Really Scared of the Future

[nina95]

Thinking about the future at the most difficult time of T suffering is a distorted thought, called cognitive distortion in CBT. We use the current reality to project a catastrophic future, called catastrophic thinking. I learn my lesson. I did just that, worrying about my future while my present (5 years ago) was just unbearable & unlivable. My ultra high pitch T and severe H plus relentless anxiety and panic attacks painted a very dark future, if there was one at all. Every time I thought about the future, it sank me into a mental black hole. Others told me the future might be that bad that I shouldn't be so desperate. Well they are right. Now a few years later, I am back to normal and living an enjoyable & productive life. T still rings but I don't give a dime high or low. My body is hardened to the T ringing. My perception about T also change with time. Now I consider T as part of my being and it is not a threat. The same sound that used to overwhelm me, no longer. So I say to myself that had I known about what I am now, all those horrific sufferings about the future could have been spared, and I probably would habituate even faster. I have now learned that the past is history, the future is not yet a reality, the present moment in front of me is the only one I can do something about, and I try to live the moment positively and enjoy my life. If we can remove fear about the future from the T equation, T should have less tyranny over us and we will be less stressful about it. The less stress, the easier time with T.

Thanks for your wise words. the fear is definitely a big part of the struggle for me

 

[Mark Beehre]

Thanks for your wise words. the fear is definitely a big part of the struggle for me

As it is for ALL people who find themselves on this board due to tinnitus. However you have a great chance of recovery so try your hardest to put the fear to one side. I recognize that such a challenge is an uphill battle, there are moments where fatigue will slow your ascent or give you the impression that you are in reverse. This is not true.

I am feeling better this week than I have ever felt in the 4 months since onset early October 2014. I am not 100% there and I am still dealing with the pain and reactivity, but I have realized that if more days are like this week, then I will have a very bright future ahead.

Just remember that once you get to the summit it's all downhill from there!

 

[Nico]

Hi nina..im 20 years old...already experiencing my tinitus last year until now...i want to go to ENTs but when i read this forrum..i felt there is no hope treating this disease..but when i read the comments of others..i feel more courage for fighting this in the future...i really scared of what will the future..like you..but im a christian and has a great faith in God..i know that God gave me this to know how to fight this battle with Him..never lose hope..i know someday there will medications to cure this...