“Tinnitus Truths”

@Jazzer, she walks beside you everyday.

When you need comfort, her warmth and love will surround you and her strength live on in you, guiding you every day... xxx

love you Dave xx
 
I have not been on Tinnitus Talk for quite some time, but I just saw this thread. Oh Jazzer! I am so sorry for your loss. You always wrote of your dear Sylvia with such love and beauty that it felt like a tangible thing even online. Wishing you gentle comfort, strength, and peace in your lovely memories together.
 
I have not been on Tinnitus Talk for quite some time, but I just saw this thread. Oh Jazzer! I am so sorry for your loss. You always wrote of your dear Sylvia with such love and beauty that it felt like a tangible thing even online. Wishing you gentle comfort, strength, and peace in your lovely memories together.
So kind Tinker Bell - thank you so much for thinking about me - I am touched. :love:

Dave xx
 
I just wanted to stop by and check in on you @Jazzer. I think about you often in my time away from the forum. I hope you are doing well!
 
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Tinnitus
- a different way of thinking about it.


For me, the worst thing about tinnitus is it's permanence.
It won't stop - it won't go away.
A hateful condition as we all know only too well.
Mine is very severe, as described in my awareness video.
If I 'hiss match' it to my decibel meter it variously comes out between 50 - 60 - 70 decibels.
But I believe we have to find a different way to think about it.

"Do not talk the volume up - ever.
Always talk it down.
Do not continuously confirm how bad it is."


In reality the volume is relatively low.
When it wakes us up it can consume our whole being.
In earlier days I have described mine as a forest fire.
But not any more.

This is the time for a mantra.
Just say to yourself:

"Little more than a whisper."

Repeat that affirmation several times a day as necessary.
To start with you probably won't believe it
- but eventually I think your brain will.

"Little more than a whisper."

Give this a try folks.

Dave xx
Jazzer

PS - sometimes I can forget about mine
- for hours at a time.
 
Tinnitus
- a different way of thinking about it.


For me, the worst thing about tinnitus is it's permanence.
It won't stop - it won't go away.
A hateful condition as we all know only too well.
Mine is very severe, as described in my awareness video.
If I 'hiss match' it to my decibel meter it variously comes out between 50 - 60 - 70 decibels.
But I believe we have to find a different way to think about it.

"Do not talk the volume up - ever.
Always talk it down.
Do not continuously confirm how bad it is."


In reality the volume is relatively low.
When it wakes us up it can consume our whole being.
In earlier days I have described mine as a forest fire.
But not any more.

This is the time for a mantra.
Just say to yourself:

"Little more than a whisper."

Repeat that affirmation several times a day as necessary.
To start with you probably won't believe it
- but eventually I think your brain will.

"Little more than a whisper."

Give this a try folks.

Dave xx
Jazzer

PS - sometimes I can forget about mine
- for hours at a time.
That's brilliant Dave. For me it's totally ignoring the damn thing, some days I don't hear it at all, but then my brain is figuring the next wood project. But I agree it's only a whisper.
 
Tinnitus
- a different way of thinking about it.


For me, the worst thing about tinnitus is it's permanence.
It won't stop - it won't go away.
A hateful condition as we all know only too well.
Mine is very severe, as described in my awareness video.
If I 'hiss match' it to my decibel meter it variously comes out between 50 - 60 - 70 decibels.
But I believe we have to find a different way to think about it.

"Do not talk the volume up - ever.
Always talk it down.
Do not continuously confirm how bad it is."


In reality the volume is relatively low.
When it wakes us up it can consume our whole being.
In earlier days I have described mine as a forest fire.
But not any more.

This is the time for a mantra.
Just say to yourself:

"Little more than a whisper."

Repeat that affirmation several times a day as necessary.
To start with you probably won't believe it
- but eventually I think your brain will.

"Little more than a whisper."

Give this a try folks.

Dave xx
Jazzer

PS - sometimes I can forget about mine
- for hours at a time.
Goodness me.

Somebody actually read one of my posts.

I was beginning to think that I didn't exist?
 
At many times when I begin to doubt my ability to cope with this life any more, and to meet all my responsibilities, Sylvie's hypnotic suggestions come back to me:

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My lovely wife Sylvie died in November last year.

About eighteen years ago she qualified as a clinical hypnotherapist at King's College Hospital in London.

In 2016 I suffered a breakdown when I was still working as a professional jazz trombonist, first call for five different bands, at the same time as coping with severe tinnitus.

I was only able to operate by the judicious use of ear plugs.

Sylvie gave me a hypnotherapy session which she recorded onto my iPhone. It puts me to sleep every night of my life. Even though she has passed away she is able to help me still.

Looking through her iPad notebook yesterday I came across an interesting article.

In 2018 she scripted a new hypnosis session geared at assisting me with tinnitus acceptance and habituation.

