But when you're right smack in the middle of it, that concept is a little hard to swallow.
Dr. Nagler, I feel so sorry that this has happened to you and saddened too. I mean if this has happened to you then what hope is out there for the rest of us? This sorrow for your new condition is a genuine heart felt comment to you! I would not wish this on my worst enemy!
Maybe your T was mild before? Maybe you thought it was loud as you didnt know the difference until now?
However I am confused because for months now I have read your posts saying that the loudness makes no difference.....that it is only in the reaction. Therefore now saying that reaction is a difficult concept to stomach when smack in the middle of loud intrusive T only serves to confirm what the other posters were trying to say to you, that when it is loud it is practically impossible to habituate to or to live with. Something which you strenuously denied on many occasions. Now I am left confused as I did trust what you said and believed that it would get better in time......and now I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under my feet! I wonder how many others feel like this too? I mean if you are finding it difficult to cope then what chance do I have?
You also told me and others that to improve the T then to go and find someone worse off than you in the community (I dont think there is anybody worse off than me in the community here LOL), for example delivering meals on wheels, and not only to deliver the meals but to go inside and spend time with each recipient of the meal. This was a way to relieve the T or the awareness of the T. Would you suggest this for yourself now or do you find the loudness of your T causes you to want to hibernate indoors? As you can see for yourself loudness matters so much.
You are fortunate in that you have the white noise generators to hand to be able to start to use immediately plus your experience with TRT .....is this possible Dr. Nagler, to self administer TRT or do you need another therapist to administer the TRT to you or would CBT be better for you?
As for me, I have a minimum wait of three months before I even get near an appointment with a specialist TRT clinic and heaven knows if they will be as good as the private but too expensive therapists that you suggest. For example, the couple in Spain to whom you suggested go see Jacqui Sheldrake in London and take in the sights and enjoy family meets. Although they greatly appreciated your advice to them, they simply cant follow it as they dont have the funds to do this. The cost involved in seeing Ms Sheldrake let alone travel to UK and accommodation and food and transport etc...this is a lot of money neigh impossible for average Jo Blogs but for pensioners on a fixed income that is not a super rich pension it becomes impossible. I trust you can understand this. So they struggle on in Spain but at least they have each other, a loving married couple.
So please Dr. Nagler would you have any suggestions for those without the funds to go to these private clinics other than delivering meals on wheels?
Dr. Nagler would you consider taking Retigabene now to see if it helps and are you willing to risk the dangers of this drug now. or even LLLT?
I so wish you well Dr. Nagler and I am filled with empathy and compassion for you and hope that you can resolve this quickly and efficiently. In fact I am looking forward to your posts telling us how you conquered this new intrusive level of T with suggestions for us cos we here on this forum need all the help and advice we can get.
In the meantime bless you and your family, be well.........