Feels Like the End

[missingsilence]

Sorry to post again, it seems like every month or two I create a new thread. It's almost been 5 months since my acoustic trauma, I won't go into details as I tend to go on forever.

Things are getting worse, my tinnitus hasn't calmed down one bit and instead is spiking every now and then. It's intrusive but the shower still masks it. My ears feel somewhat muffled and full.

What's worse is that I feel more and more dizzy and unbalanced. I try to let go of the tinnitus but I feel different as a whole. I cannot even walk anymore without feeling dizzy and the fullness in my ears drives me crazy.

I'm scared that it won't get better, I've seen several specialists and it seems it's the end of the road. I don't want die, I miss myself, but I feel like there's not much left.

 

[butterfly75]

I think I know what you mean. This is a really horrible situation to be in. None of us chose it. I don't want to die either but I also feel like there are no other ways out sometimes. But things can get easier for you. It's hardest when we first realize we've developed tinnitus, or after it suddenly gets louder. After a while, it gets easier to cope with and the panicked feeling subsides. Right now, it seems like there's no hope and the future seems filled with darkness. Remember none of this is your fault. We can't change the past or control what happened but we can try to find ways to cope with this debilitating condition. It's hard to imagine the entire future ahead of us and we tend to catastrophize and anticipate further pain and heartache. But the future can be hopeful.

I also miss myself. I wish I could have my old life back often. It may seem impossible at first but little by little you'll find things you enjoy again and these little happy moments will outshine the darkness. I think you mentioned in another post that you didn't want to take medication, but have you considered seeing a therapist? In my experience it really helps to find a therapist who has tinnitus themselves, or specializes in chronic pain/illness.

 

[missingsilence]

I think I know what you mean. This is a really horrible situation to be in. None of us chose it. I don't want to die either but I also feel like there are no other ways out sometimes. But things can get easier for you. It's hardest when we first realize we've developed tinnitus, or after it suddenly gets louder. After a while, it gets easier to cope with and the panicked feeling subsides. Right now, it seems like there's no hope and the future seems filled with darkness. Remember none of this is your fault. We can't change the past or control what happened but we can try to find ways to cope with this debilitating condition. It's hard to imagine the entire future ahead of us and we tend to catastrophize and anticipate further pain and heartache. But the future can be hopeful.

I also miss myself. I wish I could have my old life back often. It may seem impossible at first but little by little you'll find things you enjoy again and these little happy moments will outshine the darkness. I think you mentioned in another post that you didn't want to take medication, but have you considered seeing a therapist? In my experience it really helps to find a therapist who has tinnitus themselves, or specializes in chronic pain/illness.

Thank you for the reply @butterfly75 . What really makes me sad is that its getting worse, I don't remember feeling dizzy at the beginning. I tried to stay optimistic but it seems to be getting worse and I feel very guilty for this, as I was at a house party, felt uncomfortable and didn't leave. Of course nothing happened to anyone else.

I have not tried antidepressants, however I was prescribed Calcium-Channel Blockers and I am unsure if to take them (they could be mildly ototoxic) and from the little information I was able to find it seems it won't help my tinnitus. I have started seeing a psychologist who specializes in cases of hearing loss and tinnitus. I've only had a session so far but I plan to keep going.

It really hurts as it's not just the tinnitus that is intrusive. I also have ear fullness, muffled hearing, dizziness, visual snow and to top it off restless legs (although that could be from stress, I don't know). It feels like everything is crashing down. I had to come back home to my parents, I don't have any friends here and my old friends don't understand the extent of this or have stopped contacting me. I don't want to be a pain in the butt so I try to avoid bringing this up anyways.

I am at a loss as to what to do. Never in my life have I tried so many different supplements and until my permanent increase in T, I had never thought I would rather not be alive, until now.


How is your T? How do you cope with it? Have you experienced any other side effects of acoustic trauma?