For whatever reason she did not get to deliver it for me, but just by reading her script I find both comfort and kindness in her words of wisdom.

It is quite a long session, but I may attempt to précis it to retrieve a few gems.

Dave x
Jazzer
 
Sylvie was a clinical hypnotherapist who qualified at King's College Hospital.

When my tinnitus became severe she gave me a hypnosis session, which she also recorded onto my iPhone.

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Subliminal messages delivered under deep hypnosis have been known to benefit some people.

They do help me.

'From this moment on - and with every day that passes - you are thinking less and less about your noise - and this wonderful idea - this new direction - is now becoming your true reality - as you gradually learn that you can turn over this page - that the noise will recede further into the background - as you pay it less attention - and that your noise is becoming more and more a distant memory.'

Dave xx
Jazzer
 
Tinnitus
- a different way of thinking about it.


For me, the worst thing about tinnitus is it's permanence.
It won't stop - it won't go away.
A hateful condition as we all know only too well.
Mine is very severe, as described in my awareness video.
If I 'hiss match' it to my decibel meter it variously comes out between 50 - 60 - 70 decibels.
But I believe we have to find a different way to think about it.

"Do not talk the volume up - ever.
Always talk it down.
Do not continuously confirm how bad it is."


In reality the volume is relatively low.
When it wakes us up it can consume our whole being.
In earlier days I have described mine as a forest fire.
But not any more.

This is the time for a mantra.
Just say to yourself:

"Little more than a whisper."

Repeat that affirmation several times a day as necessary.
To start with you probably won't believe it
- but eventually I think your brain will.

"Little more than a whisper."

Give this a try folks.

Dave xx
Jazzer

PS - sometimes I can forget about mine
- for hours at a time.
Your post gave me such a relief... you can't imagine, after a flare from the COVID-19 vaccine, I needed to read those word to remind me that I am not 100% my tinnitus and it hasn't taken over me.
 
Your post gave me such a relief... you can't imagine, after a flare from the COVID-19 vaccine, I needed to read those word to remind me that I am not 100% my tinnitus and it hasn't taken over me.
Pharz, such a lovely comment for me to read.
If anything I write ever gives relief or pleasure I am comforted. We are all here to help each other and it is a touching thing when it happens.
Thank you.
Dave xx
Jazzer
 
In the total absence of any medical help or scientific help, I have turned to philosophy for my support, and for a different perspective:
my outlook is replacing my former in look.

I no longer need a 'victim identity.'
 
"We have this beautiful Pristine Mind with five amazing senses that are like beautiful windows to the world. When our mind is pristine, everything we see, hear, touch, taste, and smell is viewed from the pristine perspective."

I hear severe tinnitus, can't see again in one eye and can't taste with my mouth pain.

But, Our Pristine Mind by Orgyen Chowang is a good read. Amazon reviews are also some of the best I've seen for any book.

When I was four years old, I can remember going outside one morning for the first time alone.

I saw beautiful trees, flowers and butterflies, heard hummingbirds and smelled the fresh morning air.

Not too long later, I was grinning when touching a large mushroom on the edge of woods. An older kid came walking by and said what are you grinning about. He then saw the mushroom, picked it up and smashes it in the road. This was also the first time I witnessed cruelty and meanness.

As I was growing up, I witnessed a lot of meanness from locals because I wasn't a certain religion. I had to sit in the back of the class in public school until I attended a private school.
 
"We have this beautiful Pristine Mind with five amazing senses that are like beautiful windows to the world. When our mind is pristine, everything we see, hear, touch, taste, and smell is viewed from the pristine perspective."

I hear severe tinnitus, can't see again in one eye and can't taste with my mouth pain.

But, Our Pristine Mind by Orgyen Chowang is a good read. Amazon reviews are also some of the best I've seen for any book.

When I was four years old, I can remember going outside one morning for the first time alone.

I saw beautiful trees, flowers and butterflies, heard hummingbirds and smelled the fresh morning air.

Not too long later, I was grinning when touching a large mushroom on the edge of woods. An older kid came walking by and said what are you grinning about. He then saw the mushroom, picked it up and smashes it in the road. This was also the first time I witnessed cruelty and meanness.

As I was growing up, I witnessed a lot of meanness from locals because I wasn't a certain religion. I had to sit in the back of the class in public school until I attended a private school.
A sad story but one I can really relate to.
You deserved so much better buddy.
I despise cruelty in all its forms.
Most people who have been deeply hurt will try to avoid hurting others, like the plague it is.

One of the reasons I will not accept a 'biblical god' is because, according to Matthew's gospel and Peter's book of Revelations, this loving Heavenly Father will cast those guilty of non-belief into lakes of fire.
Personally, I would not squat a fly.

'Kindness - love - relationships.'
There really is very little else to this life.
 

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