I didn't get any email notifications saying there was 'action ' on this thread so missed all this 'pondering' about me, my age, my desire to perhaps be deaf completely, etc., etc.
Let's clear some of them up - and a good little read of my PROFILE/INFORMATION TAB, will do just that. Like, if
everyone had a smattering of decent basic information in their Profiles, life would be a lot simpler on this forum. For me anyway!
~ So, age = 65 not 70's yet.
~ T at age 6 from acoustic trauma. So yes now running 59 years from "initial impact" - and "BOOM!" to another theory that sometimes gets bandied about, that one mainly gets T when stressed, or 'unhappy', or WTF. I can tell you, at age 6 in the middle of Africa I was having a blast!!! Well, save the 'blast' from the thing that blew up next to my ear while "having fun"...Boys will be boys. Tut, tut!
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That initial T I could hear in a quiet room. Bothered me for a year or so. A QUIET ROOM!...Ho hum. I wish!!!
~ First killer T was at age 30. Loud sounds all day. Demolition shit. Dumb me. Bad result. Now could hear T in any fairly non noisy environment. But within some years had adapted well enough to make even old Nags proud...
without expensive noise generators, do-goody therapy, or WTF. Also in retro realized I had H as have pictures of me wearing aircraft carrier grade over-head earmuffs while digging rocky soil on our little farm in Missouri. Hitting a rock with my British "Bulldog", high grade, lifetime steel shovel was a "ding" too loud. However, within 3 - 5 years of second T onset, lived 99.5% normally and had a blast...for 26 years. Oh that bad H dissipated within a year or two...so all this stuff about TRT "treating H" in 2 years is bosh to me. It can go bye-bye on it's own in that time, free of charge.
~ Then the big-arse damage c/o the medical profession. Ototoxic T and H in 2006...do your maths...yep now age 56!!! This is when quality of life really started to get hit. [Yep all in my Profile/Information].
~ Ye Gods, but 6 years later this horrible level of T (could hear it almost anywhere) and H has resolved enough to be able to dance again and have a 75% normal life. I never complained about my T or residual H as just put plugs in if dangerous noise environment...and the "reactivity" was acceptable.
WELL THANK GOODNESS I DID NOT GET MY AUDILE NERVES CUT AFTER ALL!
~ OK, then we get to "Level 4" and yeah, now I'm an oldie of 62, but just before, still dancing Gangnam Style like a 20-bopper. (See video if don't believe me - in Positivity Thread). Then the cruel gods give me "stealth H" and more T volume without me even knowing it! Uggghhh!!! Mega bastard this time. Quality of life near zero and counting.
Three years now and very, very slow resolution of H. The T levels NEVER go down for me once I reach a new "high" (sic). Also H can return "stealth" if time exposure too long (e.g. a speaker-phone phone-call).
Now T is above all other sounds. H not really resolving. Reactivity high.(Remember that quaint time, for 24 years, when could only hear it in a
quiet room or when meditating or...Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Would deaf be better with chance of ALSO having T???????? Ummmmmmm: NO WAY!!!!
I can still be around quiet people, normal people, conscious people...It's just they seem to be rather thin on the ground. And isolation is a killer. As
@Dana accurately said...it's the isolation and lack of ability to interact with people - and that you get "dropped", as too high maintenance to be around...Ummmm, like people have to actually become "conscious" of the bloody noise they make!!! Yeah dude...
such a hardship. Pa-leeeease!
Moral of the story...........
- Don't get T.
- Don't get old you heal slower.
- Don't get T.
- Stable t is not that hard to adapt to. Seriously.
- But still don't get T.
- H and "reactivity" are the life killers. Normal T is pretty darn easy in comparison. Yeah even LOUD.
- Still, don't get T.
- Once you have T, or especially if you have more T events, as you wandle along in life, I think the chances are that you can get louder and louder T over time, and that it takes longer each time to "heal", deal with, whatever.
Final message...
- Don't get T!!!... And get yourself on the 'Round and Oval Window Reinforcement' Trial!
Zimichael