Scared of Silence

[Marlino]

I'm going in holiday with my girlfriend tommorow. 5 days hiking in the alps. Unfortunately I cannot be happy about it. T is all I can think about and I am scared about the silence in the mountains, since I am really tortured by my T already here.
Also these happy events always show me how unhappy I am since T onset and how my life and thinking is affected by it.

Any words to cheer up?

 

[Beste]

Hi Marlino
I just came back from 6 days trip in Amsterdam with my boyfriend and his brother. We shared out room with a stanger too and that means 4 people in a room!(that was actually student type of holiday lol) At night I couldn't mask my T. It always the loudest at night but you know what? I managed to sleep even in a dead silence! We had been planning about this trip for a very long tike because I love Anne Frank so much for a long time so I never imagined I could be sad in Amsterdam. Like you said, these type of moments make me sad about myself. I couldn't enjoy the most of it but I went and made my dream come true. It always be a something I wish I could enjoy more because I was not able to do "cannabis" thing, drink coffee, drink beer in Amsterdam because I have already messed up with my GABA receptors. But the most important thing is that I did not give up on my dreams even with those jet engines, low hummings and dirty electricity in my head and ears.

You can do this.
Cheers

 

[stophiss]

My suggestion is to change your paradigm. I know, extremely hard. But being afraid of anything only makes it much worse. A lesson of life is addressing fears. Now there are many strategies for this. Maybe you need to bring an ipod shuffle clipped to your jersey with either music or white noise to mask your T. Maybe you need to get on a regiment of meds to address your anxiety and/or depression.

Hiking thru the Alps sounds like a trip of a lifetime. Don't fear it, embrace it. Develop a strategy mentioned above to cope and enjoy it. Me personally I would rather cycle thru the Alps but that is just personal preference.
Your T will become less of a big deal if you embrace life and immerse yourself in things you love that will distract you from your troubles. Why people escape....reality can suck.
Have a great trip and when you come back, be sure to revisit this thread and tell us about it.

Safe travels and Cheers from the US

 

[Cityjohn]

I'm going in holiday with my girlfriend tommorow. 5 days hiking in the alps. Unfortunately I cannot be happy about it. T is all I can think about and I am scared about the silence in the mountains, since I am really tortured by my T already here.
Also these happy events always show me how unhappy I am since T onset and how my life and thinking is affected by it.

Any words to cheer up?

The mountains are actually quite nice wind and such makes me not notice my T. The crickets will help at night. I actually prefer the mountains.

 

[glynis]

I think you will be fine in the day with lovely views and smells and natural sounds and keeping fit and the fresh air should help you sleep.
Stay positive....lots of love glynis

 

[Marlino]

Thanks guys and girls!
When I ve learned one thing in life its to face fears.
Even though I'm complaining here like a rabbit.

Let you know about things when Im back.

 

[Path Maker]

Enjoy it to the max! This holiday belongs to YOU (NOT t------- <<--let's not even give it airplay!).

Have FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[stophiss]

The mountains are actually quite nice wind and such makes me not notice my T. The crickets will help at night. I actually prefer the mountains.

I hear crickets all the time. ...my T de jour.

 

[Marlino]

So I am back and overall it was pretty good.

T was annoying first but got better then for most of the time. Since we were above 2000m no trees and no circadas. Only groundhogs were whistling...and a lot of silence. I was pretty much ok with it though.

 

[Elgringo32]

Hi Marlino
I just came back from 6 days trip in Amsterdam with my boyfriend and his brother. We shared out room with a stanger too and that means 4 people in a room!(that was actually student type of holiday lol) At night I couldn't mask my T. It always the loudest at night but you know what? I managed to sleep even in a dead silence! We had been planning about this trip for a very long tike because I love Anne Frank so much for a long time so I never imagined I could be sad in Amsterdam. Like you said, these type of moments make me sad about myself. I couldn't enjoy the most of it but I went and made my dream come true. It always be a something I wish I could enjoy more because I was not able to do "cannabis" thing, drink coffee, drink beer in Amsterdam because I have already messed up with my GABA receptors. But the most important thing is that I did not give up on my dreams even with those jet engines, low hummings and dirty electricity in my head and ears.

You can do this.
Cheers

Hi Beste,
How do you know that you have messed up your GABA receptors ?
I have also this kind of dirty electricity in my head and ears.
Cheers

 

[Beste]

Hi Beste,
How do you know that you have messed up your GABA receptors ?
I have also this kind of dirty electricity in my head and ears.
Cheers

I got my tinnitus from benzo withdrawal. I damaged my brain from a cold turkey.

 

[linearb]

I got my tinnitus from benzo withdrawal. I damaged my brain from a cold turkey.

I know it's very hard right now, but you're going to be okay. Many people have walked this path.

 

[just1morething]

I damaged my brain from a cold turkey

Ever think of eating hot turkey? Microwave maybe? Gravy on top would be good too.