise is now piercing through my ear drums with pins and needles through my brain, behind my eyes, when I move my eyes etc. This is completely different this time around, I thought I had it really bad before, and I did, but this is absolutely unbearable, a totally different condition. I'm being forced out here, there is no way in hell I live like this permanently.
I don't care about the annoyance, it's the pain that is crippling me. Even when I don't hear it, i can feel it. Maybe this will pass? Has anyone had this, and did it pass???
I don't want to hear that I will get used to this, I absolutely will not, it needs to change. I don't care if things get way louder, but this pain has to go away, or maybe the the pitch comes down. I feel like I'm listening to 7 kHz to 20 kHz all randomly firing at 150 dB or something ridiculous. My ears are burning hot, and red as well, they feel infected or something but aren't. My head is pounding, my vision is blurry.
I've done sweep tests starting at 20 kHz, I'm pretty much now deaf beyond 8hkz after this incident. I honestly never thought it could be like this. This isn't livable. I've become a master at dealing with aweful tinnitus over the years, there is just no way now.
I lost a ton of additional hearing with the noise trauma, I can hear this tin sound in every voice I hear, I've had hyperacusis for 5 years, and now I don't know if this is hyperacusis or not? Its not like what I had before where everything was just too loud and painful, I can't take listening to a fan, or hear my own voice. I've tried things like nature sounds on high quality speakers, too much pain, even at low volume, I hear this painful tinnitus in everything I listen to.
It's been about six weeks now, the first month, I couldn't sleep more than 10 min without the noise and pain waking me. I can get about 1 hour now at times until I start hearing it in my sleep and it wakes me, and then it's back to 10 min at a time. I'm in bed for 14 hours a day just trying to get a couple hours sleep.
I really thought when it first happened 6 weeks ago that things would calm after a week or so. Nothing has happened here.
I hate drugs, never take anything, but I'm almost to the point that I will just gobble down anything, antidepressants, pain pills, basically just start experimenting with my brain. I'm at the end of my rope.
I would like to think of myself as a fairly calm person, I've never really had anxiety before, now I can hardly breath, can't slow my heart, just not myself anymore at all. I feel like this is mentally insane version of myself.
I didn't ever think I would be back here at Tinnitus Talk again, but now it's like everything is completely new, and a lot worse than the first time.
I feel as though the noise is now piercing through my ear drums with pins and needles through my brain, behind my eyes, when I move my eyes etc. This is completely different this time around, I thought I had it really bad before, and I did, but this is absolutely unbearable, a totally different condition. I'm being forced out here, there is no way in hell I live like this permanently.
I don't care about the annoyance, it's the pain that is crippling me. Even when I don't hear it, i can feel it. Maybe this will pass? Has anyone had this, and did it pass???
I don't want to hear that I will get used to this, I absolutely will not, it needs to change. I don't care if things get way louder, but this pain has to go away, or maybe the the pitch comes down. I feel like I'm listening to 7 kHz to 20 kHz all randomly firing at 150 dB or something ridiculous. My ears are burning hot, and red as well, they feel infected or something but aren't. My head is pounding, my vision is blurry.
I've done sweep tests starting at 20 kHz, I'm pretty much now deaf beyond 8hkz after this incident. I honestly never thought it could be like this. This isn't livable. I've become a master at dealing with aweful tinnitus over the years, there is just no way now.
I lost a ton of additional hearing with the noise trauma, I can hear this tin sound in every voice I hear, I've had hyperacusis for 5 years, and now I don't know if this is hyperacusis or not? Its not like what I had before where everything was just too loud and painful, I can't take listening to a fan, or hear my own voice. I've tried things like nature sounds on high quality speakers, too much pain, even at low volume, I hear this painful tinnitus in everything I listen to.
It's been about six weeks now, the first month, I couldn't sleep more than 10 min without the noise and pain waking me. I can get about 1 hour now at times until I start hearing it in my sleep and it wakes me, and then it's back to 10 min at a time. I'm in bed for 14 hours a day just trying to get a couple hours sleep.
I really thought when it first happened 6 weeks ago that things would calm after a week or so. Nothing has happened here.
I hate drugs, never take anything, but I'm almost to the point that I will just gobble down anything, antidepressants, pain pills, basically just start experimenting with my brain. I'm at the end of my rope.
I would like to think of myself as a fairly calm person, I've never really had anxiety before, now I can hardly breath, can't slow my heart, just not myself anymore at all. I feel like this is mentally insane version of myself.