 

[butterfly75]

Thank you for the reply @butterfly75 . What really makes me sad is that its getting worse, I don't remember feeling dizzy at the beginning. I tried to stay optimistic but it seems to be getting worse and I feel very guilty for this, as I was at a house party, felt uncomfortable and didn't leave. Of course nothing happened to anyone else.

I have not tried antidepressants, however I was prescribed Calcium-Channel Blockers and I am unsure if to take them (they could be mildly ototoxic) and from the little information I was able to find it seems it won't help my tinnitus. I have started seeing a psychologist who specializes in cases of hearing loss and tinnitus. I've only had a session so far but I plan to keep going.

It really hurts as it's not just the tinnitus that is intrusive. I also have ear fullness, muffled hearing, dizziness, visual snow and to top it off restless legs (although that could be from stress, I don't know). It feels like everything is crashing down. I had to come back home to my parents, I don't have any friends here and my old friends don't understand the extent of this or have stopped contacting me. I don't want to be a pain in the butt so I try to avoid bringing this up anyways.

I am at a loss as to what to do. Never in my life have I tried so many different supplements and until my permanent increase in T, I had never thought I would rather not be alive, until now.


How is your T? How do you cope with it? Have you experienced any other side effects of acoustic trauma?

What's the name of the calcium channel blockers? I was prescribed Inderal for anxiety (beta blockers) and experienced no problems.

 

[butterfly75]

Thank you for the reply @butterfly75 . What really makes me sad is that its getting worse, I don't remember feeling dizzy at the beginning. I tried to stay optimistic but it seems to be getting worse and I feel very guilty for this, as I was at a house party, felt uncomfortable and didn't leave. Of course nothing happened to anyone else.

I have not tried antidepressants, however I was prescribed Calcium-Channel Blockers and I am unsure if to take them (they could be mildly ototoxic) and from the little information I was able to find it seems it won't help my tinnitus. I have started seeing a psychologist who specializes in cases of hearing loss and tinnitus. I've only had a session so far but I plan to keep going.

It really hurts as it's not just the tinnitus that is intrusive. I also have ear fullness, muffled hearing, dizziness, visual snow and to top it off restless legs (although that could be from stress, I don't know). It feels like everything is crashing down. I had to come back home to my parents, I don't have any friends here and my old friends don't understand the extent of this or have stopped contacting me. I don't want to be a pain in the butt so I try to avoid bringing this up anyways.

I am at a loss as to what to do. Never in my life have I tried so many different supplements and until my permanent increase in T, I had never thought I would rather not be alive, until now.


How is your T? How do you cope with it? Have you experienced any other side effects of acoustic trauma?

I don't cope that well. But that's probably because I already had lots of problems with anxiety and panic attacks before. Tinnitus caused my anxiety to get a lot stronger. I also have visual snow, but I've always had that so it hasn't really bothered me. I think I was just born with it. The dizziness/muffled hearing/ear fullness sound like they could all be temporary. They sound like things that can get better over time. Although I understand it's very difficult to deal with tinnitus when you're experiencing all those at the same time

 

[Kolisar]

Hi @missingsilence .

Sorry to post again, it seems like every month or two I create a new thread. It's almost been 5 months since my acoustic trauma, I won't go into details as I tend to go on forever.

You do not have to apologize. This forum is here for its members to ask for, receive, and give help. You can't ask for or receive help from this forum if you don't post.

Things are getting worse, my tinnitus hasn't calmed down one bit and instead is spiking every now and then. It's intrusive but the shower still masks it. My ears feel somewhat muffled and full.

I am sorry to hear that. For what it is worth, you are still relatively new to tinnitus (I know it seems like an eternity since your acoustic trauma, and the tinnitus can make every second feel like a week). Its takes time.

If you have not see this yet, @Bill Bauer writ the following article/post
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/spontaneous-recovery-stats-over-70-recover-3-studies.21441/
which describes studies that show a high recovery rate from tinnitus. I would highly recommend reading it and the study it references.

I don't want die, I miss myself, but I feel like there's not much left.

