Dear Silence, will we ever meet again?
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Bout to throw in the towel
Another day in my room in plugs. So scared this Ativan taper will kill me. I'm not nearly as strong as Padraigh or Brian and look what it did to them. They have kids too. Benzos are evil.
Holding on for my son, Kai. Kai buddy I love you more than anything in this world and mommy is trying to get better for you.
Staying on my taper of Ativan at 1/4 of a 0.5 pill 3x a day. My tinnitus is insane. 10 different sounds in head and ears. I'm also having ear pain and extreme hyperacusis. I'm very scared. It seems all the suicide stories here got bad multitonal tinnitus from benzos like me. Trying to stay strong but worried I'll just be a memorial post in a few months. One tone vibrates my entire head.
I'll soon hit my four year anniversary. I'm not happy that I've made it this long. Every day has been pure suffering. Not worth it.
Left eyelid twitching, something new again.
Had some setbacks this past month, and have been struggling pretty badly again. Essentially, I make some delicate progress between setbacks, and then any harsh noise exposure 100x trumps all of that, rinse and repeat. Extremely frustrating to say the least
Started reading Kevin Hogan's "Turning the Volume Down" and trying to incorporate some practices
If you have any suggestions or just want to chat/vent, I'm here
Started reading Kevin Hogan's "Turning the Volume Down" and trying to incorporate some practices
If you have any suggestions or just want to chat/vent, I'm here
headache, pressure in the head, pain in the ears without sound, pain on sounds and worsening noises, anxiety, depression. I've never been in such a mess as I have been since my ear problems.
I actually "forgot" about the incident below and i didnt spike... Weird. Last 2 days i been feeling energetic and in a good mood! 
A severe tinnitus / noxacusis patient has 2 options. Euthanasia or torture for the rest of his life.
3 months in. We got hissing, shrieks, long lasting pure tones, static, wind, rattling like a snake. It's all just chaos and all the sounds take turns every few seconds / minutes. Never the same. Hard to get used to but I'm getting better at not reacting/ignoring. Volume wise it's hard to tell because some sounds are louder than others and some days it all seems louder/ quieter.
Sat in the back of my friend's revved up car not warned how goddamn loud it would be - Having a noise increase :/ I still don't really feel all that polite jamming my fingers in my ears every time its loud, but sometimes you need to I suppose!