It's Me, emmalee

[Michael Leigh]

@Michael Leigh

I want to thank you as well Michael. Your support and encouragement and faith helped me get through the darkest time of my life. I understand you wanting to move on. Your presence will be missed. Please remember that the few on your ignore list, and most likely mine, are not the majority of the opinions here.

Thank you for your kind words @New Guy It has been a pleasure discussing movies with you. You are new to tinnitus and it's likely, you will make steady improvement as I believe you have the right attitude, as others do on this forum.
Please be assured you're not on my "Ignore" list. Those that are know who they are.

I will be watching from the pulpit just to keep abreast of what's going on.
All the best

Michael

 

[Ed209]

@emmalee I see you as a truly wonderful and a warm to heart amazing person.

I was able to finally dismiss my very loud tinnitus from first onset. Many to most will be able to adjust. So I think that your encouragement and thoughtfulness is a blessing.

There are some who post who have severe physical conditions along with tinnitus, but probably most are just visitors/viewers looking for possible treatments. I now have many severe conditions that relate to my tinnitus from whiplash. I try with everything that I have to maybe help a few of those that are struggling with medical conditions as many others here do as well. Some may find it difficult to receive the medical treatment needed.

I probably won't be able to post much longer, but my heart goes out to all those with tinnitus and to those with serious medical conditions on top of tinnitus. I believe that there's no essay that can describe the human condition that one may be going thru per severe medical conditions and emotions. As a former longtime emotional/physical caregiver, body to mind understanding was always a concerning process. Often during discharge, I wondered if they would have true loving support by family either at home, at a family member's home or at a nursing home.

Wishing you the best, you seem to be on the right road.

Greg, you've always provided a great insight on TT, so it's really saddening to see that you're not doing so well. I hope you see better days buddy.

 

[Ed209]

"Listen up folks - We Are The A-Team.
You'd Better Believe It - And Just Like
The U.S Military - We Leave No Wounded
Soldiers On The Battlefield.
We Are All Coming Through Folks,
.......Got It !!"

Dave, you never cease to make me smile. You have an awesome attitude. I bet you've got like a million friends out there in the real world.

 

[Jazzer]

For many years I have collected Western American Art books, and now have a great collection.
Strangely enough, I woke up this morning with these two pictures, by great western artist Charles Shreyvogel, on my mind.
The first portrays a cavalryman saving his buddy,

and the second, very poignant to me, because I would love to have been there to save this little girl.

 

[Jazzer]

Dave, you never cease to make me smile. You have an awesome attitude. I bet you've got like a million friends out there in the real world.

.....er......last time I counted up it was a few short of that Ed if I'm honest, but one thing's for sure,
you can never have too many of those guys, can you..?

 

[Ed209]

.....er......last time I counted up it was a few short of that Ed if I'm honest, but one thing's for sure,
you can never have too many of those guys, can you..?

That reminds me of what's written on the card/book at the end of 'its a wonderful life':

No man is a failure who has friends.

 

[Jazzer]

For many years I have collected Western American Art books, and now have a great collection.
Strangely enough, I woke up this morning with these two pictures, by great western artist Charles Shreyvogel, on my mind.
The first portrays a cavalryman saving his buddy,

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and the second, very poignant to me, because I would love to have been there to save this little girl.

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for @TracyJS

 

[David Dubros]

@emmalee
Hey Emma.
Hoping you are feeling better and enjoying the weather as best you can.
Have been quite busy myself and my T is behaving. I pray yours is not too bad.
I actually had a quiet day yesterday where i took the opportunity to listen to my audio system.
It was nice to use it. It is rare that happens.
I had 3 days of work last week and group on the other 2 days.
Busy and able to distract myself from my usual isolation at home.
Well enuf of me.
It is Victoria day and although its a holiday its a loud one throughout the evening. Hope the fireworks don't bother you at all.
Be well Emma.

 

[emmalee]

I am in a better place this morning. Many, many thanks to those who responded to my post.

I feel a little embarrassed for my out of character behaviour.

@Mystery Reader
You said that you were glad that I vented and perhaps you are correct, we all feel the need to "let it go" during times when we are struggling. I am not going anywhere. Thank-you for making me feel a little better about the whole post.

@Michael Leigh, I will miss you. Thanks again for your advice when I pm'd you the other day. All turned out very well.