You are still in there. The tinnitus is just, temporarily, drowning you out. It, at this point, can yell louder than you can so you feel like you are lost in the din of tinnitus. You will be heard! You can beat this. It will be difficult, but you have made it through five months, you can keep going. And, we will be here to help (but I think you know that already).

Hang in there, it will get better. And, thank you for keeping us updated, and please keep posting, we want to hear from you and know how you are doing.

 

[missingsilence]

What's the name of the calcium channel blockers? I was prescribed Inderal for anxiety (beta blockers) and experienced no problems.

It's called Flunarizine 10mg, a calcium antagonist.

 

[missingsilence]

Thank you for the replies,

Does anyone experience chronic ETD or stuffed nose? I have had it for almost as long as I can remember have my increase in T. I have tried Steriod sprays that don't help and I recently have been taking a new spray for 5 days which helped temporarily but I cannot continue taking it long term.

 

[JasonP]

Sorry to post again, it seems like every month or two I create a new thread. It's almost been 5 months since my acoustic trauma, I won't go into details as I tend to go on forever.

Things are getting worse, my tinnitus hasn't calmed down one bit and instead is spiking every now and then. It's intrusive but the shower still masks it. My ears feel somewhat muffled and full.

What's worse is that I feel more and more dizzy and unbalanced. I try to let go of the tinnitus but I feel different as a whole. I cannot even walk anymore without feeling dizzy and the fullness in my ears drives me crazy.

I'm scared that it won't get better, I've seen several specialists and it seems it's the end of the road. I don't want die, I miss myself, but I feel like there's not much left.

Have you tried meclizine? It's an over the counter drug. I don't know if it will help or not but I figured I would ask.

 

[missingsilence]

Thanks @JasonP , I have not tried meclizine, but I'll look into it. I have a flight coming up soon so I'll be packing nasal spray and earplugs. My right ear feels so different after my trauma and the more time passes the more I start noticing annoying differences.

 

[JasonP]

Thanks @JasonP , I have not tried meclizine, but I'll look into it. I have a flight coming up soon so I'll be packing nasal spray and earplugs. My right ear feels so different after my trauma and the more time passes the more I start noticing annoying differences.

You are welcome. Here is a thread that talks about it: https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/meclizine-postafen-bonine-helped-a-guy-to-cure-tinnitus.1255/

 

[Bobbie7]

I'm scared that it won't get better, I've seen several specialists and it seems it's the end of the road. I don't want die, I miss myself, but I feel like there's not much left.

Dear @missingsilence - I am very sorry to hear of your difficulties. You mention you have not tried an antidepressant and perhaps now is the time you should consider taking one. Of course you do not wish to die, it is only your depression and despair which is making you say this. There will come a time in the future when you will look back upon this and know you have overcome it. May I ask what all these specialists have told you thus far @missingsilence? You mention you felt dizzy and unbalanced so I am wondering if the possibility of Meniere's disease was investigated.

You are extremely distraught at present and suffering great anxiety so it would seem wise for you to consult your psychiatrist (if you have one at this time) and ask if an anti-anxiety medication could be given and an antidepressant would seem appropriate for you at this time as well. It seems like all this stress may be a large contributing factor to the additional symptoms you are experiencing which further adds to your tinnitus. As we all are aware, mighty stress can exacerbate any condition and I wish you could remain as calm as possible to try to reduce the intense level you are experiencing.

Sadly though and unfortunately, I think it is difficult for people to even imagine what a tinnitus sufferer experiences unless they themselves have such a condition. As for friends.... those who are valued and trusted friends will want to extend themselves to try to understand your discomfort and all you are feeling. You say they do not understand and have stopped contacting you; in this case you have learned they are not true friends and really... you are better off without these people so I would not feel too badly about this if I were you. In times of adversity we learn the true character of people and whether they are worth associating with.

As for living with your parents, there is no shame in this but rather be grateful that you have caring parents with whom you can stay. In times of need, parents will do most anything to help their children no matter their age.

