I'm not going to agree or disagree with what you have to say Reinier.
For me it is not so much as agree or disagree. I do not have any medical background.
I just would like to learn and think about the different points of view. Gain knowledge and understanding.
I can understand both hair cell loss and "hidden hearing loss". The latter makes a lot of sense to me. Especially the part of diminished hearing in noisy environments.
Can you explain to me how you are experiencing your hearing issues as of right now?
Emotionally I still am struggling.
No emotional attachment with music at all any more. Now I use music to mask the tinnitus. Elevator music!
Music I used to appreciate, just evoke memories what it used to be like before the incident. Sometimes I get angry and want to kick myself that I still can not accept something that is not going to change. By not accepting I make my life (and life of my family) hell. It is so illogical.
I try to use this "anger energy" to focus on understanding biology/research documents, etc..
Physically: Many of the trade marks of hidden hearing loss apply to my situation.
Also because of my hyperacusis I am still not able to "be around people". People still talk to loud for me and it is exhausting. Talking to one person can often be to much. I don't like to talk myself, because my own voice hinders me. I still do not want to leave home. Even after more than one year after the acoustic trauma. This does not bode well for my future.
This situation is so unimaginable that I stopped explaining it to people that have not had similar experiences. I accept that people can not understand. (And sometimes do not believe this can be an existing condition! "This can't be true.... This is just too weird..... They can't do anything for you?" Etc.... ).
I know many people on this forum do understand.
Sorry for ranting.