- Mar 7, 2023
- 56
- Tinnitus Since
- 05/2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- TBI? + concerts + naproxen
TL;DR: I had mild tinnitus for years with history of concussion. Tinnitus worsened 10-fold and got pain hyperacusis (stabbing pain, burning pain now sometimes in silence, much worse on the right) after 5-day course of Naproxen for autoimmune issue in January 2023. I get intermittent fullness and TONS of TTTS spasms on the left. I got a morse code tone on the right that seems to have improved. I'm in third year of medical school but will now probably never become a doctor. Terrified of this ruining my relationship (boyfriend of 4 years and I were probably going to be engaged next year). Painfully isolated from everyone in my life. Life has come to a screeching halt and I don't know what I should be doing right now/how to survive the "waiting" period.
Hi everyone. Looking for some support/advice/a listening ear from anyone who is willing. I'm trying to keep my head high but today has just felt like rock bottom for me. Wondering when I will run out of tears.
Finally made an account and now posting after almost 7 years on and off reading of Tinnitus Talk. I've gained so much valuable information here over the years and I think of everyone here frequently.
So I guess to share some of my story (some details may be irrelevant but thought I would include just in case). Since I was pretty young, I've loved EDM music and this was probably the beginning of my downfall. Music was always my escape. I always kept my earbuds at less than 30% but loved blasting it in the car (not sure what my reasoning was there).
When I was a sophomore in college, a drunk girl I was trying to help by taking her home to her dorm smashed my head in a car door and gave me a concussion. Starting 3 days later, I had 24/7 eye pain that turned out to be migraine but wasn't diagnosed or treated for 3 years. Looking back I also felt like I started to think things were louder when I would go to live music events.
Less than a year later, I went to a Zhu show, which I was so pumped about. I have a vague memory that I meant to bring earplugs (would have been the first time wearing them for me) but then forgot them because I was in a rush. It was pretty much in a small basement with concrete walls and immediately was too loud for me. I went with a friend so I didn't want to leave, so I went to the back and just plugged my ears. I don't remember how long we were there, probably not more than a half hour until my friend said we should just leave, but the damage was done. I had the dreaded ringing. Was told by ENT not to worry about it and that it would go away. I saw Dr. Timothy Hain and he did a full work-up, found a small notch on my otoacoustic emissions but it didn't actually correlate with my tinnitus pitch I guess. Great doctor and was sorry there wasn't more he could do for me. Recommended masking and being very careful with loud noise.
I had custom Westone musicians' earplugs made with the highest filter (but not solid) and wore them faithfully in bars, clubs, concerts, festivals etc. although I took off at least 3 months from anything loud. I continued to freak out about the tinnitus for awhile but it slowly faded away until I realized at some point in 2020 or 2021 it was barely there even with foam earplugs in.
In September 2021, I went to an EDM festival with my boyfriend and wore my custom Westones as I always did. Apparently it wasn't enough or the earplugs no longer fit my ear canals properly because I was left with a permanent worsening (although it still wasn't that bad looking back) and mild loudness hyperacusis (but I didn't know the name back then ironically). I became a mental basket case for awhile but managed to keep going to school. ENT gave me intratympanic Dexamethasone in the left ear (worse ear) but then, after I had an audiogram which didn't show any hearing loss, she didn't want to continue. Told me to ask my GP for some Xanax but I managed without. I slept with a fan and it would aggravate me in some situations (taking one of my 9 hour board exams for medical school), but a few months ago I felt like I had mostly made peace with it.
In October 2022, I had a PRP injection into my ankle and was non weight bearing for a week for an old stress fracture that had gone misdiagnosed for ages. I had to hop around my apartment on one foot and use a knee scooter to get to the hospital for my med school rotations. Basically, both ankles soon ended up f'd up with pain all over and nobody could figure out why until they did an MRI and found bone marrow edema all over and eventually rheumatology said the juvenile rheumatoid arthritis I had as a teen had come out of remission. I had been barely able to get around for over a month at this point and was dying for any relief. The rheumatologist recommended an NSAID to start with. I had some awareness that NSAIDs can be bad for your ears but I thought it was only for long periods and I had no idea how severe it could be. I asked about Naproxen since I had used it for 2 weeks every day when I went hiking out west on my bum ankle and had NO changes in my tinnitus. The rheumatologist said he would be good with that so I started on prescription dose (500 mg BID) Naproxen on January 11, 2023. By day 4, I woke up and realized I could hear my tinnitus over my fan. I took one more dose and then stopped. I also got fullness/a muffled feeling in my left ear and tons of TTTS spasms from the tiniest sounds. My normal tinnitus tones were magnified 10x and I got a new morse code tone on the right. I could no longer mask my tinnitus as it would just "ride over" the sound of my fan or other masking noise.
