BENZOMOM:
Let me clarify my suggestion for benzo use for hyperacusis. I only used them when I was in a bad setback, to get a bit of relief. But during the time of the setback, I would use them almost everyday. Then when the setback would go naturally away, which sometimes took months, I would no longer use them. Even after use for many months, I never experienced side effects (well... mild grogginess) or withdrawal symptoms. So it was a combination of BOTH intermittent and consistent use. Then I would accumulate a stash for any future setback, and I would have loads of pills, but never used them.
Since about a year I have hardly used them for my ears, but I have been using them practically every 2 days for some bad anxiety which has emerged for the first time in my life, due to many personal traumas. I respect those who wish to avoid all drugs but I WANT my 2-3 little beer cans a day, and 2mg clonazepam every second day. And I will use them.I would probably even take more but my doctor cut me down from 60 .5 mg every 2 weeks to 28, so I have to just bear with the anxiety every second day or drink an additional 2-3 beers to take the edge off. When you are constantly facing the specters of homelessness, being broke, deep loneliness, a mentally ill roommate, a 94 old mother in a nursing home wasting away, a recent breakup with a pretty and hot female friend, and mild suicidal thoughts... all this without any real support from ANYONE here, I am sorry but warnings about withdrawal symptoms, and possible liver damage (my liver is OK) just do NOT cut it! The pills and the booze are my only relief. If I really had someone to talk to, that would help immensely, but there is no one trustworthy around, except perhaps possibly a new friend, but he is away at his country home a lot, to which he has invited me, but I cannot go due to the hyperacusis. So do you get my drift about my situation and attitude?
LIONEL:
I do not remember how many hours a day it takes to do TRT properly, but certainly someone here must know, or contact The Hyperacusis Network. By the way, the latter has a list of TRT practitioners around the world. If there is nobody in Ireland, there are surely in London. But you may not be able to make the trip right now. Give your ears time to rest. BTW, what kind of music did you like to play?
Regarding musicians, and their particular anguish, I suppose, of losing what they love so much, see the Success Stories on the Hyperacusis Network. Lots of musicians share their stories of great recovery to be able to play once again. Some only at a low level, and one composer actually conducted a symphony orchestra he got so much better! Although I am not a musician, I REALLY miss music a lot because I have no really good sound system from which I think I could listen at least for a while. Cheap tinny speakers from smartphones or from this computer`s speakers KILL my ears real quick! Many years ago I used to go to a friend`s place to listen to a lot of jazz, and I miss it (musicians like Pat Metheny, Alice Coltrane, Miles Davis etc.). But this friend died, so no music for now. What a loss!
"Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy"
Ludwig van Beethoven
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