Tell me about it. A few years back when my ultra high pitch T and severe H hit, gloomy thoughts of the future was sure hell, because they triggered bad anxiety & panic attacks on auto mode. These thoughts when fueled with cognitive distortions were just nightmares. Meds were the only weapons to stop the panic attacks. No amount of will power could stop them. Then slowly, by reading up (especially from The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle), I realized I wasn't living the present. I often let the future which is not yet a reality to dictate my present moment. I couldn't do anything about the future because it is not here yet for me to have some sense of control. Only the PRESENT, the very moment in front of me, I can do something to change its quality. So instead of sitting in bed suffering, monitoring T constantly and worrying about the future, I decided to take action to change the present moment. I would dare my T & H to go out to do what I used to enjoy (with ear plugs or partial masking if needed). I would reclaim my life back, fishing, gardening, spending time with family, camping etc. These kept me busy and occupied instead of worrying about the future. After a year of two of doing that, life was back to normal and I have changed my approach, from worrying about the future to living and enjoying the moment with positivity. Freedom at last, from both T & meds. T can go to hell while I live my earthly heaven.