If you don't mind me asking, what changes have you seen with your reactivity? For instance, mine reacts to fans, driving in a car, wind, etc. Are you at a point now where some noises used to cause reactivity, but don't anymore? Or is it that the reactivity in general is less frequent, but you still get it just as bad from time to time. Or would you say your reactivity has only improved with the pink noise you use for sound therapy, but still reacts to everything else the same?
Glad to hear I could be of some inspiration for you. How long have you been consistent with sound therapy, and for how long have you had reactive tinnitus?
For me, I've had sound sensitivity and reactive tinnitus, which to me is a subset of sound sensitivity, for soon to be 3 years. I've been going, and still going, to counselling for around 25 sessions during this time.
The most important for me personally was to, first of all, accept the things I cannot change. This took quite some time, but it is an essential part of moving on and not putting life completely on hold. I haven't done any sound therapy (such as traditional TRT or the likes) program per se, but sound enrichment. Took me a long time to get comfortable with that, and a lot of spikes and setbacks along the road...
I also use hearing aid around 4 hours each evening/night. With and without sound therapy (brown or pink noise) on. Depends what I do.
Things do happen in life that we don't foresee, and that challenges us in some many ways. Sound sensitivity (hyperacusis) and reactivity can be extremely tough to live with and to balance everyday life with. A/C, PC fans, frying, cars, water hitting the sink, heavy water streams, sheets, clothes that make scratching noises, people talking, TV, artificial noises, everything and anything can lead to a cacophony of noises, and tinnitus "riding on top" of every external noise.
I find it difficult to draw a timeline with this, because progression is non-linear to me. But what I can say is that looking back what is a less good day today is comparable to what I considered quite a good day upon onset of this 3 years back. To me that is a great motivation.
Acceptance, counselling, sound enrichment, staying occupied with work and getting out on nature walks and such (even on my hardest days), talking to others about my issues has been key factors in this, still ongoing, process. When I was starting to get more and more better days, I felt like coming back to life again - for real. But with more appreciation and gratitude of everyday life.
On the less good days, I remind myself that this is only today, and I recall that, hey, I was alright just a day or two ago. If not today, there is always tomorrow.
I have days now where sensitivity and reactive tinnitus feels non bothersome. At the times I even think: Wow, I'm back to where I was pre this. I guess it's all a combination of the above factors, time, acceptance and habituation process, and a change of negative response patterns. Time can often be a healer.
On these good days I'm pretty much not bothered by anything, or I do not notice it/have a negative response to it.
BUT, again, nothing is linear with this, and minor, temporary setbacks are real and unavoidable. Less good days are there. We live in a noisy world, and noise is all around us. But I try not to fight it, but of course I need to be cautious - but without limiting myself too much.
"I've survived" two weddings, airplane journeys, 10+ hours car drive, 10-15 birthday parties, dentist appointments, gym workouts, MRIs, hearing tests, balloons popping, fire alarms, etc. etc. during this 3 year time. Yes, I've had numerous spikes and temporary setbacks, but I've still been pre-cautious around sound as good as possible.
I'm not tensing up in the same way as I used to. When you are tense, the ears and brain are more responsive to external noise. Fear of noise makes your ears more vulnerable.
Not a too structured feedback perhaps, but I hope some of this make sense to you.
Feel free to ask me if you have any other questions.