@missingsilence .... Please do not lose hope and speak of suicide. You have to fight against such thoughts and try to lessen your stress as much as possible and be strong. You will get through this difficult period and I trust will find some solution. I do wish though you would not rule out antidepressants and anti-anxiety medications for they will help ease your severe stress.

I hope you have read the accounts of the many members who have gone on to live successfully with tinnitus and have learned to habituate... even when they had the most severe cases of intrusive tinnitus. Please refer to the posts written by such members as @glynis and @billie48 and @Michael Leigh and the many others featured in the "Success Stories" thread.

You have not had tinnitus for a very long time so, hopefully, it will lessen in time but you do need patience.

Sorry to post again, it seems like every month or two I create a new thread. It's almost been 5 months since my acoustic trauma, I won't go into details as I tend to go on forever.

Feel free to write whatever you please and no matter how lengthy it is.. do not worry. It is therapeutic to "vent" and to be able to express yourself to those who truly understand your plight is a gift.

You do have people in this forum who care and you are not alone. Take good care of yourself.

Sending my positive thoughts to you,

Barbara

 

[Kolisar]

Hi @missingsilence , @Bobbie7 is exactly correct in her comments and recommendations. And, I can attest to what she said based on my own personal, experience. Medication can help with depression and anxiety, a number of years ago I was taking medications for those (and other) issues, and I was helped tremendously by them.

She is correct in that it is difficult for most people who have not experienced tinnitus to understand how debilitating it is, or to understand the emotional and psychological trauma it can cause.

Please do not lose hope and speak of suicide. You have to fight against such thoughts and try to lessen your stress as much as possible and be strong. You will get through this difficult period and I trust will find some solution

I cannot agree with her more on this one. Please, please, please of not lose hope or even consider suicide. I understand the level of despair you are experiencing and feeling that you do not want to live (I have attempted to end my life before), but having made it through that I realized that ending my life would have caused so much more damage than what I attempted to do to myself. You have a loving family who care about you and would be devastated if you were to harm yourself.

Please, reach out to us when you need help. We will always be here and will always help. We understand what you are going through, we have been there, and we can help get you through it.

You will make it through this, and it will get better.

Hang in there.

 

[butterfly75]

Feel free to write whatever you please and no matter how lengthy it is.. do not worry. It is therapeutic to "vent" and to be able to express yourself to those who truly understand your plight is a gift.

Barbara

@Bobbie7 It's truly kind of you to offer to give so many people on this forum a chance to vent. It's very helpful to be able to express your feelings and have someone who wants to listen and cares. Sometimes it's even better just to listen, as you've been doing, without offering advice and just let the other person know you understand what they're going through and care, and that's very kind of you.

 

[Bobbie7]

Thank you @butterfly75 for your nice post which I appreciated.

Before the advent of the internet (I am 72 years old) I had no one with whom I could speak openly about the bouts of depression throughout my life and on two occasions when I had suicidal ideation which plagued me. Unlike present times when people feel they are able to disclose their mental illnesses (it seems actors lead the way.. making it a "sexy" subject so to speak) many years ago it was a verboten subject.... something to be ashamed of and certainly not spoken about. When I was in my 20's, depressed and working it took all of my mental and emotional energy to "pretend" that nothing was wrong. Seeing a psychiatrist was not a favorable option at that point and I felt like a fraud because, in truth, I was suffering inside but could not tell anyone. My parents didn't understand either. I did not have tinnitus back then but my point is .... what was lacking at that time was a venue in which I could freely express what I was experiencing and have an exchange with others who would understand and be empathetic. I'm sure I would have benefitted greatly had this existed at the time and it would have lessened suffering. (No internet back then though) Having this present forum where there are no judgments - only understanding and compassion - is truly a freeing experience for those who are suffering from coexisting tinnitus and depression and various other issues.

People on this forum who are suffering must, no doubt, feel solace knowing that knowledgeable individuals who have years of experience dealing with tinnitus will lend their caring ears and open hearts to them. I am very grateful to have found this wonderful forum a short while ago, to feel comfortable relating whatever I feel and I sincerely appreciate those members willing to help everyone.

