@PeteJ...firstly, I am sorry to hear you are suffering.....I first got tinnitus in 2001, noise induced.....I have hearing loss bilateral....left ear slightly worse. .I struggled for first few months, was suicidal, I was so anxious I thought life was over. Tne noise in my head was loud, I also had hyperacusis, and distorted hearing.... I was given an antidepressant I stayed on that for maybe 5 months, then I ceased it....I habituated to the noise, or did it dissappear, I don't know but I can tell you I had silence the majority of the time ...my tinnitus would only be faintly heard if I was sick or took anti antiimflammory medications......however it did come raise it's ugly head ten years later but only in my left ear occassionaly, hormonal i think in my case...... this was annoying and distressing so I was given klonopin, that's what it is called in the usa....it worked, it lessened my anxiety and annoyance to the screeching sound, however, fast forward to feb 2019, I got dependant on this medication hit tolerance on lowest dose .5....and my tinnitus is now deafening in both ears, so in hindsight this medication made things worse for myself.....I know for others this might not happen, but benzo medications can have major consequences for some of us.....infact I felt suicidal from the withdrawal and the increased deafening tinnitus I am now sufferring ......I am still tapering off this drug and I can tell you, it has made my situation worse....there was no tinnitus talk or forums around when I searched for answers, I had a success story with my tinnitus previously and I am holding on, I'm going to fight to get my life back,...I want a success story number 2.... does that mean I will get silence again, maybe not, but I do not want to die, I know you don't either, believe me the thought still enters my mind....how will I cope, there is no cure, well who knows, it could be round the corner, your ears could settle next week, I hang on to hope....I know when your are in deep despair your probably thinking, that habitation, or hearing people telling you that things could improve, don't help, that we don't understand, that it's all bullshit!!! But I DO UNDERSTAND..I doubt anyone on this forum wouldnt!!! but please hold on, you do whatever it takes, but please be mindful that long term benzo use can be problematic, and once you start it is hard to stop....and some of us have no choice in this matter....I respect everyone's choices in dealing with this horrid condition.....I am just trying to let you know, things could improve if you give it time...that's what keeps me going....so please try to give it more time....do not give up, one minute at a time....stay strong, I know you are fighter, like you said your still here....
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