How are you doing? Did you go back to Lenire and did it help if so?
Thanks for the question. The post you are quoting is quite old, from last year. It was the prelude to my insane worsening that lasted 6 months. That period was the worst time of my life, I think. A cacophony of sound flooding my entire brain every single day for 6 months. I'm not doing any keto diets anymore, to put it like that and I'm also not touching any drugs that isn't 100% necessary for my survival.
But about Lenire. I'm going to talk about something here now that I've been extremely reluctant to mention in any way, shape or form. For reasons. Personal reasons. This is all pretty personal to me but I've decided to finally bring it up. I've been using Lenire since 2020. The first year I used it for 1 hour every day, with a small break in the summer to change the mouthpiece. I took a break around Christmas and started it again in March after I got a severe worsening. This coincided somewhat with me going off Olanzapine which I had taken for 2 years and I had also just put on something called Alimemazine, which another user also reported gave him insane setbacks, new sounds, increased loudness etc.
After experimenting and talking with the audiologist from Neuromod on the phone at least 3 times every week for quite some time, I landed on the "sweet spot" for me, 20 minutes. I stopped using Lenire again when the worsening started, because they advised me to do so. We didn't know what the culprit was back then and they said it was unlikely to be Lenire but they wanted to be sure. They told me to wait until it settles down. I started using it again in the fall of 2021. I also started working out in the gym around that time. My crazy worsening also settled around that time. I had e-mail correspondence with the audiologist at this time and I had developed something I would call "trust" with her. This person knows I have autism and I found her advice and friendly demeanour to be very helpful in calming me down, reassuring me and not losing hope. I guess you could say I was becoming a little dependent on her.
Around Christmas time I was completely lost and the tinnitus had started to become extremely bad again on a regular basis despite using Lenire. She would often send me emails every now and then to check on me. On one occasion my nihilism got the better of me and I admitted my suicidal ideation to her. I even said I was going to kill myself on Christmas eve. I was very much at the "what's the point?" here so I didn't see much light in any tunnel. Unfortunately, this caused her to alert someone much higher up in the system and the whole ordeal was handed over to them. Some kind of protocol they have at Neuromod, when the suicide flag goes off they apparently have a system for that. So I got a call from an Irish woman who was very, very concerned about my health. She inquired about this, offered psychiatric assistance through Zoom and so on. That's all fine, but I was caught completely unaware that someone else was going to be addressing this. The fact that my personal email had been handed over to someone else made me feel very uncomfortable. I asked why I wasn't speaking to the audiologist, and I was told that it was because "this wasn't her table". I later asked her directly about this in an e-mail and I got some kind of lame, methodical answer about how they have a protocol for that kind of thing.
I felt betrayed and I wasn't sure if I could trust this person anymore. I lost all interest in corresponding with Neuromod and when I saw that they had actually changed their whole company's profile, name and so on, the betrayal felt even worse. I realize that she was just trying to help me but what we feel individually about stuff like this is our own personal issue and we all have our reasons for feeling that way. I don't think anyone is wrong to feel a certain way about something like this. That's why I've been so reluctant to mention this.
I started using Lenire again in April, 20 minutes every day for 2 months. Today is actually the day I take a break again. So I'm off Lenire now until August 1 and then I'm back on it for another 2 months. If I combine it with more than 3 hours of sleep, it helps. If something is missing from the equation, it does nothing and it can even get a lot worse. But sleeping somewhat well, Lenire helps me long term.
But I don't think I want to talk to them anymore. Not unless I absolutely have to.