Take care @butterfly75 and be well.

Barbara

P.S. Please accept my apology @missingsilence for rambling on in your thread. I hope you feel better and keep us posted.

 

[Michael Leigh]

Before the advent of the internet (I am 72 years old) I had no one with whom I could speak openly about the bouts of depression throughout my life and on two occasions when I had suicidal ideation which plagued me. Unlike present times when people feel they are able to disclose their mental illnesses (it seems actors lead the way.. making it a "sexy" subject so to speak) many years ago it was a verboten subject.... something to be ashamed of and certainly not spoken about. When I was in my 20's, depressed and working it took all of my mental and emotional energy to "pretend"

Beautifully said @Bobbie7 and unfortunately so true. I am a little behind you in age at 57 but remember growing up, if anyone dared to mention that forbidden word "depressed", immediately you were a candidate for the funny farm or nut house as they were called by some. Please excuse the poor choice of words. I want to convey to readers what it was like then and the attitude that many people had towards mental illness. It had a deep stigma attached to it that may still be present in some circles today although to a lesser degree. Back in the day, if one were feeling down or a little sad (never depressed) it was a part of life. The sage advice given would be: dust yourself down, pull yourself together and get on with it. Fortunately there is more understanding and help shown towards people troubled with mental illness, which covers a broad spectrum of conditions and thankfully, no longer has so much ignorance and ridicule attached to it.

@missingsilence. I want to offer you some advice and hope that you don't mind. Please go back to your GP and asked to be referred to ENT for more tests. The dizziness, balance problems, fullness in your ears and muffled hearing, that you are experiencing needs to be investigated in my opinion. They are not typical symptoms associated with noise induced tinnitus and could indicate another problem within your auditory system. Please don't suffer in silence. If your GP suggests taking an antidepressant then I advise you to consider it, as tinnitus isn't easy to cope with when severe.

Hope you start to feel better soon.
All the best

Michael

 

[Bobbie7]

How are you feeling today @missingsilence ? I hope somehow you are feeling more hopeful and optimistic.

 

[missingsilence]

@Bobbie7 @Kolisar @Michael Leigh
Thank you all for your kind words and support, it really means a lot to me.

Today I flew to the city where I went to high school. I hadn't been there since before my tinnitus permanently spiked. It was initially a tiring day as I hadn't slept much before my flight. When I arrived I felt a mix of overwhelming joy and sadness. My tinnitus and muffled ears made me sad as this is a city I very much cherish and grew up in. My senses being off made me sad to experience it differently, especially considering I had the best times of my life here. The joy of being here and meeting up with an old friend has largely overpowered the sadness. I still have all the same symptoms and it's frustrating me as I prepare to go to sleep, but I haven't felt such joy in weeks. It's bittersweet for many reasons, not all relating to the monster in my head, but so far the trip was well worth the hassle. It reminds me of my old self, my old life. My current state makes me sad, I hope I will still see some kind of improvement in the future, despite being 5 months in. My T spike/increase 5month anniversary is tomorrow.

Thank you again Barbara, Kolisar, Michael and everyone else for taking the time to help, I appreciate it. All in all, I hope this trip continues to be good. When I get back home in a few days I will go see my psychologist again, and when I see my ENT again I will ask if we can run some kind of additional tests. I have already had multiple audiogram, otoacoustic emissions test, a tympanometry test, and an MRI. According to the doctor "everything looks fairly normal" although I had a dip in my audiogram and a few dead frequencies on my otoacoustic emissions test.

