I HAVE FOUND AN ANSWER!!!
-at first autism made the pain too much..... i swear i was dying, BUT THEN i discovered that absurdity was a DRUG!
by allowing ourselves to cave to states even more immature distracts the mind and SETS THE SOUL FREE!!!!!
>you don't get it! your redemption is let yourself be even dumber than have EVER BEEN YOUR ENTIRE LIFE!! the autism is so bad it makes even small things sanity gnawing but the autism is so strong it makes stupid shiney things distract our childlike minds AND THEN IT'S ALL GONE!!!!!!
please. constrast. maybe you never knew what it was to dream..... you may have it all backwards... our greatest natures where tacking a step towards immature embracing our dysfunctions... it's magic.. A DRUG MORE POWERFUL I AM F@#$#$ HIGH ON IT!!!!!!!! take my stupid hand and let me make mistakes worth making