It takes a lot of discipline for me not to become a raging addict. I will have a two-day binge and then force myself to stay away for as long as I can. If I make it three weeks, I am super happy. If I could go a month, it would be a miracle.
The first few days are rough, but then my energy levels come back, and I feel okay. Benzos are so dangerous, so I am extremely cautious. I can buy codeine cheap, but it does nothing for my tinnitus. If I take a huge dose of Valium, I might get an extra hour of sleep and feel mellow the next day, but it is a catch-22. Nothing works for my tinnitus.
I exercised for an hour and a half today. Now I am going to teach for a couple of hours, then either lie down or work on a painting. Tomorrow, I am finishing a sculpture. It is complicated, so no drugs.
If you do travel, come here. You will love it. Pay for premium economy and sit in front of the engines. If you need massages, steam baths, or anything else, I can arrange it for you. Stay at my place. I will take you to the mountains—awesome.
I wish there were some miracle for us. I think
@Jazzer had the best approach with mindfulness, meditation, and self-love.
I will talk to you soon, brother. Stay strong—I support you 100 percent.
Bear hugs to my friend in Norway.