Sorry to hear your struggle with your T,
@Tamika. You are at a low point now and you are discourage. It is perfectly understandable. Many of us had those dark thoughts during our struggle. I was so overwhelmed by my ultra high pitch dog whistle T and then severe hyperacusis, which also triggered relentless anxiety and panic attacks, daily. I was sleepless and depressed, not knowing how to go forward for life with such sufferings. The big 'S' word was dangling in front of my tired and stressed out mind, as it saw no way out of the long, dark tunnel of immense sufferings. But youtube is full of stories and videos of people who tried to harm themselves and came back with very unpleasant experiences on the other realm. I realized that this may be a one way ticket with no return, with quite uncertain consequence. I decided to stay here and fight, and to fight with every ounce of positive energy I can muscle. I said anything which could push me to the blink of the unthinkable better can prove it can continue to torment me for 5 years, continuously without break.
But honestly, T didn't have that power to wreck me for 5 years. After 2 years my condition was greatly improved after practicing positivity, after willing to co-exist with T while try finding joy amid the pain. I have concluded that if life has to be lived at all, why not live each moment positively, T high or low, and I pursue positivity and positive psychology with all my effort. I hope you can do the following to try to turn the corner on T:
Read up this site daily to help you stay positive:
http://positivitytoolbox.net/
Also read up the Positivity Thread on the main Support Forum:
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/the-positivity-thread.3142/
Yes, stress and anxiety plus depression are toxic to T. We need to focus on how to reduce the level of stress in our lives. When we take care of that, T may follow in line to quiet down to baseline. So take some actions and these are just some recommendations to deal with stress and anxiety. I know about this more than more members because I had suffered from anxiety and panic disorders for decades prior to T & H. Now I use the new mental skills or approaches I have learned from my T experience to help me deal with stress & anxiety much better.
1) Be positive and have hope for a good future. You can do some mental imagery daily, thinking of all the good things to look forward to whatever they are and related to you. There is a member in another forum who was suicidal and have extra loud T non-stop 7/24. He was in very sad & bitter mood for 3 years, and then the miracle turnaround happens - his first grandson was born. He was so happy and has so much joy with the grandson that he totally forget & ignore T. Then he realized T is not everything nor an end game, and he has something to look forward to. He now sounds much more positive and he seems to be much less bothered by T.
2) Try to do positive thinking daily. I used to play blind & handicapped (read my success story for detail) daily to start each morning, if for just 5-10 minutes at a time. Groping in the dark, or crawling at times (to mimic being handicapped), I began to appreciate all the blessings I already have but taken for granted or forgotten because of T. I realize I can still see, walk, talk, smell, hear, sense, eat, travel; have love ones who I care & love and they do likewise to me, have a home against the rain, wind, and cold weather; have friends to talk to, have freedom to live in a safe & peaceful country, perhaps with car to go around, to have income to feed the family, etc. etc. I learn to put T in its perspective. It is not an end game. It is livable. It may be curable in a few years, now with AM101 or Tobalt proving effective and they may be available soon.
3) Life is not that bleak. There are people with worse lots in life and still hanging around. Every time I see a blind, handicapped or homeless person, a beggar, or watch news of migrants who die while trying to flee a war-torn country, hungry and with no where to go, I count my blessings. Try to train yourself to think positive that way. Being positive will help reduce stress and anxiety, which then will help your T to go back to base line. Do some exercises which will produce endorphins. It is called a happy chemical and it will reduce stress and depression. See this link:
http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/exercise-depression
Give it some time and give your body some chance to harden to this T ringing. I was in a mess physically and mentally a few years back with loud T & severe H. But now I live a normal and absoloutely happy life. If a panic prone person like me can turn around, have faith that you can too after some time. So give it time and please hang in there. If reading my success story can help you, here it is. You take good care & God bless you.
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...w-i-recovered-from-tinnitus-hyperacusis.3148/
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