And of course, my doc never said not to do it.
I know. Infact they often encourage it!! They often don´t know a thing what they are talking about these doctors. They have never felt benzowithdrawl on their body themselves.
What is important to understand is that if you take benzo long enough you are in a way in a constant withdrawl between every dose. Thats what made me use it for 25 years. The anxiety I had was uknowingly because of withdrawl. It becomes a vicious circle. You can taper to make the withdrawl easier, but some time you have to stop all together and thats when the problems really begin. You have to learn how to live without it and its no picknick. It can take years for the brain to stabilize the GABA-Glutumate levels I think.
I was on the type of benzo-anxiolytics with the shortest halflife too(oxazepam) which is not very viable to treat anxiety. You take one..BOOM 4 hours later you need another.
When it comes to benzo as a ototoxic drug I think it is important to destinguish between what drug actually damages/kills your haircells and what makes your brain fire neurons uncontrollably because of a nervoussystem out of control(GABA/Glutumate-missmatch) Both can or will give us T. I believe benzo does the latter, but then it should sibside eventually. If it doesn´t, then maybe I´m wrong.
Just want to say one thing about Clonazepam when it comes to dosage. I mean 0.5 mg doesn´t seem like alot, but if you compare it to what I took(Oxazepam) its equal to 20 mg and to me that was a healthy dose even 10-20 years into my missuse. 2mg = 80mg seemes like an overkill.
Anyway, 3.5 years have gone since I´ve realized benzo was a problem in it self for me and I still have strong tremors (especially in the morning) anxiety and my life is on hold.(Also due to my T.) I still take the occasional Diazepam. But only 5 mg less than once a week. I´ve had T for 1.5 -2 years now, and since I noticed benzo also helps with that it does´nt make it any easier to stay away from.
Bottom line. Short sighted, benzo is a wonderdrug when it comes to both anxiety and T. Long term, will make everything worse. I think we all know this, and it is hard to try and find a golden line with this shit.
Lastly I just want to post the
BENZODIAZEPINE EQUIVALENCE TABLE for all to see. Its probably been posted befor but..
http://www.benzo.org.uk/bzequiv.htm