Hello all you Beauties & Boy's
Just thought I'd share a little hope with you all especially the newbies who are still fretting & thinking they can't handle this new curve ball life has thrown them.
As some of you know my chronic T started in early July last year (2013) & much to my disappointment my new annoying neighbour is going strong and doesn't look like she will be vacating anytime soon lol.
However I myself I'm good, I'm not in the "panic state" about my T anymore & if your sitting there thinking "oh she must be one of the lucky ones who has to put her fingers in her ears or has to be in a quiet room to hear it" your wrong... I hear mine even when I'm driving the biggest earthmoving machine's on the planet, I hear mine while operating an 800 tonne dump truck, I hear mine when I'm in the shower, outside when all the crazy neighbourhood kids are screaming and playing loudly around me, I hear mine everywhere, every moment of every day, I just don't let it control me anymore.
I used to be (pre T days) an outgoing, turn the music up as loud as it can go kind of girl....then one day I noticed this ringing in my ear's... of course I consulted Dr Goggle & found millions of search results on T and all this doom and gloom, not the kind of stuff you want to hear when your heart is already in your throat, but you know what I didn't find ANYTHING, ANYTHING positive, the only success stories I found were scams trying to sell me some bullshit to make it all go away and well if your sitting here reading this you know they don't. So I stopped, I stopped listening to music, started wearing these terrible fluro orange hi-vis earplugs like all the time at work ( I know what your thinking hottie right? lol) and plugging my ears when ever I was around even moderately noisy environments. By doing this I made my ears even more sensitive...... So I started asking, I asked anyone who I trusted at work (as industrial deafness & T is not something you want to promote in my industry) & I found 70% of the guys I asked had it & had had it for years! But they didn't let it ruin them or their social lives, It didn't bother them??! Even blokes younger then me! I was dumbfounded, I couldn't believe that these boys & men were not as effected as I was about this ringing in my ears, they still go to festivals, concerts, listen to crazy loud music but they just didn't have the "emotion" (panic, dread, fear)attached to it like I did. So I thought... fuck it, that's it no more. Little by little I started introducing things back into my life, music was first, then going to the movies (hair down with earplugs) and I am now starting to use my Beats headphones again, I fly twice every 5 days ( for work) so that hasn't affected my T for better or worse & when I hear my T or shall I say when I give it attention I am just like "pffft you again" and just go about what I am doing. This in no way doesn't mean I don't still have my bad days where I cant sleep or my T is louder then normal but unfortunately that's just how its going to roll but at least I am having so many more good days then bad & you will too. This forum has been a godsend to me, I truly am so thankful to the administrator's of tinnitustalk.com I can not thank them enough, I don't come on here that much anymore but I pop in maybe once every 1 to 2 weeks just to see some of the beautiful faces I have met along this journey, I hope you all find a happy medium like I have & habituate.
So that is it, I just wanted to share with you that it does get better, you get better, life goes on and you can do all those fun things again, maybe just with some new furo hi-vis earplugs lol
Peace out xxx
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