You Are a Champion!
- Thread starter fishbone
- Start date
Member- Jun 13, 2019
- 1,108
- Tinnitus Since
- 10/2018
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Started with a cold, possibly worsened by medication/noise
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
Carry on my brother! Tinnitus can be pure hell, It's a grind and it can be quite difficult. I am afflicted with insanity screaming out my ears/head...Yet, I am more driven than ever to live my life and go after my dreams.
I'm glad I can make a difference in people's lives.....
You are a great person, you do not walk alone, our life is different, you are a great example for this page, we will always walk forward, for a long time now the brain can invent its lost frequencies, we will continue loving, dreaming, traveling in life, we do and we will do it until the end of our lives.
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
bobvann
Member
LOL in the early days I went to ER on a Sunday after it hit (started on the previous Friday) Therefore if I am having the day from hell I nickname it "Tinnitus Sunday"
I work out 4 to 5 a days a week, same wights for 30 mins, Cardio for 20 while I watch TV shows on my Samsung Tablet. Playing drums is the only challenge I can't yet beat.
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
Having a fitness routine is a good thing, if it doesn't annoy your tinnitus. Due to my fitness routines and distractions, that's how I am able to sleep with this beyond intrusive and nasty loud tinnitus.
Glad to find such a positive space here. I tend to avoid this site since all the negativity gets me down.
Been going through a spike for about a month now, and I've mostly habituated. But I'm now almost compelelty deaf in my left ear, and I live in near constant fear of my T getting worse. (My T is sound induced, but I suppose that my history of depression and my mom's Meneire's Diease both haven't done me any favors.)
I had trouble sleeping last night. Kept waking up to awful, LOUD T. I'm scared that it might be symptoms of another spike. I'm only 21, and I'm scared to deal with it for the rest of my life.
This thread cheered me up, even if only a little. You're all wonderful.
Been going through a spike for about a month now, and I've mostly habituated. But I'm now almost compelelty deaf in my left ear, and I live in near constant fear of my T getting worse. (My T is sound induced, but I suppose that my history of depression and my mom's Meneire's Diease both haven't done me any favors.)
I had trouble sleeping last night. Kept waking up to awful, LOUD T. I'm scared that it might be symptoms of another spike. I'm only 21, and I'm scared to deal with it for the rest of my life.
This thread cheered me up, even if only a little. You're all wonderful.
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
I know exactly where you are coming from. It's tough, it is. It takes lots of courage and strength to deal with loud/intrusive T and beyond horrible hearing. I face it daily myself, I recently just got a new possible baseline and my T is even louder. It has been pretty loud and intrusive for a long time, now a newer baseline has appeared and I am waiting to see if it gets better. If it does, that would be wonderful, if not...I'll just have to deal with it and move forward (done this many times).
All I can say is to hang in there, and do your best to protect your ears and try to keep your stress low. It's not easy, it takes work but It is possible.
I make posts, threads to cheer people up. Tinnitus is a horrible ordeal. Any glimpse of hope people can get can be helpful and possibly motivate them.
bobvann
Member
I have been able to sleep overall for quite a while. I get spells where it can be bothersome. That's what got me to realize I am not habituated enough to drum yet. I tried to after a 6 month break last week and it gave me a bad reaction and kept me up most of the night.
It's not all bad. Another strategy is to distract so as per a suggestion I got online, I am learning guitar since it is something new to take your mind away while you learn. I am still hanging on to my drum gear.
This may need to change and if it does so be it.
As far as allowing opinions may not be a bad thing. I was part of another forum that basically refuse to allow anything but positivity and creating the illusion that EVERYONE will recover within a few years. Saying otherwise will "scare the newbies."
I am not sure that is a realistic approach since it is different for everyone and there is no one size a.k.a treatment fits all.
It can be a tricky beast. I do agree with trying to remain positive.
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
I wanted to learn, how to play the guitar. I bought a nice guitar and got some good instructions on learning it. After a while it was just not helping me with my tinnitus, so i gave it up. It was an acoustic guitar, really had hopes that it would not rev up my tinnitus, but it did.
bobvann
Member
Actually I bought a Mexi start and vox amp in July was strumming it on my deck. It does not ramp up my tinnitus. Drumming does and even though I wore custom ear molds and/or industrial cans on top. I think its because of how physical, vibrations and powerful low end. Last week I played a kit for less than 10 minutes with the custom ear molds and I had a bad reaction. I have very negligible to no hearing loss depending on who you ask. I have more details in my intro post.
