Still Feeling Vulnerable...

[Michael Leigh]

@Michael Leigh do you like Smetana? Shoshtakovich?

I am not familiar with this composer although I do know of: Dmitri Shostakovich. I don't have much music by Russian composers although I do have Rachmaninov. His Symphonies: 1,2and 3 I can only describe as sublime!

I particularly like opera and arias sung for soprano and mezzo soprano voice. I also prefer Baroque music. My favorite composers in this are: JS Bach, Handel, Telemann etc. Classical music is Haydn and of course Mozart, Beethoven. I especially like the work by Felix Mendelssohn: The Hebrides Fingal's cave. As I live by the sea this work has special meaning to me whenever I hear it.

I would like to know the composers you like?

Michael

 

[Ed209]

Yes Eq - my approach and my attitude is still positive - hopeful - looking for the best way forward.
However, I have suffered a massive life changing experience, which I am struggling to accept just now, but I hope to come through all this.
Reflecting on the love and support I have been shown on here today, compared to your spiteful cynicism, your comments do not figure in my equation.

Just how does a positive attitude represent a lie?
Would you recommend a negative one.?

Well said Dave, and that's exactly the point isn't it. It's about moving forward and trying to steady the ship through troubled waters. Some posters here would rather the ship sink, and that's their choice, but when they force their hateful opinions on others it becomes much more than that. Even in my darkest hour, I would never make such a comment, but that says a lot about the mentality of certain people. Sometimes it's hard to know whether we should feel sorry for them, as they are obviously struggling, or to be human, and feel annoyed at such comments.

Anyway, it's the end of an era for you, but look at it this way, you travelled the world and performed some great gigs throughout your life doing the thing you loved. This should be celebrated and not mourned. Some people go their entire lives without learning what they were put on this earth to do. You discovered this early on and have delighted people with your amazing playing, and I mean that wholeheartedly. Seeing the various clips of you playing was an absolute pleasure; you've got it all: smooth phrasing, great intonation, and superb technique.

When my live music career ended early I felt every bit like you do now, but after a while, I realised the music in us doesn't die. It never dies and neither do the memories. I channeled all my energy into teaching instead and found a lot of pleasure seeing some of my students go on to form bands and win talent shows. I suppose seeing them play now is like watching me play by proxy.

Start a new chapter in your life and hold what you have achieved dear to your heart. Keep in touch with your jazz friends and never say never. Maybe you will do a show again at some point in the future. Even Paul Gray had one last hurrah as I highlighted in that thread a couple of weeks back.

In time you will adjust to the changes. You're too much of a nice guy not to.

 

[AZeurotuner]

Until finally you took off the mask worn by all those who supposedly have a positive attitude here. I'm waiting for your colleagues in the forum to also start removing the mask. It's just a matter of time and patience to discover the lie that they persist in maintaining.

You can have a positive attitude and still feel down sometimes... It's called being human. Jazz took a chance and opened up, allowed himself to be vulnerable, then you come in here and shit all over on him. Meanwhile you're spam posting hyperbolical, negative, pessimistic nonsense all day that only serves to drag other people down to your basement level apartment of doom and gloom. You should seriously be ashamed of yourself.

 

[Greg Sacramento]

@Jazzer A truth for the both of us is that we are old and for you that's a positive. I have posted fMRI studies of older people with tinnitus. These studies show that tinnitus focus always moves to different parts of the brain ( small frontal lobe areas) at age 60-65. Perception methods focus needed for older people.

Some are: To keep the mind alert. Structured daily routine. Spending quality time with a loved one - pet - several pets. Hand massage. A warm bath. Quality sleep. Solve riddles. Breathing exercise. To realize that s_ _ t happened over our lives and not to place rhythm or reason to that. Not to see yourself as doing things that a younger person can do. To welcome children into one's life, but to also spend social time in person with people of similar age.

Dave, you do most of the above. I believe that all cause is exact - meaning it happens, but all avoiding is impossible. Somehow sooner or later we are all subject to negatives that could have millions of variables.

 

[Michael Leigh]

Seeing the various clips of you playing was an absolute pleasure; you've got it all: smooth phrasing, great intonation, and superb technique.

Great post @Ed209
I would have liked to have seen @Jazzer video clips. Any chance?

 

[Ed209]

Great post @Ed209
I would have liked to have seen @Jazzer video clips. Any chance?

Post them here @Jazzer, your new fanbase awaits.

 

[dpdx]

I am not familiar with this composer although I do know of: Dmitri Shostakovich. I don't have much music by Russian composers although I do have Rachmaninov. His Symphonies: 1,2and 3 I can only describe as sublime!

I particularly like opera and arias sung for soprano and mezzo soprano voice. I also prefer Baroque music. My favorite composers in this are: JS Bach, Handel, Telemann etc. Classical music is Haydn and of course Mozart, Beethoven. I especially like the work by Felix Mendelssohn: The Hebrides Fingal's cave. As I live by the sea this work has special meaning to me whenever I hear it.

