@Teri, thank you. You truly are a fighter spirit and i hope you can fight Meniere´s in the future. I have had this diagnosis for about 6 months now. I still somehow hope that there is a misunderstanding and soon something happens, which will cure everything for me. This is childish, i know. There will be no cure. I have to live like this for the rest of my life, for decades.
Yesterday i felt absolutely desperate. Tinnitus was, and still is, so loud i believe it cannot be any louder for anyone. i honestly believe now that this is the loudest T a human being can get. I feel sad, angry, tired.... this fatique is overwhelming.
I have had this loud T now for a week. I hope this is one of MD´s many phases and it will fade a bit in the near future like it has done many times this year before.
I absolute hate the medicine ( the whole science) for not taking T seriously and for that there is now way to measure how loud this noise in my head is in order to compare it with the folks´who say the classic "i hear it when it is silent"-phrases. There is tinnitus and then there is Tinnitus.
I am angry, i know. But the thing is I suffer here alone and there is no help available.
I admire your attitude, i do. I am not a positive person at the moment. I believe that without Tinnitus, and MD, i am a happy and positive man. This disease has taken me down. i am sorry for these negative feelings.
If there is anything positive i can think of... the other scourges MD can give have been relatively mild during the last weeks. No nausea, no ear pain, no bad aural pressure, no vertigo attacks... just this T that i utterly hate.
MD is so unpredictable. I know i had some good days early this month and now i feel like this again.
i wish all of you a very nice day.