Hello! I am a speech and language therapist working in a school environment. I developed multi-tone sound reactive tinnitus in fall 2022 following an ear infection that affected my right inner ear, causing nerve damage and sudden hearing loss in very high frequencies. Because my tinnitus was so reactive to normal environmental sounds (fans, driving, showering, TV), I was fortunate to take an extended leave, supported by my school district. By winter 2023, I finally began to stabilize. While I was still battling reactive tinnitus, it would calm down to baseline after some quiet time, and my ears would reset during sleep. I returned to work in March 2024, and I did well for the rest of the school year, feeling hopeful about the following year.
This past summer, however, I experienced a significant spike in my tinnitus for several reasons. I returned to work with the spike, and it was incredibly challenging. In October, I made the very difficult decision to resign from my job. Although the spike has improved since I returned in September, and I have started to engage in more activities and even perform better at work, my decision is about the longevity and quality of my life with this condition. I need to make a change that allows me to feel a sense of purpose while also living with joy and happiness, rather than pouring all of my auditory, physical, and mental energy into my job.
My last day is January 3, and while I have some bittersweet feelings, I am mostly proud of myself for prioritizing my health and future. I still want to become a mom and achieve other life goals. These aspirations mean far more to me than my current job, and I know that staying in this position would make reaching those goals increasingly unlikely given my condition.
With all that said, I am very aware of how blessed I am to be in a position to leave my job and take some time off. My husband does very well in his day job, and we also own rental properties that provide additional income. I am deeply grateful to be in this position.
Additionally, I highly recommend that anyone not working finds a sense of purpose. When I took my first leave and was grappling with the stages of grief over this condition, I let it consume me. I became obsessed with finding something that would "cure" my tinnitus, especially the reactivity component. I truly believe this hyperfixation made things worse, as I was constantly reinforcing to my brain how unbearable the condition was and that it needed to be resolved immediately.
It was not until I underwent intensive trauma therapy, retrained my brain to exit severe survival mode, and created goals and a sense of purpose for myself that I began to experience meaningful stability and improvement. This was not just habituation. I went from rarely leaving my house to attending a few Christmas parties with medium level sound, going to restaurants, and even enjoying nights out at bars, all without hearing protection. My tinnitus would reset during sleep or within a day.
I share all of this to say that I recommend extending your leave, if possible, for a few reasons. First, ears take a long time to heal, especially from noise trauma or infections. If you can, give your ears as much time as they need to recover from inflammation. During that time, it is crucial to fill your days with purpose. Focus on the mind body connection. Learn stress management techniques, adopt anti inflammatory eating habits, and explore supplements like Magnesium, Zinc, and Vitamin D for their immune and brain boosting benefits. Stay physically active, even if it is just a daily walk, and keep yourself preoccupied with goals, a daily routine, or meaningful activities.
One concern I have about not working is losing the daily distraction and sense of normalcy that work provides. Being "out in the world" and feeling like I could participate in life again was incredibly helpful to me. I will need to work on combating those old thought patterns that my brain still occasionally falls into. However, I am still in therapy and feel confident that I will handle things much better this time.
I apologize for such a lengthy response, but I have learned so much in the two years and three months since my life changed dramatically. I understand how difficult it is to navigate decision making and sacrifices when working in a school environment with this condition.
I wish you well, and I hope you know that this spike from your ear infection should continue to calm down with the right care.
Let me know if further adjustments are needed!