Welcome to TT. Don't panic and don't despair. We understand what you are going through. We have been there where you are now. So members here have empathy for your sufferings.
Do you know what caused your tinnitus (T)? Since your T is so new, you may want to get your doctor to prescribe a course of prednisone if your T is caused by acoustic trauma or loud noise exposure . Members here often recommend this for new T sufferer or when there is infection.
As for the suffering, the endless ringing, the fear, anxiety, high stress, depression and sleeplessness etc., they are all very normal reaction and quite common when T is new or when it kicks into another level. We all had experienced the T trauma to varying degree. I went through hell with my ultra high pitch dog whistle T and severe hyperacusis a few years back. I was in a mess for a while. But now I am living a normal life, enjoying and living it abundantly despite the T still being there. I wrote my success story like many other members. Do read up as many success stories as you can to learn how to get better.
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...w-i-recovered-from-tinnitus-hyperacusis.3148/
Give it time. Time is the common element of success for most people. Time will heal and your perception of T can change. Trying to be positive can definitely help. The first step towards positivity is to read up on the success stories and the Positivity Thread. They give you hope and you can learn some insights how to get better. Being positive will help reduce stress which is bad for T. So keep being positive, seek some helpful strategies such as CBT, TRT, mindfulness meditation, exercise, hobby, etc. etc. Try take supplements such as NAC, Magnesium, B12, D3 etc. and see if you need some diet change to cut down on intake of salt, sugar, MSG, caffeine, alcohol etc.
By the way, since you are so troubled by the ringing, perhaps try to mask your T so you won't get so stressed out. If you haven't tried it yet, here are some suggestions. Take good care. Keep positive. God bless.
1) Mask at bed time if having trouble sleeping, by using a sound pillow or sound machine with pillow speakers. There are good sound machine & pillow therapy systems like this one:
https://www.amazon.com/Sound-Oasis-...d-Oasis-Therapy-System-Speakers/dp/B00MH5HKTA
2) If you need masking on the go, try load an ipod with nature sounds or music using itune. If you have a smart phone, you can download free APPs for soothing or T-masking sounds. Use wisdom in the use of headphones or earbuds as extended use or excessive volume may hurt your ears. Try set the volume slightly below that of your tinnitus.
3) With PC & speakers, you can try these excellent masking sounds to see which one masks best:
TT's excellent audio player:
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/audioplayer/
or this online sound library, particularly the self-mix nature sounds:
https://mynoise.net
or download free sound generator 'aire freshener':
http://www.peterhirschberg.com/mysoftware.html
or click play to mix these sounds with this simple sound generator:
http://asoftmurmur.com/
or search youtube with words like 'tinnitus masking sounds', 'white noise', 'rain sound' etc.