What I mean? I have this horrible illness and people like Jastreboff make money off of me. I'm living in the twilight zone. I want to die. I can't wait to die. My life has amounted to nothing.
I know IAC - my life has been shipwrecked by this absolute "brown stuff" - (I'm being very circumspect here, because 'they' seriously don't appreciate it if we swear or use graphic language, though god knows we've got every reason to.)
With no treatment and no cure, all we have is our own 'personal coping methods' it seems to me.
Four years ago when my severe acoustic trauma occurred I went up to the Ear Nose and Throat Hospital in London.
I was desperate, looked it, and sounded it.
The charming /caring / sincere clinician who was interviewing me asked me how I coped.
I said "All I've got is stoical acceptance."
I sobbed.
She said "please don't worry - we would never leave you there.
Just wait till we tell you all about the Jastewboff model, and show you the scientific findings
- this man is a genius - ahead of his field.
I could tell she revered him.
She quite clearly had no Tinnitus herself.
Fast forward to now, and I have no further options other than coping.
I read up on the Jastreboff model, and it sounded like 'hogwash' to me.
It seemed like somebody had
"dreamt up a concept,
drawn a few diagrams,
devised some high-flown strategies,
and sold the idea on to the medical profession,
who were probably blinded by 'psuedo' science."
The only fly in the ointment seems to be that the sufferers "us," quickly discovered that it simply didn't work.
The reason being that:
- we still had Tinnitus,
- and it still ravaged us.
There was absolutely no change.
I had no intention of trivialising your statement IAC - I was really admiring your
'turn of phrase.'
Best wishes
Dave x