 

[emmalee]

@emmalee
Hey Emma.
Hoping you are feeling better and enjoying the weather as best you can.
Have been quite busy myself and my T is behaving. I pray yours is not too bad.
I actually had a quiet day yesterday where i took the opportunity to listen to my audio system.
It was nice to use it. It is rare that happens.
I had 3 days of work last week and group on the other 2 days.
Busy and able to distract myself from my usual isolation at home.
Well enuf of me.
It is Victoria day and although its a holiday its a loud one throughout the evening. Hope the fireworks don't bother you at all.
Be well Emma.

I am well, David. My T has been a bit of a bully the past couple of days but I am not backing down, not at all. The holiday Monday was a quiet one here, I didn't hear so much as one firecracker the whole day and night. I did hear the rain last night, though. I slept very well because of it, as always.

I wish you a truly wonderful day David.

 

[emmalee]

 

[Michael Leigh]

I feel a little embarrassed for my out of character behaviour.

@Michael Leigh, I will miss you. Thanks again for your advice when I pm'd you the other day. All turned out very well.

Thank you @emmalee for your kind words. I have had a change of heart and will carry on visiting this forum as usual. You are new to tinnitus Emmalee and this can stretch a person's resolve to the limit. It takes time but you will habituate or your tinnitus could go away completely in time. It does happen.

All the best
Michel

 

[emmalee]

Not every person is going to understand you and that's okay. They have a right to their opinion and you have every right to ignore it. To try to explain yourself endlessly , will take a toll , so do yourself a favor and free yourself from those that constantly judge you, they have no right, take control of your life and leave them behind.

 

[New Guy]

@emmalee

I was reading an old post once where a member said they cried daily when they first got t. I replied that this is one of the few places a man can admit he cries and not be looked at any differently. I think that's true of all emotions related to t including anger, anxiety, frustration, fear, depression, etc. We all need to vent our emotions and that's a good thing. It assures all of us that we're not alone when we experience these feelings.

 

[emmalee]

@emmalee

I was reading an old post once where a member said they cried daily when they first got t. I replied that this is one of the few places a man can admit he cries and not be looked at any differently. I think that's true of all emotions related to t including anger, anxiety, frustration, fear, depression, etc. We all need to vent our emotions and that's a good thing. It assures all of us that we're not alone when we experience these feelings.

Thank-you for this post, John.You are such an understanding and kind man.

I thought I was doing better today, emotionally speaking, but I clearly am not doing better. It's not just the tinnitus, it's the insensitivity of others. All of us here at TT have a clear, common bond. Why can't there be mutual respect and compassion? It doesn't seem to be a lot to ask.

As I said, I am not in a good place right now.

 

[Starthrower]

All of us here at TT have a clear, common bond. Why can't there be mutual respect and compassion? It doesn't seem to be a lot to ask.

Hi @emmalee. Do you mean the lack of "mutual respect and compassion" on the board? Maybe I missed something?

I guess after being sucked into the darkness back in 2002 when two different support boards were at war. It was the LAST thing I needed at that time. I wish I would have walked away but...I didn't.

I must have grown more....I don't know but I don't get involved in the negative or let it affect me now. I may speak up once in a while when my view is different.

 

[emmalee]

Hi @emmalee. Do you mean the lack of "mutual respect and compassion" on the board? Maybe I missed something?

I guess after being sucked into the darkness back in 2002 when two different support boards were at war. It was the LAST thing I needed at that time. I wish I would have walked away but...I didn't.

I must have grown more....I don't know but I don't get involved in the negative or let it affect me now. I may speak up once in a while when my view is different.

Hi, Starthrower. Not sure what I mean at all sometimes, lol.

My plan is to do as you say and not let myself get involved in any negativity, this is great advice, thank-you. The last couple of days have been a little rough and my emotions are all over the map. Tomorrow will be better.

 

[PortalNaut]

From whatever drama transpired, the developments that some of you poor hard-pressed souls are 'staying' is good news to me. I am a struggling T sufferer, and I need everyone's help. Thank you all.

 

[emmalee]

From whatever drama transpired, the developments that some of you poor hard-pressed souls are 'staying' is good news to me. I am a struggling T sufferer, and I need everyone's help. Thank you all.

Hi, PortalNaut.

We are here for you, no worries.

emma

 

[david c]

A well written post @emmalee

I will be pursuing other things but will look in occasionally just to see what's going on.

Thank you @emmalee I have had a change of heart and will carry on visiting this forum as usual.

