Greetings my new tinnitus-friends!
I'm a girl aged 22 this month, who as of late (approx the 15th of august) developed tinnitus.
On both ears there a semmi consistant ringing tone, and on left the loudest and a bit darker tone.
Last year I started clubbing, and specifically I played at clubs as a DJ. Oh dear this starts well..
Compared to the lot of my collegues, I've hardly been exposed to the amounts of loud music, yet .. Here I am!
In the late of September I read a facebook post from a dear collegue, asking advice on hearing protection regarding her severe tinnitus.
Since I was a child, I've dealt with some psychological pickles, specifically an anxiety of becoming ill/dying (a beautiful thing my mind made up, which based on pure fear, rendered me ill in different ways lol).
It has been less prevalent in these late years, yet the moment I read about my collegue, ofc I had to start sensing symptoms and worry.
In October I had 3 gigs, the last one being at the 11th. The past days after that I had no ringing or what so ever.
At the 15th my family found out my brother and I involuntarily had rats beneath our floors , hence I currently have a rat trap beneath a heavy box in my room, with a drilled hole in the floor. Two years ago we had gone through the same woho!
Up until the 16th 'it was all great', that day the ringing began.
In my fear of this new invassive sound, I wore earplugs as protection in desperation, using them a bit roughly I guess. The rough use led to a slight irritation of the ear, leaving me with the hopes of a infection as the cause, 'sadly' this doesnt seem to be the case.
My doctor told me based on the description of 1: I have some pain in my ears 2. As of late there's been tinnitus a couple of days in the left ear: "THERE IS NO CURE FOR THAT, LEARN 2 ABSTRACT FROM IT, GET ON WITH IT". Planning on getting a new doctor ..
So I actively sought up an ent and audiologist, who told me that there were no signs of too much earwax, and I had no hearing loss at all, just normal hearing.
Yet this leaves me with so many questions. I don't know what's worst, the sound, or the fears surrounding it. One thing is getting used to a stable sound, but when I twist and bend my necks in certain directions it changes, sometimes to a much louder version if I keep it in an outer position. I do have neck problems, and seemingly yay so much for searching the web, I might have some symptoms of TMJ. When I open my jaw to an outer position, the t intensifies, I have a little superhero-sized chin/cheek, and when I open my mouth wide open, it goes slightly to the left and then right back into the joint when I close it. But honestly I've never experienced any pain or problems with my jaws.
Anyway.. I'm even afraid of stretching out at this point. One thing is dealing with something stable, another is fluctuations and the thoughts of it might worsening to the sounds of the outer positions.
I don't even know what to say or think anymore, I've been sick from school several days, but being alone with your own thoughts at home is almost worse =(
*I'm fantastic at sleeping, but I do feel like going to bed a lot earlier as of late, thus waking up even earlier to an even longer day...
Also previous to this I wasn't exactly happy, but not as stressed as in the moment of first t
Another thing is I find my my t to be somewhat fluctuating, might be my focus, but I've felt both some tone changes on left and right (not sure if for the better or worse)
Any hope providers out there?
it would mean a Lot
I'm a girl aged 22 this month, who as of late (approx the 15th of august) developed tinnitus.
On both ears there a semmi consistant ringing tone, and on left the loudest and a bit darker tone.
Last year I started clubbing, and specifically I played at clubs as a DJ. Oh dear this starts well..
Compared to the lot of my collegues, I've hardly been exposed to the amounts of loud music, yet .. Here I am!
In the late of September I read a facebook post from a dear collegue, asking advice on hearing protection regarding her severe tinnitus.
Since I was a child, I've dealt with some psychological pickles, specifically an anxiety of becoming ill/dying (a beautiful thing my mind made up, which based on pure fear, rendered me ill in different ways lol).
It has been less prevalent in these late years, yet the moment I read about my collegue, ofc I had to start sensing symptoms and worry.
In October I had 3 gigs, the last one being at the 11th. The past days after that I had no ringing or what so ever.
At the 15th my family found out my brother and I involuntarily had rats beneath our floors , hence I currently have a rat trap beneath a heavy box in my room, with a drilled hole in the floor. Two years ago we had gone through the same woho!
Up until the 16th 'it was all great', that day the ringing began.
In my fear of this new invassive sound, I wore earplugs as protection in desperation, using them a bit roughly I guess. The rough use led to a slight irritation of the ear, leaving me with the hopes of a infection as the cause, 'sadly' this doesnt seem to be the case.
My doctor told me based on the description of 1: I have some pain in my ears 2. As of late there's been tinnitus a couple of days in the left ear: "THERE IS NO CURE FOR THAT, LEARN 2 ABSTRACT FROM IT, GET ON WITH IT". Planning on getting a new doctor ..
So I actively sought up an ent and audiologist, who told me that there were no signs of too much earwax, and I had no hearing loss at all, just normal hearing.
Yet this leaves me with so many questions. I don't know what's worst, the sound, or the fears surrounding it. One thing is getting used to a stable sound, but when I twist and bend my necks in certain directions it changes, sometimes to a much louder version if I keep it in an outer position. I do have neck problems, and seemingly yay so much for searching the web, I might have some symptoms of TMJ. When I open my jaw to an outer position, the t intensifies, I have a little superhero-sized chin/cheek, and when I open my mouth wide open, it goes slightly to the left and then right back into the joint when I close it. But honestly I've never experienced any pain or problems with my jaws.
Anyway.. I'm even afraid of stretching out at this point. One thing is dealing with something stable, another is fluctuations and the thoughts of it might worsening to the sounds of the outer positions.
I don't even know what to say or think anymore, I've been sick from school several days, but being alone with your own thoughts at home is almost worse =(
*I'm fantastic at sleeping, but I do feel like going to bed a lot earlier as of late, thus waking up even earlier to an even longer day...
Also previous to this I wasn't exactly happy, but not as stressed as in the moment of first t
Another thing is I find my my t to be somewhat fluctuating, might be my focus, but I've felt both some tone changes on left and right (not sure if for the better or worse)
Any hope providers out there?
it would mean a Lot