 

[Bobbie7]

Hi again @missingsilence -

I think it was a good idea that you decided to take a trip and get away for a little while. I'm sure you must have enjoyed visiting with your old friend again and hopefully, if you explained your situation, he was understanding although I know you mentioned many of your friends had not been. A change of scenery can serve to renew a person and this can be the beginning of a new outlook. I find when I am feeling down, even a little local trip for amusement can serve to brighten and lift me. I can appreciate you're saying it was bittersweet but it serves no constructive purpose to be backward-looking and focus on the past. To look back upon happier times with a comparison to present-day may prolong unhappiness, create added stress and negate developing a positive attitude which contributes to healing and the habituation process. If we dwell on the past, what good purpose does it serve? Better to concentrate on the future @missingsilence for you are young and have your entire life ahead of you and with that the promise of all good things to come.

I see you are trying to cope as much as possible and it's good that you plan to see your psychologist soon and also your ENT. It is very positive that all the tests which you have taken so far have proved there is nothing seriously wrong and for this fact I am sure you are grateful. Since you are being medically checked out, the troubling symptoms you are experiencing might be attributable to your severe stress.

I hope when you arrive home after your visit, your outlook will have improved and you will be far more optimistic. It seems like you are enjoying your stay there so far and you have a few more days before your return.

Please keep us posted. Take care and be well.

Barbara

 

[missingsilence]

Back from my trip. Unfortunately I've been sick, had a fever but it (the fever) seems to be going down. As for everything ear related things aren't going too well. I feel like I'm dizzier than ever. I somehow hope this gets better over time but with each month that passes it somehow gets worse.

On the upside I'm not in tears so I guess I've been coping/accepting the fact that I'm screwed at the moment. I'm so eager to go back to living life already.

 

[Bobbie7]

@missingsilence - Sorry to hear you were ill but glad to hear your fever has subsided. You had mentioned you were planning to see both your ENT and therapist soon so this may be of some help to you... I hope so. I trust your trip was somewhat uplifting and it seems you are not as sad as you were. Of course, I realize your plight is a difficult one but you have to remain strong. At least all your tests, thus far, indicate you have no major physical problems so this is something to be grateful for.

Take care and be well.

Barbara

 

[missingsilence]

I will be going to my hearing specialist soon and scheduling an appointment with my psychologist. I will try to stay positive but I don't see a way out of this or an improvement.

 

[threefirefour]

I will be going to my hearing specialist soon and scheduling an appointment with my psychologist. I will try to stay positive but I don't see a way out of this or an improvement.

You said your ears feel muffled or full. That's interesting because there are things besides earwax that could cause that. Here are the two main candidates imo:

1) ETD. Your Eustachian tubes are clogged. It's allergy season so that makes sense. Try using a Nettie pot. It did wonders for me.

2) muscle problems. I've heard something about this, where there's tense neck muscles that make your ears feel full and give you tinnitus. Try investing in a neck massage.

I hope these suggestions can help you.

 

[Bobbie7]

Unfortunately, throughout this Life there will be certain situations where acceptance will be the only option after we have exhausted all constructive and healthy attempts to resolve or eliminate the difficulty. Habituation to tinnitus is, in itself, a kind of solution as I see it. We can rage all we want but at the end of the day... we each have to summon up all our inner strength and mightiness of will to overcome and survive no matter what the challenge. As Benjamin Disraeli once put it "Life is too short to be little" so why not do the best we can.

The signpost up ahead may well read "Many good things await you in Your future".

 

[fishbone]

Unfortunately, throughout this Life there will be certain situations where acceptance will be the only option after we have exhausted all constructive and healthy attempts to resolve or eliminate the difficulty. Habituation to tinnitus is, in itself, a kind of solution as I see it. We can rage all we want but at the end of the day... we each have to summon up all our inner strength and mightiness of will to overcome and survive no matter what the challenge. As Benjamin Disraeli once put it "Life is too short to be little" so why not do the best we can.

The signpost up ahead may well read "Many good things await you in Your future".

Beautiful! I couldn't have put it any better

 

[missingsilence]

Thank you for the support, I'm trying to keep it together. I hope I'll know something more tomorrow after I see a doctor again, but I hope this is not how its going to be forever. I am in a constant state of dizziness, frequently coupled with light nausea and one of my ears feels very dull. I try to live a normal life and I have brief moments when I can even deal with the tinnitus. Except this is more of a "package deal" in the sense that everything put together makes me miserable. It's gotten worse since onset. I've been initially treating this like a disease, where you wait and over time you feel better. I'm approaching half a year now, yet it feels like it was yesterday as nothing meaningful has happened in my life since things took a turn for the worse.

