My Last Letter To All The People With Tinnitus
Hi Dear Friends,
I am already planing my suicide. One year ago after MRI my tinnitus worsened and since then I have been disabled. One month ago the tinnitus worsened further. I have had tinnitus for 20 years that gradually became unbearable. I have 2 types of tinnitus, one is noise induced and the other is from Trigeminal Neuralgia. Both of them not treatable.
I would like to say thank you to the people that created Tinnitus Talk. They have done more than any doctor or scientist.
This condition was never taken seriously and this is our own fault. If any of us with tinnitus including me was fighting for a cure, some of us wouldn't have to kill ourselves and leave our families and all the lovely people we know devastated.
Remember if you want your voice to be heard you need to shout. Let everyone know how badly you are struggling. Use social media, use YouTube, create videos of how bad tinnitus can be.
If every person with tinnitus made their own video "Tinnitus - My Story", do you know how much awareness you would be creating?
Make the people who don't have a clue about tinnitus understand what you are going through.
Why do you suffer in silence? Does it not make you feel bad that there is a pill for everything but tinnitus? Are you not tired to be scared of every noise that can make it worse? You are not helping yourself this way. You need to be proactive. If every person with tinnitus let the world know how bad it is then things would be different.
If you happen to read this, you have the power to change things. You have the power to save lives. Don't just get better and go on with your life as there is no guarantee that down the line you won't be exposed to dangerous levels of noise or ototoxic substances or have head or neck injury and your tinnitus misery will start again. And because you had not been proactive, you did not donate to research, you did not advocate, and so when you come back to Tinnitus Talk you will find that nothing has changed in the tinnitus field. Welcome to the tinnitus hell again.
My last wish is to the people who are managing Tinnitus Talk to ask new and existing members if they feel comfortable creating short videos of what caused their tinnitus, how does it sounds, how they feel about it and what their doctor recommends.
My final words:
If there were more awareness of tinnitus, my story and many more could have been different. My son is 2 years old and my daughter is 16 years old. They could have still enjoyed their lives with their father. If you don't want that to be your story or someone else's, please protect your ears, donate for research, advocate, create awareness.
If all of us gave something from ourselves, we could change that "nothing could be done, go and learn to live with it".
I will now go and donate and after that I will create "Tinnitus - My Story" video.
I will then take my own life to stop this torture.
Son, daughter, wife, mother, please forgive me.