Hello,
You can call me LovesWilbur. I am 31 and my first onset of T started a long long time ago. I have a low db hum in both ears. I can only hear it if I plug them or lay on a pillow flat. I actually was never bothered by them as they were never intrusive. However I am here because on New Years day I had another pitch show up. Out of nowhere the noise just appeared above my head, I guess you could say it's over my left year but it does not feel like it is in the ear but rather in the air. To me it sounds like those little teenager repellers that some grocery stores use to deter loitering (I think they make a high frequency squeal out of speakers).
I am only five days in and I have been devastated by this. I had so many stressful events occurring in my life from a job change, to house shopping and enjoying the holidays. I have never been good at managing stress. I have suffered from Anxiety my whole life and fighting off panic attacks was a monthly occurrence. I woke up on New Years day and what I heard the noise. I thought The TV screen was making it, but I turned it off and the noise remained. I dashed into my bathroom to see if I could isolate the screech and sure enough in the dead silence, it was there.
This has been the worst week of my life. Frantically trying find a cure and scared I would be locked inside this body, with company, for the rest of my life. I explored /r/tinnitus on Reddit. Big mistake. It was a negative vortex of stories that were comforted with "Too bad, you'll get used to it". After five days of hell, all I learned was they were probably right. I was pouring tears from my face. I swear to God I have never cried so much in my entire life. From age 1-30. It was all washed away in five days. Feeling hopeless and depressed.
I have the most amazing girlfriend ever. It's a shame we live so far apart but in spite of it all she has spent so much of her energy trying to comfort me. She has such a positive attitude and whether I want it to or not, it rubs off on me. She has been my shield in this war and I really need to give her a break. And that is why I am here. I really don't have much support as far as family goes as they live so far away.
So far I have been to a GP and a Dentist. My dentist knows of my history with bad TMJ, she actually has mild T herself that she attributes to her own TMJ. She referred me to a oral surgeon but as everyone here knows, it is mostly hopeless. My GP found that my inner left ear was inflamed and had fluid, so she is running me through the basic T beginners package; Steroids for inflammation, Benzo so I sleep, Anti-biotics, Nasal De. I know how small the probability that this will cure me will be, but at a small shot of maybe lowering my new T to the same volume of my old T's would be nice.
So far the sleep has been the hardest thing for me. I can count on two hands the number of hours of sleep I have had this week. And I am lucky if I am using all the fingers. I just wrapped up work today and start my new job Monday. As hard as this week has been, I know I am in for rougher roads. But the sleep. Man what I wouldn't give for just 6 hours of beautiful sleep. I have spent the week crying, researching, feeling depressed, hopeless. I am sure you have all been here and I know it will get better with time.
I am 31 and I dread the fact that for the better half of my life I have an annoying little shit floating above me, shooing loiterers away.
I have found a bit of solace here. It's a bit of a roller-coaster in here. Reading how new advancements are doing, and then learning how they are not as promising as anything since the 70s. But I have found many of your stories to be inspirational and really hope that someday I can be the one to tell people who are panicking that I don't even hear their T any more, and if I do, it means nothing to me. I don't want to sit around waiting for habituation or waiting with false hope. I know I have a lot of rough roads ahead of me and I come here hoping that I can find a fraction of the support my amazing girlfriend gives me. Just to help her out (because I am a wreck). I never thought I would be posting on a support site. Ever. But here I am. Welcoming me to you.
I plan on being in it for the long haul so I look forward to getting to know some of you.
Thanks
You can call me LovesWilbur. I am 31 and my first onset of T started a long long time ago. I have a low db hum in both ears. I can only hear it if I plug them or lay on a pillow flat. I actually was never bothered by them as they were never intrusive. However I am here because on New Years day I had another pitch show up. Out of nowhere the noise just appeared above my head, I guess you could say it's over my left year but it does not feel like it is in the ear but rather in the air. To me it sounds like those little teenager repellers that some grocery stores use to deter loitering (I think they make a high frequency squeal out of speakers).
I am only five days in and I have been devastated by this. I had so many stressful events occurring in my life from a job change, to house shopping and enjoying the holidays. I have never been good at managing stress. I have suffered from Anxiety my whole life and fighting off panic attacks was a monthly occurrence. I woke up on New Years day and what I heard the noise. I thought The TV screen was making it, but I turned it off and the noise remained. I dashed into my bathroom to see if I could isolate the screech and sure enough in the dead silence, it was there.
This has been the worst week of my life. Frantically trying find a cure and scared I would be locked inside this body, with company, for the rest of my life. I explored /r/tinnitus on Reddit. Big mistake. It was a negative vortex of stories that were comforted with "Too bad, you'll get used to it". After five days of hell, all I learned was they were probably right. I was pouring tears from my face. I swear to God I have never cried so much in my entire life. From age 1-30. It was all washed away in five days. Feeling hopeless and depressed.
I have the most amazing girlfriend ever. It's a shame we live so far apart but in spite of it all she has spent so much of her energy trying to comfort me. She has such a positive attitude and whether I want it to or not, it rubs off on me. She has been my shield in this war and I really need to give her a break. And that is why I am here. I really don't have much support as far as family goes as they live so far away.
So far I have been to a GP and a Dentist. My dentist knows of my history with bad TMJ, she actually has mild T herself that she attributes to her own TMJ. She referred me to a oral surgeon but as everyone here knows, it is mostly hopeless. My GP found that my inner left ear was inflamed and had fluid, so she is running me through the basic T beginners package; Steroids for inflammation, Benzo so I sleep, Anti-biotics, Nasal De. I know how small the probability that this will cure me will be, but at a small shot of maybe lowering my new T to the same volume of my old T's would be nice.
So far the sleep has been the hardest thing for me. I can count on two hands the number of hours of sleep I have had this week. And I am lucky if I am using all the fingers. I just wrapped up work today and start my new job Monday. As hard as this week has been, I know I am in for rougher roads. But the sleep. Man what I wouldn't give for just 6 hours of beautiful sleep. I have spent the week crying, researching, feeling depressed, hopeless. I am sure you have all been here and I know it will get better with time.
I am 31 and I dread the fact that for the better half of my life I have an annoying little shit floating above me, shooing loiterers away.
I have found a bit of solace here. It's a bit of a roller-coaster in here. Reading how new advancements are doing, and then learning how they are not as promising as anything since the 70s. But I have found many of your stories to be inspirational and really hope that someday I can be the one to tell people who are panicking that I don't even hear their T any more, and if I do, it means nothing to me. I don't want to sit around waiting for habituation or waiting with false hope. I know I have a lot of rough roads ahead of me and I come here hoping that I can find a fraction of the support my amazing girlfriend gives me. Just to help her out (because I am a wreck). I never thought I would be posting on a support site. Ever. But here I am. Welcoming me to you.
I plan on being in it for the long haul so I look forward to getting to know some of you.
Thanks
