Hey everyone, it's been too long!
I thought I'd come back to write my success story because for me these kind of things were very important at the beginning of this thing, so I took a break from my thesis (that I have to hand in at the end of the month if I want to get out of university finally) and here I am...
I'm not gonna tell you my whole life story or how things started for me because I did quite a job doing that a year ago, so if you're interested in the things I tried to do, or the therapy I went to, it's all in my old posts.
Anyways... I know it's really hard at the beginning, but it gets so much better with time. You just have to be patient and focus on other stuff. The first four months I was suicidal. I don't know how I survived that to be honest. It took willpower, therapy, and a lot of friends who had my back. It was a really stressful time for me and my family (I live far away from them), it was at the start of the semester and I was taking a very important class that period that I don't know how I passed with the highest grade. I used to cry and breakdown in class, in the street, at public transportation, lmao. It was terrible.
To calm down I tried everything: mindfulness, CBT, even got my tarot cards read, haha.
Fast forward to now... Everything is back to normal. I went back to living my life as a 21 year old college student. I go out. I go to the movies. I sing karaoke. I go dancing with friends. I went back to gigs (everything with earplugs, obviously!). This year has been really good for me and I'm happy. Tinnitus can't stop me and although its been the hardest thing I've gone through, I'm still here and that makes me very very proud.
I still think about it almost every day, but it really really does not bother me at all. I don't know if it's much lower, but I don't normally hear it, just when I lay my head on the pillow. Things do get better, just give it time.
On the other hand, I think religion had a very high impact on me while I was in the dark. It made me feel good and it calmed me down.
So yeah, I don't know, I don't like how I wrote this but I haven't practiced my English in quite long so sorry if it's not that fluid. I just don't really know what to write.
I thought I'd come back to write my success story because for me these kind of things were very important at the beginning of this thing, so I took a break from my thesis (that I have to hand in at the end of the month if I want to get out of university finally) and here I am...
I'm not gonna tell you my whole life story or how things started for me because I did quite a job doing that a year ago, so if you're interested in the things I tried to do, or the therapy I went to, it's all in my old posts.
Anyways... I know it's really hard at the beginning, but it gets so much better with time. You just have to be patient and focus on other stuff. The first four months I was suicidal. I don't know how I survived that to be honest. It took willpower, therapy, and a lot of friends who had my back. It was a really stressful time for me and my family (I live far away from them), it was at the start of the semester and I was taking a very important class that period that I don't know how I passed with the highest grade. I used to cry and breakdown in class, in the street, at public transportation, lmao. It was terrible.
To calm down I tried everything: mindfulness, CBT, even got my tarot cards read, haha.
Fast forward to now... Everything is back to normal. I went back to living my life as a 21 year old college student. I go out. I go to the movies. I sing karaoke. I go dancing with friends. I went back to gigs (everything with earplugs, obviously!). This year has been really good for me and I'm happy. Tinnitus can't stop me and although its been the hardest thing I've gone through, I'm still here and that makes me very very proud.
I still think about it almost every day, but it really really does not bother me at all. I don't know if it's much lower, but I don't normally hear it, just when I lay my head on the pillow. Things do get better, just give it time.
On the other hand, I think religion had a very high impact on me while I was in the dark. It made me feel good and it calmed me down.
So yeah, I don't know, I don't like how I wrote this but I haven't practiced my English in quite long so sorry if it's not that fluid. I just don't really know what to write.
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