Finished my 29 days of AUT00063 on the 4th of August 2015 (3 days ago).
I had the quietest days of T since it started in this last month. Also some of the loudest.
dB requirement is now 25 rather than 40 at the hospital I was at (Royal Ear Nose and Throat, London, UK). My left ear passed, my right did not.
I bought retigabine from China last year and since AUT is meant to act in the same way I imagined I felt a familiar tickle in the brain on the first day. 50% chance I had pills full of nothing and was imagining it.
3 weeks in it was so low I was writing '1'on my form (from 3) and feeling back to my old self. Placebo or not, this made me very happy. At that level I started thinking about who I would visit at the weekend rather than just hanging on until Monday. A bout of flu 7 days ago brought it back to above baseline (4) and has now reduced to (3) again.
Coming out of the AM-101 trial and into this (I turned down the 3rd cycle of AM-101 so the results for both studies would be valid and was transparent to the AUT doctors) I felt that both were helpful. *If* I actually had the drug, I would say AUT helped more, but I regret having to having make a choice between them. AM-101 helped me as well, and I know I got 2 rounds of that after the first blinded injections.
~10 months in I'm down to a tolerable 3 from 9. No longer suicidal and able to read a book and focus on work. "tincture of time?", maybe. Able to live again, within my means? Certainly.
I don't listen to music anymore but flirted with my spotify account on one of the best evenings. Remembered how nice it was.
Something inspiring by John Metcalfe, The Shock of Recognition:
The same, high quality on spotify:
Keep it nice and quiet.
Tom
Edit: trial is now running until the end of the year (at least in R:ENT, London) with results projected to be released at the earliest Q2 2016.
Any side effects or anything while on the drug? Aside from the lowered t of course!