Hello
@Furetto,
I'm glad to hear that you're feeling much better and that you're about to write another success story!
I've had several really good days in a row, even a solid week, following my setback about a week ago. During that time, the tinnitus bothered me less, and I was able to block it out during daytime activities occasionally. I haven't needed masking for days, almost weeks—just some subtle sound enrichment playing in the background now and then. I was able to meditate without masking and actually enjoy it! I could read without masking and enjoy it! For the first time since I started suffering, I sat with my psychotherapist without having to play crickets, and it went smoothly! I felt so enthusiastic and thought, "Now it's really going uphill; habituation has kicked in or picked up speed!"
After even managing to sleep fully and coherently last night—a first in half a year—I thought today could be another good day. Unfortunately, it wasn't. I had another setback, which usually drags me back into a dark place filled with negative thoughts and feelings. Today, for the first time in almost two weeks, I needed masking all day just to keep from freaking out on the spot. It's incredibly frustrating that after seven months, this still brings me down so quickly. I'm immediately distressed instead of just annoyed and able to get through the day and function.