Hey vick fox,
For you to feel like ending it all because of a lil noise that you will eventually not care about shows how serious your depression is. In the beginning i felt like me enjoying life to the fullest is over, but i realize people who have debilitating diseases and paralyze try to live life to the fullest, and i am completely healthy. It may feel like you want to end your life but please don't. Everyone initial reaction when first being diagnosed with T is dramartic but as the weeks and months pass you will get use to it. But tbh i am more concern about your depression than the T. If u want to you can always message me and we can go through conquering T together. I have low moments to but i let that be moments and nothing more. Majority of my life i still smile and enjoy my day. Even if you dont want to smile still smile because like Joel osteen said sometimes you have to play in pain. Life aint easy sometimes but we here so make the best of it no matter what. You are blessed. Remember that