I would like to know the composers you like?

Michael

I love JS Bach, Beethoven, Mozart, Tschaikovsky, Camille S Saens, Vlvaldi, Johan Strauss, Maurice Ravel, Boccherini, Dvorak, Debussy, Corelli, Chopin. I started to listen to classical/baroque music when I was 22.

I love this

 

[fishbone]

Yes Eq - my approach and my attitude is still positive - hopeful - looking for the best way forward.
However, I have suffered a massive life changing experience, which I am struggling to accept just now, but I hope to come through all this.
Reflecting on the love and support I have been shown on here today, compared to your spiteful cynicism, your comments do not figure in my equation.

Just how does a positive attitude represent a lie?
Would you recommend a negative one.?

Dave please do not entertain posts from people that have sunk their own ships and want to take down everyone else with them. You are doing great, just keep moving forward. We are here for you, I am here for you and your beautiful partner in life is there for you.

Take those baby steps that I mention in my posts. Small baby steps each day, they will eventually add up to a huge accomplishment. We are all in the same boat. All of us suffer and some more than others, we try to piece our lives together one step at a time....one day at a time. It's never an overnight success, but if we stick with it, it can make a meaningful impact on our lives...

Tinnitus is no different, it's an obstacle that CAN be defeated IF we let it happen and stay with our daily game plan.

As I always say, My heart, soul and support is open to you at all times...PM me if ya like


PS-I feel affliction daily. My ears are bad, lonely and just life doesn't feel right at times. All I have right now is my faith, my martial arts and my dogs. I am training 2 hours a day in my yard daily. I don't know how tomorrow will be, but I will focus on what saves me TODAY. That's my martial arts.

Do your best today and let tomorrow be tomorrow...

 

[Jazzer]

You can have a positive attitude and still feel down sometimes... It's called being human. Jazz took a chance and opened up, allowed himself to be vulnerable, then you come in here and shit all over on him. Meanwhile you're spam posting hyperbolical, negative, pessimistic nonsense all day that only serves to drag other people down to your basement level apartment of doom and gloom. You should seriously be ashamed of yourself.

Dear AZ - thank you for your support.
Yes - I am struggling with my losses, there is no doubt about that.
But I am looking for a way ahead.
I have the loveliest wife, children, grandchildren, pussycats, that all depend on me.

One thing I can promise you.
I will go on with love in my heart.

I have absolutely no idea what Eq has in his heart,
but I do know I don't want it.

 

[AZeurotuner]

Dear AZ - thank you for your support.
Yes - I am struggling with my losses, there is no doubt about that.
But I am looking for a way ahead.
I have the loveliest wife, children, grandchildren, pussycats, that all depend on me.

One thing I can promise you.
I will go on with love in my heart.

I have absolutely no idea what Eq has in his heart,
but I do know I don't want it.

You have a great mindset Jazz, it's sad to see people attack others for such fallacious reasons. I hope things improve for you soon my man, rough patches with T are inevitable, but as we all know can be turned around. I have ups and downs as well, I always manage to pull myself out though, I know you will be able to the same. We'll let the Trolls stay under the bridge while we cross it...

-Ross

 

[Jazzer]

You have a great mindset Jazz, it's sad to see people attack others for such fallacious reasons. I hope things improve for you soon my man, rough patches with T are inevitable, but as we all know can be turned around. I have ups and downs as well, I always manage to pull myself out though, I know you will be able to the same. We'll let the Trolls stay under the bridge while we cross it...

-Ross

I had a friend who was always on a downer.
We used to accuse him of taking 'misery pills.'
In the end it got so bad, we renamed him
"Happy-go-lucky!"

It actually raised a smile!! x

 

[Elfin]

@Jazzer I'd too love to see footage of you playing!

@Ed209 voiced great sentiments and has a great attitude regarding the channeling of adversity into something positive. I hope that in time you can continue to feel the enjoyment which playing has obviously given you and be able to channel and express this in a form which is not worsening to your tinnitus.

I hope you are feeling better @Jazzer. Your positive attitude in the face of the struggles we face has been inspirational and your care and kindness and love for family also shines through in every post.

 

[Greg Sacramento]

I will never put down a negative person. A person who confronts others with a negative attitude may appear hurtful but ones within a social group should be able to understand that there be biological reasons. They may be things that a negative person cannot easily control. It could be genetics, heredity or a brain trauma. Most all are negative towards something. It may be dissatisfaction with their ENT or their doctor's knowledge level per medication practice.

http://www.cccoe.net/genetics/heredity.html

 

[Bill Bauer]

I will never put down a negative person. A person who confronts others with a negative attitude may appear hurtful but ones within a social group should be able to understand that there be biological reasons. They may be things that a negative person cannot easily control. It could be genetics, heredity or a brain trauma. Most all are negative towards something. It may be dissatisfaction with their ENT or their doctor's knowledge level per medication practice.

http://www.cccoe.net/genetics/heredity.html

A pessimist is an experienced optimist.