I thought for sure it would improve after stopping the Naproxen, especially since I was on it such a short time. I got on oral Prednisone within a few days, which was rough because the side effects are terrible for me, especially the insomnia and mood stuff. ENT wouldn't do intratympanic Dexamethasone, said it couldn't be the Naproxen, and blamed it on my migraines, even though I told him my migraines have been exceedingly well controlled on meds over the past year. But it continued to get worse and slowly things started to sound too loud again. I was on my family medicine rotation trying to look in a little girl's ear while she was crying and her cry was ear piercing to me. Then I switched to my OB/Gyn rotation and the fetal heart monitors were horrendous and I couldn't stand the sounds of the monitors in the operating room or the crying of the babies. I tried to wear earplugs but I could barely communicate with my residents and attendings who grade me. When I was scrubbed in for surgery, I couldn't pop an earplug out for a second to hear what someone was saying to me without breaking the sterile field and getting kicked out. A week and a half into this hell and being unable to sleep and having panic attacks waking me up and nearly crying at the hospital, I made the decision to withdraw from the rotation, which I'm so glad I did.
I was careful with my hearing but tried not to "overprotect" as I had read about. It just kept getting worse and then my family's voices were even too much for me. I tried super quiet "pink noise therapy" off my phone for a couple days but that seemed like it might have been making me worse so I stopped.
As of 3 weeks ago I started to get small twinges of pain, especially in my right ear. I became even more careful, wearing earplugs driving. I had lunch with a friend in a quiet, although maybe a bit windy, park and then threw a football back and forth while talking and it's been all downhill since then. I basically can only converse in whispers now. I moved home from my apartment and when I drive into the city (with double protection) to see my boyfriend, it's so sad how little we can do together now. His voice is hurting from whispering so much. He's been quite understanding but has had moments of frustration. It's terrible that we're barely even able to talk on the phone now. We've been together over 4 years and we were probably going to get engaged next year. It's heartbreaking but I pretty much told him if I don't get better, I won't resent him if he decides to leave because I love him too much to drag him through this misery with me. He keeps saying I'll get better and we'll get through this but right now I have so much doubt.
As for medical school, becoming a physician has been my dream since I was in grade school. I wanted to be a better doctor than all the terrible ones I had seen treat me or my family. I killed myself in high school and college with academics, sports, extracurriculars to get into med school. I had to take two years off before med school to figure out my migraines after the concussion, and honored every single one of my third year clerkships now in medical school. I was only a year away from my MD, but now it all feels like it was literally for nothing. I should have spent all that time I wasted studying enjoying what I had before this debilitating hyperacusis set in. I could have spent so much more time with my boyfriend who I love so dearly if I hadn't been pouring all of myself into medical training. He was so patient and supportive of me along the way and now I feel like I'm just going to lose him. And I honestly wonder if the stress I was under is what screwed up my health anyway. At this point, I would give up being a doctor in a heartbeat if I could still get married and have a family. I can't even talk to my therapist I started seeing anymore because it hurts to talk. I'm isolated most hours of the day in my room except when I dare venture to see my boyfriend or watch TV on volume 5 with my mom wearing earplugs. And I haven't been able to go to the gym, which I loved before this and was my main stress reducer. Trying to manage some workouts in the basement but lately feeling too down to do much of anything.
Questions:
- Do I need to cut out talking on the phone with my boyfriend? We're semi "long distance" now with commute taking up to 1.5 hours with traffic.
- Do I have any hope of the pain going away? I know I could live with my tinnitus and even much worse tinnitus if the pain would just go away.
- Any supplements/treatments I should be trying right now? Currently I'm taking NAC, ALA, D3, Acetyl-L-Carnitine, Benfotiamine on top of multivitamin. Ginkgo biloba spiked me. I will be starting Tru Niagen (worth a try I guess, Amazon had a sale) and trying to get my hands on Ambroxol. I'm also taking Valerian root, Magnesium, and Inositol at night. I was thinking of trying to get Lion's Mane and then doing the whole Niacin protocol. I do have access to Psilocybin but I've heard mixed things.
Thinking of all of you and especially those of you that I know have this worse than me.
P.S. If it matters at all, my migraine meds which I take daily are Keppra, Nortriptyline and Phenobarbital. I have been on them for 2 and a half years and they never seemed to change my tinnitus. I'm wondering about upping Keppra and/or decreasing Nortriptyline or Phenobarbital but also afraid to make any changes right now for fear of worsening hyperacusis. All these meds are low dose. I have never been able to tolerate higher doses of anything because I get side effects so easily.