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Hi.
I am going through a rough patch right now.
Had a flu in early October that lasted 3 weeks with high fever and muscle pain.
The aftermath was an increased tinnitus that is driving me down very fast.
The increase in sound did not come at once (but I am not 100% sure since I could not really feel when I was filled with fever and muscle pain all over my body)
The doctors said I have some fluid behind my eardrums and told me to do pressure equalizing several times a day.
Doing them the best I can but I have another problem that I am dizzy, which they also said could be because of the fluid and after a flu. It gets even worse then I am doing the pressure equalizing.
Since I have a story with depression It is a real struggle right now with a very increased tinnitus on my left side.
Before I could think of other things while i played a game, watched TV, listened to music but right now It's overpowering everything to much that it never let's me relax from it.
My Tinnitus started November 8th 2011, I remember the day clearly.
I was at home, suddenly some high pitched noise started, I did not know where it came from first, I tried searching around for it in my home and only later that day I found out It was in my head.
I freaked out, I knew nothing about tinnitus except for the ringing in the ears.
I tried to understand why, I did not have any exposure to loud sounds in the near proximity to when it just started to ring.
I went through the normal doctors office, I had some gunk in my ear they cleaned it out and I hoped it would stop then.
It did not.
They told me to give it time, in the meantime I cried every single day, I did not know how to handle the noise. I went insane.
It went as far as I one night sat with a kitchen knife, pointed towards my heart and wanting to end it. I could not handle it.
I called my mom that same night and she drove to me and we went to the emergency, I got put on antidepressant with sleeping pills and had a choice, either I stay in the phychiatric ward or my mom signs over responsibility for me. I picked the latter I did not want to spend any more time there.
After that begun a long struggle, It took me a year before I started to get somewhat used to it, I could still hear it every single day. But I could have days that I wanted to keep going without feeling like life is horrible.
What makes it even worse Is the fact that I suffer from depression periods since 2008, before I had my tinnitus. I did not take any AD until after tinnitus erupted however.
I tried many of them, and was afraid with the Tinnitus side effects among others.
Remeron worked well except for the 2 weeks I could not get out of bed, but the worst part of it I had an never ending hunger, and with me being overweight It did not work out.
I later on found prozac (fluoxetine) which does have tinnitus as sideeffect as all ssri, but I found it to be lighter on sideffects and noticed not much of them.
Was on that for a year, before I wanted to quit myself. And it worked fairly well. Been off them for 2 years now.
But now back to the present.
I am today very depressed in myself, I really don't like my life, I am unemployed, I have not many friends and I have a hard time identifying myself, what I live for.
And with this increased tinnitus now it makes it SO MUCH WORSE.
I am trying, every single day right now to not give up, to know that better times WILL come. It's just a matter of not giving up until then and keep fighting every day.
I gone through CBT, normal therapists plenty of times during my years. Last period I had from November 2014 - May 2015 helped. But it's over.
I am going back to a normal therapist that my doctor will send me to, but I prefer CBT. But I guess better then nothing right now to start with.
I am not sure why I am writing here, or reading this board because I know it makes it worse.
But right now I just wanted to read some stories about how things got better, I guess I am trying to find some people that struggled some periods but came out stronger and happy after it.
Sorry for the very long post, I am not sure if anyone will have the energy to read through it.
Best of Wishes to you all
Guest9201 (31 years of age)
I am going through a rough patch right now.
Had a flu in early October that lasted 3 weeks with high fever and muscle pain.
The aftermath was an increased tinnitus that is driving me down very fast.
The increase in sound did not come at once (but I am not 100% sure since I could not really feel when I was filled with fever and muscle pain all over my body)
The doctors said I have some fluid behind my eardrums and told me to do pressure equalizing several times a day.
Doing them the best I can but I have another problem that I am dizzy, which they also said could be because of the fluid and after a flu. It gets even worse then I am doing the pressure equalizing.
Since I have a story with depression It is a real struggle right now with a very increased tinnitus on my left side.
Before I could think of other things while i played a game, watched TV, listened to music but right now It's overpowering everything to much that it never let's me relax from it.
My Tinnitus started November 8th 2011, I remember the day clearly.
I was at home, suddenly some high pitched noise started, I did not know where it came from first, I tried searching around for it in my home and only later that day I found out It was in my head.
I freaked out, I knew nothing about tinnitus except for the ringing in the ears.
I tried to understand why, I did not have any exposure to loud sounds in the near proximity to when it just started to ring.
I went through the normal doctors office, I had some gunk in my ear they cleaned it out and I hoped it would stop then.
It did not.
They told me to give it time, in the meantime I cried every single day, I did not know how to handle the noise. I went insane.
It went as far as I one night sat with a kitchen knife, pointed towards my heart and wanting to end it. I could not handle it.
I called my mom that same night and she drove to me and we went to the emergency, I got put on antidepressant with sleeping pills and had a choice, either I stay in the phychiatric ward or my mom signs over responsibility for me. I picked the latter I did not want to spend any more time there.
After that begun a long struggle, It took me a year before I started to get somewhat used to it, I could still hear it every single day. But I could have days that I wanted to keep going without feeling like life is horrible.
What makes it even worse Is the fact that I suffer from depression periods since 2008, before I had my tinnitus. I did not take any AD until after tinnitus erupted however.
I tried many of them, and was afraid with the Tinnitus side effects among others.
Remeron worked well except for the 2 weeks I could not get out of bed, but the worst part of it I had an never ending hunger, and with me being overweight It did not work out.
I later on found prozac (fluoxetine) which does have tinnitus as sideeffect as all ssri, but I found it to be lighter on sideffects and noticed not much of them.
Was on that for a year, before I wanted to quit myself. And it worked fairly well. Been off them for 2 years now.
But now back to the present.
I am today very depressed in myself, I really don't like my life, I am unemployed, I have not many friends and I have a hard time identifying myself, what I live for.
And with this increased tinnitus now it makes it SO MUCH WORSE.
I am trying, every single day right now to not give up, to know that better times WILL come. It's just a matter of not giving up until then and keep fighting every day.
I gone through CBT, normal therapists plenty of times during my years. Last period I had from November 2014 - May 2015 helped. But it's over.
I am going back to a normal therapist that my doctor will send me to, but I prefer CBT. But I guess better then nothing right now to start with.
I am not sure why I am writing here, or reading this board because I know it makes it worse.
But right now I just wanted to read some stories about how things got better, I guess I am trying to find some people that struggled some periods but came out stronger and happy after it.
Sorry for the very long post, I am not sure if anyone will have the energy to read through it.
Best of Wishes to you all
Guest9201 (31 years of age)
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