Feel So Alone I'm About to Cry

[JayRock857]

Hello Two weeks ago I was listening to music not aware of the pain and suffering I was about to endure. I became very ill with minor case of Diarrhea. I thought of it as just a case of upset stomach. Then I noticed a ringing in my ear. That ringing now is causing me to be physically sick and now I really am feeling so alone and scared. I have my mom and dad with me and two younger sisters here at home now. I told them about this and they know that this is bothering me but I still feel so hopeless. I was recently hospitalized because of this and released. I live in Boston and now Im on this forum writing about this and I cant believe how many people suffer from this terrible condition. This tuesday I made an appointment with a specialist Im trying to hang on till then. I just feel so terrible right now as im writing this Ima step away to get a drink of water

 

[glynis]

Welcome to Tinnitus Talk.
We are here for you around the clock so only a click away.
I hope the hospital helped you and put a plan in place for you and phone support.
It sounds like a infection caused it and in time your tinnitus could go away as time is a great healer .
It's hard when tinnitus invades our life and feels like our life is turned upside down but with help and support and sound therapy and specialist support we start to rebuild our life and the more we understand about tinnitus and spikes and how we react to it we get to understand our own tinnitus journey through the ups and downs.
Keep posting for support and come on here with your family so we can help support you together.
.....lots of love glynis x

 

[JayRock857]

Yea I believe an infection caused it I really hope it goes away in time ty for your post I really appreciate it I just feel so hopeless and scared please anyone who's reading keep posting I'm reading all other posts as well

 

[OnceUponaTime]

@JayRock857 I am glad you found this forum. There is a lot of information here and lots of support and lots of love from other members. It would be a good idea if you can show this forum to your parents and if they can read through it with you. This way they can have a better idea on how they can help you.

Give it some time, your body needs to heal. Are you sleeping at night?? How long have you had the ringing?? And please stay away from loud music/noise. Try to relax and keep yourself busy doing what you enjoy... Did you go see a doctor yet?? I'll pray for you and hope you feel better soon.

 

[billie48]

Welcome to the forum. You have received excellent advise from Glynis. I will add the following.

When tinnitus is new or at a new irritating level, it can cause much anxiety and panic. This can cause the fight or flight response and you will be reacting to things with the limbic nervous system instead of the usual parasmpathetic system. So it is advisable to get masking going so you won't be so anxious and fearful. Stress and anxiety are toxic to T. So try masking if you haven't done so. I used to mask all day just to prevent panic attacks from hearing my ultra high pitch loud dog whistle T. Try these if you haven't yet:

1) Mask at bed time so you can sleep better. Find whatever sounds/music that are soothing to you. You can use a sound machine or sound pillow for this, or a computer with speakers.

2) If you need masking on the go, try load an ipod with nature sounds or music using itune. If you have a smart phone, you can download free APPs for soothing or T-masking sounds.

3) If you have computer and speakers, you can try these excellent masking sounds too:

TT's audio player: https://www.tinnitustalk.com/audioplayer/

or this online sound library, particularly the self-mix nature sounds: http://mynoise.net/

or download free sound generator 'aire freshener': http://www.peterhirschberg.com/mysoftware.html

or search youtube with words like 'tinnitus masking sounds', 'white noise', 'rain sound' etc.

Also, try to read the success stories as many as you can. There you will learn some insights how to get better. If your T is from an infection, then it is probable that when the infection is over your T will fade. Even if it doesn't fade right away, you can learn some insights from others how to habituate to T. People do get better, even those with severe T at the beginning. A few years ago, I had both my ultra high pitch T and then severe hyperacusis. I was so fearful and panicking all day. Life was hard and I was in a mental and physical mess. I thought my good life would be over. But today I live a normal, productive and absolutely enjoyable life. I am not alone. Many members do get better. So read their stories to help you find comfort and hope. Here is my story. Check it out if you have time. God bless.

https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...w-i-recovered-from-tinnitus-hyperacusis.3148/

 

[JayRock857]

Ty so much for all the love and support I really appreciate it keep em coming love u all

 

[MikeL1972]

Hi Jay,

I know it is difficult, but you need to try to keep a positive outlook. Also, try not to focus all of your attention on the ringing. Do stuff you enjoy, be social, and enjoy life. However, keep away from any and all loud noises. Your body is adjusting and is healing. It takes time.

 

[MikeP505]

Ty so much for all the love and support

Welcome to the forum. Happy you discovered this very valuable source of information and support. We are all rooting for you and hope in time this will all be just a memory. I have never seen so many helpful people in my life as I do on Tinnitus Talk. They can help to guide you thru all your struggles and questions.

Get better Jay. Protect your hearing now. You have the warning signs and you need to heed to them. Keep us all posted my friend!!

Much Love!

Mike