Hi, Lesly!
My first tinnitus on set was antibiotic induced and it was severe. It happened 13 years ago. From the very beginning, I was in agony and suicidal, my life was absolutely turned upside down, nothing seemed to help: doctors, laser therapy, you name it… Consequently, I had to leave my profession. My life became miserable from a day to another, I couldn't believe that it was happening to me. Only Melatonin helped a bit. I did my best to keep away from benzos and antidepressants because I knew , as we say in Spain, they are "bread for today but hunger for tomorrow". Four years after that, during the following years, I started experiencing a progressive amelioration, which took me to a point that I could ignore the ringing most of the time, even at night, so I could take my life back. Finally, things got better on its own only with time.
Doctors and drugs did it again though. Last April, I was injected Propofol to induce me to sedation for a gastroscopy. Three days later, my tinnitus awaked me at night, it was screaming full blast. Since that night, my tinnitus increased and became even more severe than the previous on set. Once more, I was in misery. Agony and suicidal thoughts were back in my life. Sadness and despair, sleepless nights, food avoidance, anger, panic attacks, social withdrawal, etc., took over my life and put me in a destructive spiral that was addressing me to death. My family helped a lot, can't say the same about doctors or friends. Exceptionally, I accepted Benzos (Lorazepam + Diazepam) as the only way to have some sleep at night, Melatonin alone was not enough, I couldn't care less about becoming addicted to medication if that was the price to pay to get KO during a few hours. Seven months after that fatal event, I feel a little better (cross my fingers) so I only take a low dose of Diazepam (2.5 mg) + Melatonin. My life is still rough though and I have a lot of ups and downs which are typical of tinnitus like mine (very loud, changeable and extremely reactive to noise), but the horrible attacks and spikes that plagued me during the first few months seem that have decreased, although you never know; this condition is treacherous, and unexplained changes happen very often. I hope though that time will make things easier again.
Best regards.