Gosh this must be the quickest "Goodbye I am leaving. Hello again, I'm not" in Tinnitus Talk history! Almost certainly it took less time than reading one of M Leigh's "I am the fount of all wisdom about tinnitus" posts - especially when one considers the danger of falling into a deep slumber while doing the latter.

 

[emmalee]

Today is the first day of the rest of my life ~

I am in such a good place today! There is a young woman on this forum who has inspired me and given me more hope than I ever thought was possible. To her I say thank-you!

People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, but they will always remember how you made them feel ~

 

[emmalee]

Gosh this must be the quickest "Goodbye I am leaving. Hello again, I'm not" in Tinnitus Talk history! Almost certainly it took less time than reading one of M Leigh's "I am the fount of all wisdom about tinnitus" posts - especially when one considers the danger of falling into a deep slumber while doing the latter.

Isn't it wonderful news, David? So many of us are happy that he is staying, no one more than me!

Have a wonderful day!

 

[david c]

Isn't it wonderful news, David? So many of us are happy that he is staying, no one more than me!

Have a wonderful day!

Indeed. His posts are always a source of amusement - mostly unintended!

 

[emmalee]

Indeed. His posts are always a source of amusement - mostly unintended!

Oh I see. You are not a fan, sorry, I misread your post.

I understand. When dealing with tinnitus it can lead to so many differing opinions and there are times when we just cannot agree with each other. This is okay, you have a right to your opinion.

I am glad you stopped by. I see that you have had tinnitus since 2012. I am genuinely sorry if my positive attitude rubs you the wrong way. It's just how I cope.

May I ask how you cope?

 

[david c]

I am glad you stopped by. I see that you have had tinnitus since 2012. I am genuinely sorry if my positive attitude rubs you the wrong way. It's just how I cope.

May I ask how you cope?

Nothing wrong at all with having a positive attitude - if you find it helps you that's great.

Yes, I have had tinnitus since 2012 and in answer to your question about how I cope I have generally found time and being careful around noise have been the best help. And knowing that what helps one person won't necessarily help another. That's why I find posts written by people who claim to know everything about tinnitus and have all the answers quite amusing. And in itself that amusement helps me to cope also. All the best, David.

 

[emmalee]

Nothing wrong at all with having a positive attitude - if you find it helps you that's great.

Yes, I have had tinnitus since 2012 and in answer to your question about how I cope I have generally found time and being careful around noise have been the best help. And knowing that what helps one person won't necessarily help another. That's why I find posts written by people who claim to know everything about tinnitus and have all the answers quite amusing. And in itself that amusement helps me to cope also. All the best, David.

Thank-you for understanding, David. I am quite sure that I annoy the heck out of a great many here, I know I can frazzle the last nerve of my closest friends and family members with my "pollyanna" outlook, but they have to like me, lol!

I am hoping beyond hope that time will be my friend, some days even a positive outlook just doesn't help. I have to keep the faith that this will be something that I can live with, in the event that it doesn't go away.

Just yesterday, someone suggested "pink noise" and you know what? It helps. I don't need it for sleeping, thank the stars above, but at times when I become overwhelmed, "noise" helps me to cope. Like you mention, I try to be very careful around noise. I bought some muff style ear protectors for vacuuming, etc.

 

[Michael Leigh]

Gosh this must be the quickest "Goodbye I am leaving. Hello again, I'm not" in Tinnitus Talk history! Almost certainly it took less time than reading one of M Leigh's "I am the fount of all wisdom about tinnitus" posts - especially when one considers the danger of falling into a deep slumber while doing the latter.

Indeed @david c I have decided not to reduce my visits to Tinnitus Talk and never said I was leaving. Hopefully, I will be able to pursue my new interest which also involves tinnitus.

I wish you well.
Michael

 

[Michael Leigh]

especially when one considers the danger of falling into a deep slumber while doing the latter.

My posts here and at other forums have received kind comments but I've never been told, one is in danger of falling into a deep slumber whilst reading them. I will endeavour to do better....

Michael

 

[emmalee]

My posts here and at other forums have received kind comments but I've never been told, one is in danger of falling into a deep slumber whilst reading them. I will endeavour to do better....

Michael

On the other hand, falling into a deep slumber when one has tinnitus may not be a bad thing. We always have to look for the silver lining!

All joking aside, I enjoyed every single one of your articles Michael. They are well written and extremely helpful. No need to try to do better, not at all.

 

[emmalee]