 

[New Guy]

Jazz took a chance and opened up, allowed himself to be vulnerable

Well said! I admire people who open up. It takes great strength to show who you truly are or how you truly feel. How often do you see that in today's society?

 

[AZeurotuner]

Well said! I admire people who open up. It takes great strength to show who you truly are or how you truly feel. How often do you see that in today's society?

Thanks kind sir... I couldn't bear to see a good guy like jazz getting trolled for having a rough patch (something EVERYONE experiences, regardless of how positive or negative they are). Kicking a man when he's down is something I absolutely will not stand for.

 

[valeri]

For most with an onset of subjective tinnitus it will get better. After my first severe subjective onset my tinnitus remarkably stopped brothering me at 3.5 - 4 years. I think what made a difference was a small drop due to ear healing from syringing. The rest of my rebound was due to safe welfare techniques taught to me by my wife. I actually have more education in body and mind than she does, but her experience provided a different outlook.

With my newer onset of tinnitus that relates to many severe physical conditions, my wife has said I'm not going to say that you will be able to live a normal life as this may place too much pressure on you. She said that what we can do is to try to provide you comfort with relaxing techniques and use safe physical therapy. I'm sure that Dave's wife provides the same.

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/positive-psychology/2011/10/are-positive-emotions-always-beneficial/

I can only wish that my husband was understanding and supportive like your wife

Living with this really requires a lot of support, a nice word at least.... when I say something I always get the same answer: I don't know! Or It will go away

Greg you are one lucky man!

@Jazzer
There's many of us in the same boat as you so we understand!
It's ok to let it out! It absolutely sucks!

 

[Greg Sacramento]

@valeri Thank you. I have had congestive heart disease for awhile, so my severe loud physical tinnitus isn't a concern. It would be nice if I could move my neck, jaw and face, a delayed reaction from whiplash.

I spend some of my time discussing physical tinnitus that others have by PM.

Valeri, I wish you the best, the very best.

 

[Greg Sacramento]

I'm sorry for saying in my post above that my tinnitus isn't a concern. It is, but my doctors and insurance prefer to address my heart condition over anything else.

I deeply feel for anyone who is suffering. I tried my best to go heart to heart with a couple of posts to Dave - Jazzer in this thread. Love you Dave.

 

[OnceUponaTime]

@Jazzer I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. Sometimes there are no words that can comfort us but a simple hug. So here's a {{{{hug}}}. Please know that I am praying for you and wishing you better days.

And please do share some of your videos with us.
OnceUponaTime

 

[Jazzer]

@Jazzer I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. Sometimes there are no words that can comfort us but a simple hug. So here's a {{{{hug}}}. Please know that I am praying for you and wishing you better days.

And please do share some of your videos with us.
OnceUponaTime

Hi - O.U.T.

Blimey - that was some hug - my ribs!
I loved the quivery brackets by the way - that says it all.
(I might have to borrow that idea - unles you've patented it.)
I have to admit that I do not have a faith - a long story/but I did try - however it is always lovely if people pray for you - it means that they care.
Yes - I have put a few videos up in General Chat
called Jazzer's Videos.
Thanks for your very kind best wishes,
love
Dave x

 

[Jazzer]

A pessimist is an experienced optimist.

......er......sometimes I get a bit opti-pessmic......

 

[Jazzer]

I can only wish that my husband was understanding and supportive like your wife

Valeri - you absolutely deserve to experience loving arms around you, genuine respect, and ongoing care.
I hear your suffering - I know all about that.

What I would say is that those who have never suffered this thing will never ever understand the implications of experiencing severe Tinnitus.

Yes - they can come out with their ignorant and dismissive unhelpful advice, which is just expedient for them, because your suffering is 'a bit of a nuisance' to them,

"A bit of a nuisance....."
Oh dear, what a shame for them.

Sometimes I would like to grab such a person by their ear'oles, and shake some sense, respect, concern and just plain 'humanity' into them.

You deserve much better,
you deserve love and respect,
and I've got plenty of both,
Dave x

 

[Jazzer]

I'm sorry for saying in my post above that my tinnitus isn't a concern. It is, but my doctors and insurance prefer to address my heart condition over anything else.

I deeply feel for anyone who is suffering. I tried my best to go heart to heart with a couple of posts to Dave - Jazzer in this thread. Love you Dave.

Love you Greg,
and thank you for your input buddy x

 

[Lorac]

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"
I had to write that on a sheet of paper and tape it to the wall. Reading it every day helped me cope with giving up on playing my oboe.
My adult daughter also plays the oboe and she has recently borrowed mine because her own instrument is in need of repair. Even though I no longer play, it bothers me to have it missing from my house like this. Is that weird?
Incidentally, my mother was a music major and a very good trombone player. She is 94 years old and still has her old trombone standing in the bedroom closet.