So the little hope I have left is very much geared to an actual physical improvement, as it is difficult for me to cope with all of these symptoms when they have made my life very much worse.

 

[missingsilence]

Got back from the doc, and I'm as dizzy as before, T is still loud and I don't see how I'll get out of this. But I feel better in some way, I'm not alone, this doctor was more understanding of my symptoms and is looking into other possibilities (my jaw is not perfect apparently) and things that could be worsening my symptoms. He wasn't condescending nor did he give up and send me to a psychologist. Personally I still don't have much hope for things getting better at the moment, I simply don't see it. But he has not given up on me immediately and that feels better.

While I am by no means ruling out the importance of seeking psychological help, I feel it is not the most important thing. I am not depressed due to some childhood issues or unknown reasons, I'm in this situation I'm in because I have intrusive tinnitus and dizziness along with other unpleasant symptoms. I plan to try whatever I can to solve the root cause. I'm not too optimistic, but I will try anyways, I have nothing else left to try. I am almost sure that if my symptoms diminish I will be able to go back to a semi-normal life.

I will be trying a treatment to rule out a couple things soon and there is a little bit of hope within me that maybe I will finally see some sort of positive result, anything positive would be welcome. Until then I will try to hang in there with this mess of symptoms. If you had asked me a year ago, where do you see yourself at the end of this year, there is no way I could have predicted this.

 

[fishbone]

Got back from the doc, and I'm as dizzy as before, T is still loud and I don't see how I'll get out of this. But I feel better in some way, I'm not alone, this doctor was more understanding of my symptoms and is looking into other possibilities (my jaw is not perfect apparently) and things that could be worsening my symptoms. He wasn't condescending nor did he give up and send me to a psychologist. Personally I still don't have much hope for things getting better at the moment, I simply don't see it. But he has not given up on me immediately and that feels better.

While I am by no means ruling out the importance of seeking psychological help, I feel it is not the most important thing. I am not depressed due to some childhood issues or unknown reasons, I'm in this situation I'm in because I have intrusive tinnitus and dizziness along with other unpleasant symptoms. I plan to try whatever I can to solve the root cause. I'm not too optimistic, but I will try anyways, I have nothing else left to try. I am almost sure that if my symptoms diminish I will be able to go back to a semi-normal life.

I will be trying a treatment to rule out a couple things soon and there is a little bit of hope within me that maybe I will finally see some sort of positive result, anything positive would be welcome. Until then I will try to hang in there with this mess of symptoms. If you had asked me a year ago, where do you see yourself at the end of this year, there is no way I could have predicted this.

There should be some kind of reason, as to why you are getting dizzy. Have you done something , that you usually don't do or taken some kind of med/supplement that you recently just started taking? I hope you feel better and I totally understand what you are going though. I had a very bad/horrible headache for close to 4-5 months and it was the side effect of the supplement, I was taking.

I was pretty much, in the same situation you are currently in. I was wondering why this was happening and eventually I started feeling better... It is painful and I remember that issue, just like it was yesterday. No one believed, what I was going through. Please remain strong, I had to. Talk to someone that you care about or cares about you.

You are never alone and we are here for you

 

[Raphael7713]

As soon as you identify what is causing the dizziness and all this you'll be fine. It could be one of many things. Maybe some allergic reaction, or some distortion of the ear....or anything really. Keep on fighting!

 

[missingsilence]

Thanks @fishbone @Raphael7713 for the support. I have taken a break from supplements since almost two weeks, they weren't really helping after 5 months and I was a bit worried I was overloading myself. I will try to keep busy and stick to my new treatments that are currently targeting allergies to see if my nose and Eustachian tubes clear up.