I traded some gear and Mexi Strat for a Les Paul Studio I am picking up on Tuesday. I do hope to get back to drumming one day.
bobvann
Member
Because drumming creates too much of a reaction at this time. I get that one does not want to give tinnitus the power. There is also the case for being a bone head...
I was trying to play the old drummer joke on you. By climbing down I meant from guitar back to drums. I suppose it wasn't a good one if I have to explain it
but in my musician days there were plenty of stupid jokes like that. I'm glad you're playing though. I got a couple of nice guitars that I almost never play on anymore. It's a shame really.
bobvann
Member
LOL KI was trying to play the old drummer joke on you. By climbing down I meant from guitar back to drums. I suppose it wasn't a good one if I have to explain it
One thing that I use to keep myself positive is that things could be worse. For example, I only have tinnitus in my left ear. (Actually in both ears, but it's barely noticeable in my right.) Some people have it really bad in both. I don't.
I also rarely notice it now when focusing on work and other tasks. And as long as I have sufficent background noise, I can read with no issue.
I also think about the measures I've taken to protect myself:
I now carry ear plugs with me everywhere I go. I can use them if things get too loud.
I have a decible counter on my phone. If things get too loud, I can use my ear plugs and/or leave. (This actually helped me out recently. I discovered that sitting in the back of the bus is louder than sitting near the middle.)
I have lowered my caffiene intake significantly. (Only had one coffee this whole month.)
While I do work in a movie theatre, which can get quite loud, I make an effort to stay away from the speakers, and I use ear plugs when needed. I'm currently looking for a job with less noise exposure.
I have ceased all use of earbuds/headphones.
When my spike first started, I was in near constant hysteriacs. While not suicidal, I wrote a note just in case. But now I'm doing a bit better. I still fear another spike, and I've been noticing some ear pain, but aside from that, I'm okay.
I also rarely notice it now when focusing on work and other tasks. And as long as I have sufficent background noise, I can read with no issue.
I also think about the measures I've taken to protect myself:
I now carry ear plugs with me everywhere I go. I can use them if things get too loud.
I have a decible counter on my phone. If things get too loud, I can use my ear plugs and/or leave. (This actually helped me out recently. I discovered that sitting in the back of the bus is louder than sitting near the middle.)
I have lowered my caffiene intake significantly. (Only had one coffee this whole month.)
While I do work in a movie theatre, which can get quite loud, I make an effort to stay away from the speakers, and I use ear plugs when needed. I'm currently looking for a job with less noise exposure.
I have ceased all use of earbuds/headphones.
When my spike first started, I was in near constant hysteriacs. While not suicidal, I wrote a note just in case. But now I'm doing a bit better. I still fear another spike, and I've been noticing some ear pain, but aside from that, I'm okay.
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
Spikes can happen for a variety of reasons, it's not always the noise trauma that causes them. Yes, with noise trauma it is possible to get spikes, but many other things can possibly cause spikes as well.
You seem to be handling yourself well and have created ways to live and be pro-active with your tinnitus.
I know that. But I focus on that the most since my T is sound induced.
I had a the flu awhile ago, which put my T to near unbearable levels, but it went back down after I recovered.
The worst part is, since I'm so young, another spike seems inevitable. It could be a week, could a decade from now. I have my whole life for it to get worse.
- May 5, 2016
- 2,594
- Tinnitus Since
- 1988
- Cause of Tinnitus
- loud noise and very bad sickness
Yes, life happens and more spikes may possibly come. My ears may get worst as well, but I don't focus on what may happen. I deal with what is already going on in my life. I try to make sure that I do my best TODAY and protect my ears. That's the best I can do, worrying is not going to help me at all.
- Dec 21, 2019
- 319
- Tinnitus Since
- 2014, 10/2019
- Cause of Tinnitus
- School Band, Noxious Car Radio
@fishbone thank you for your positive words. I'm just over two months into my tinnitus journey and it frightens me to no end. I woke up last night with terrible inflamation in my inner ear and just cried until I fell back asleep. It's really hard for me to go through this because I used to be such a positive person, now I often fall into the trap of feeling broken.
But what you say is true, and I feel that if those who are worse off than me can stay positive then I can too. I want this to make me into a more patient and compassionate person. I want to continue to bring happiness into the lives of my friends and not close myself off. Your words really make me hopeful, and silence my doubts during a really rough time.
Thank you!
But what you say is true, and I feel that if those who are worse off than me can stay positive then I can too. I want this to make me into a more patient and compassionate person. I want to continue to bring happiness into the lives of my friends and not close myself off. Your words really make me hopeful, and silence my doubts during a really rough time.
Thank you!
