Hi Everybody,
I'll post this in the other relevant forums, but I figured I'd get the general intro out of the way. I apologize for the lengthy post but I have a lot to get off my chest and as I'm sure you all know, nobody really understands this unless they've gone through it themselves.
I'm 27, and I'm a guitar player. I've been playing in bands since I was about 13. I recognized early on that it was probably smart to wear ear plugs, and I would say that about 75% of the time I did during rehearsals and shows. I also was very mindful about how loud my earphones were, and in general I was pretty conscientious for a teenager. I suppose I mention this to at least make myself feel better that I made a legitimate effort to protect myself. However.....
There were enough events (concerts, loud bars, etc) where I was caught in a loud environment without protection to deduce that this in fact caused my Tinnitus. I don't have a history of any ear infections or medications that are known to cause T, so I've put 2 and 2 together. I've never thought about it until about a year ago when I started noticing it (either because of self-awareness, or because it got worse), and I am terrified that it is going to get progressively worse and eventually render me completely deaf.
I can describe my tinnitus as generally mild (as in, I don't really notice it unless it's really quiet) but the scariest part is that I will have sporadic periods of 10-20 seconds where it intensifies in loudness, then dims back into the background. When this happens, it is only in one ear, although which ear it occurs in seems totally random--I can't say for certain if it happens in one ear more than the other. It does not seem to be brought on by any one thing. There are days where it doesn't happen at all, or days that it will happen several times.
I feel a fullness in my ears, or maybe it could be described as pressure, as well. When I first noticed my T getting worse, I was confident that all I had was an ear wax problem, but the ENT told me that the amount of ear wax she took out wasn't all that significant. Even after my ear cleaning, I still feel the fullness and a slight ache. I find that popping my ears (like you do when you're on a plane) offers momentary improvement in my hearing, but I stopped doing this as I am worried that it is bad for you. For what it's worth, the ENT's professional opinion is that I most likely just have very sensitive ears. Not sure if I buy into that, but to be honest I've been deliberately avoiding any other ENT appointments or hearing tests, because I am scared of the results.
More recently I have found myself more sensitive to sound than in the past. Things like the subway screeching to a halt (I live in NYC) or the door slamming, or whenever firetrucks or ambulences pass by will usually lead to me covering my ears.
Over the past year or so, this issue has cast a shadow over everything that I do. I have been treated for anxiety in the past with great results, but this has ushered my anxiety back with a vengance. I'm just looking for support, advice and knowledge, and I will try to provide the same to anybody who asks. Thanks for reading, I look forward to learning with all of you.
Jon
I'll post this in the other relevant forums, but I figured I'd get the general intro out of the way. I apologize for the lengthy post but I have a lot to get off my chest and as I'm sure you all know, nobody really understands this unless they've gone through it themselves.
I'm 27, and I'm a guitar player. I've been playing in bands since I was about 13. I recognized early on that it was probably smart to wear ear plugs, and I would say that about 75% of the time I did during rehearsals and shows. I also was very mindful about how loud my earphones were, and in general I was pretty conscientious for a teenager. I suppose I mention this to at least make myself feel better that I made a legitimate effort to protect myself. However.....
There were enough events (concerts, loud bars, etc) where I was caught in a loud environment without protection to deduce that this in fact caused my Tinnitus. I don't have a history of any ear infections or medications that are known to cause T, so I've put 2 and 2 together. I've never thought about it until about a year ago when I started noticing it (either because of self-awareness, or because it got worse), and I am terrified that it is going to get progressively worse and eventually render me completely deaf.
I can describe my tinnitus as generally mild (as in, I don't really notice it unless it's really quiet) but the scariest part is that I will have sporadic periods of 10-20 seconds where it intensifies in loudness, then dims back into the background. When this happens, it is only in one ear, although which ear it occurs in seems totally random--I can't say for certain if it happens in one ear more than the other. It does not seem to be brought on by any one thing. There are days where it doesn't happen at all, or days that it will happen several times.
I feel a fullness in my ears, or maybe it could be described as pressure, as well. When I first noticed my T getting worse, I was confident that all I had was an ear wax problem, but the ENT told me that the amount of ear wax she took out wasn't all that significant. Even after my ear cleaning, I still feel the fullness and a slight ache. I find that popping my ears (like you do when you're on a plane) offers momentary improvement in my hearing, but I stopped doing this as I am worried that it is bad for you. For what it's worth, the ENT's professional opinion is that I most likely just have very sensitive ears. Not sure if I buy into that, but to be honest I've been deliberately avoiding any other ENT appointments or hearing tests, because I am scared of the results.
More recently I have found myself more sensitive to sound than in the past. Things like the subway screeching to a halt (I live in NYC) or the door slamming, or whenever firetrucks or ambulences pass by will usually lead to me covering my ears.
Over the past year or so, this issue has cast a shadow over everything that I do. I have been treated for anxiety in the past with great results, but this has ushered my anxiety back with a vengance. I'm just looking for support, advice and knowledge, and I will try to provide the same to anybody who asks. Thanks for reading, I look forward to learning with all of you.
Jon